Rant

Assalamualaikum.greetings.

Tarik nafas dan hembus.
Because we gonna talk a really serious matter.
It's called debt.
Or in my case, study debt.

So i read a post in facebook stating the unadjusted payment schedule that makes the debtor has to pay a large amount of money. Who's the creditor? Of course the one that being advertise on the tv, that people used to call it P.Ti.Pu.

To tell you the truth, i was not aware about the seriuosness of this payment back issue eventhough my cousins had suffer from it too. But facing it right now really scares me. Well i have to ..whether i like it or not... work part time after graduation bcoz i want to settle up my debt asap. Especially the 'p.tipu' debt.

And the older generation just dont get it why so hard for me to get a proper job, married and live a stable and normal life. Well maybe i am the exception of the stable life.

Yes, part of the reason i stay with the part time job bcoz i love the job & the people. I get vacation when everybody working (*which i like bcoz u never suffer of crowd people).

Second is i want to get experience, just to know what is it that i want to do in life, the thing that i love to do. I really really dont want to become a zombie workers with a stressful life,office politics.

Third, i assume living with family is cost saving for a fresh starter like me. I dont want to 'perjudikan' all i got to move into a place i dont know, with the job i dont sure would love it. Yes, it is time for me to grow up,but i also have to think about my security.

This is not a melodrama nor soap opera, like it or not i have to find my place in this world. this is not renaissance era where the woman just being woman & support their man. Modern life don't help us but instead push us to the cliff of harsh reality. example are this ptptipu issue.

Older generation dont face this kind of problem. Yeah, i never thought of this fact when all of the old people point bullet at me. I always questioning why other people life so easy but not mine? I am one of the people facing this kind