monolog lagi

assalamualaikum.
kembali pada mode normal.
selepas seminggu dilanda kegilaan 'itu'.

i'm that.
rapuh. seperti lagu opick.
kadang2 rasa minat dengan sesuatu 'keduniaan' yang kalau tak dapat, aku akan meratapi macam kucing ilang anak.
dan kegilaan itu akan berterusan sehingga aku bosan
kemudian aku akan lupakan kegilaan itu terus selepas muncul kegilaan baru

si M buat video dakwah cara sempoi. hampir sejuta subscriber
si B buat blog dakwah ala2 street dakwah. dua ribu lebih follower
si R buat lukisan dakwah di facebook. friends & follower berbondong-bondong. tak termasuk pen-likes sekali.
si H tulis novel remaja islamik. pembaca & peminatnya ada di merata dunia.

si 'aku' pula hanya bersembunyi di balik skrin laptop
mengkomen, mencebik, mendengus pada facebooker yg ada kegilaan & kebodohan masing2.
tanpa mengambil sebarang tindakan
si 'aku' cuba menulis, tapi dia tiada pembaca
si 'aku' cuba memberi, tapi tiada siapa menerima
si 'aku' cuba menjerit, tapi hanya pada bantal

dia terlalu takut untuk keluar dari tilam Vono yang empuk itu
terlalu takut untuk berhadapan dengan homo-sapien di luar
dia seperti kura-kura yang hidup dalam cangkerangnya
tak mahu buktikan kuasa si 'ninja turtle'

si 'aku' akan cuba bangkit dari lena yang panjang ini.
terima kasih kepada semua yang memberi inspirasi

My anthem is my syahadah-Hlovate

i am **** locked

i am in detective mode

-_-' yeah, as if watching detective drama for four hours non stop will get you dean list. but seroiusly, i love detective stories, it make me alert and be observant. practicing the science of deduction gitu.
so here's the drama that i fell like a wrecking ball infront of the television.

1.

yes, of course.encik Benedict (mengingatkan aku pd benedict test) sangatlah charming ditambah dgn kegeniusan watak Sherlock tu sendiri.Sherlock bukan genius sbnrnya (pd pndpt aku), tp dia observant. and being observant my friend, is very important in this ignorant world. i really like his sarcasm, his egoist and humourous character that never bored you (as sherlock always said that other people is bored).
i never read the book and i always want to. but reading classical novel is really....yeah hard for me (mind my english) & my mr imagination (yeah, i really dont have idea about the zaman dahulu kala & cannot imagine it). so maybe this new fresh adaptation can make me defeat that weakness.

2. Quiz of God (season 1,2,3)

 wargh.....
aku nak menangis bila mengingati dvd ku yang sudah hilang itu. the best detective story from korea.
Quiz of God is barely focused on medical investigation. Dr Han is born genius, but somehow being a 'lab rat' of unresponsible people. tapi itu tak bermakna dr han x blh stay dgn personalitinya yg gila2, humourous, penyibuk & etc.
the ending (in season 3) is quit sad, leaving a big question mark in viewers about dr han. but anyways, the content is superb, if sherlock season only have 3-5 cases, i think this drama have near 10 cases for each season. yelah, the toughness of cases is moderate compare to sherlock.
wuu...sapa2 yg nampak dvd cite ni silelah beli ye. mmg tak rugi.

3. detective conan

yes, my first love on detective story. DC is basically inspired from the interest of writer in sherlock holmes. shinichi kudo, the young detective become the 'lab rat' of a secret organisation that turn him into a child. he help his father-in-law-to be solving cases in an interesting way.
i love the comic, the anime, the live action version but still the best is the anime (kerana live action version ada yang kurang sesuai ditonton oleh kanak2 ye adik2 sekalian). but it just got too many episodes (ngalahkan dragon ball) and somehow i just want to know the ending (plez Mr Gosho Aoyama, i had enough).
but as far as i know, the last battle would be shinichi defeating the mysterious white guy.

4. CSI
 yes, i grew up with csi. my friend naim just crazy about it and she infected me. of course my fevret cast would be Grissom, from CSI LA (it didn't mention the LA actually). but he's replaced by other guy and that's the moment i stop watching it. other than that i love CSI NY. never like the miami version (bcoz i think the main guy calmness is annoying. no reason).

yes, i'm waiting for more cases to be solve in my life. sometimes i just want to be the freak calm genious that can counter all types of problem. handling with elegant style gitu.  yes, sometimes i'm too positive but sometimes i'm too weak-freak-stupid. oh, well. we're human right. kalau hidup straight takde bengkak bengkok apalah thrill. =p

who next? your mother

a picture tells thousand story
kalau nak tulis karangan berdasarkan gambar mcm skema kbsm mungkin boleh diceritakan begini;

si ibu memandang anak-anaknya yang dikandung dan dibesarkan dengan penuh kasih sayang. mereka terlalu muda untuk mengenal erti penderitaan.

"ibu mahu kamu terus hidup dan membesar menjadi manusia yang berguna untuk masyarakat dan agama. kamulah penyambung rantai-rantai perjuangan Islam, kamu lebih berharga dari berlian paling mahal di dunia".

"ibu, selagi ada ibu kami akan rasa selamat. ibulah dunia kami"

dan si ibu masih memeluk anak-anaknya tatkala maut di hujung nafasnya.

aku mahu menjadi mereka. mahu menjadi si anak. mahu menjadi si ibu. mahu jadi setabah dan sekuat iman mereka. sesungguhnya imanlah yang menguatkan kasih sayang manusia.

Yūjin or tomodachi

my latest post i write about my primary schools friends that all have osem story. i met them at my friend wedding.
a few days ago, i attend a funeral. of one of my friend, my really good friend. she involve in an accident in front of her house and having coma for two days before really saying goodbye to the world. she is my high school friend, and that event gather all of our good friends from high school.

i feel so dissapoint in myself for not bother to sms or call her as i always do whenever sem breaks. i'm too busy with my life (sarcasticly).
it make me so sad to think that someone has to be die to gather our friends. why all of us being so selfish for not even care with her that did not further study in order to work for her family.
she might be hit from a car but i think it's our fault, especially me, for forgetting her.

but yeah, i know this is Allah's fate, He know the best for us human. the only thing i can do is praying for her, i really hope she's including in Allah's rahmat. then i remember a quotes from Hlovate in Schubert Serenade
Hanya satu garisan antara hidup dan mati. Satu-satunya penghubung kita dengan dunia lagi satu tu hanyalah doa.

then at that gathering, i barely know that one of my best friend is high school had losing her mother quit a short time ago. i did'nt know she has to struggle to take care of her sick mom and watch her died. a day with many shocking news from my high school friends.

so that event give an electric shock to me to appreciate my life and people around me. we can stop ranting about our life if we take lesson from other people life.
itu baru aje org sekeliling, kalau nak banding dgn org kat somalia, palestin.. haih mmg tutup muka dgn bantal lah malu gile.

so to someone yg tgh gaduh dgn kawan baik tu, think about it again. life is too short to be egoistic and hate other. kita pun bkn perfect kan. sebelum kita kehilangan dia, hargailah dia. begitu juga ibu bapa anda dan guru2 serta lecturer yg dikasihi sekalian.
('-_- kau ckp mcm org tua)

fara, syud, raudhah (aku tukang amik gamba) =)

geng racing beskal jasmine (dia xde beskal -_-')

sbnrnya byk lagi geng tp penat nk upload, jd korang pilihlah karakter mana yg suka

my lady~

seperti
asiah yang berhadapan dengan firaun...
sumayyah yang tegar syahid dalam kalimah syahadah...

la  tahzan ya ukhti
hatimu rapuh seperti kristal
namun usah dipertikai kekuatan semangatmu
yang lebih membara dari api kaum majusi
usah dipertikai kelembutan hatimu
yang bisa meleburkan larva yang mendidih
tulus kasih sayangmu
tak bisa ditandingi

Jadilah seperti mujahidah di zaman Rasulullah
yang menjadi tulang belakang kepada pahlawan-pahlawan Islam
Jadilah seperti Rabiatul Adawiyah
yang menyimpan hatinya demi Allah s.w.t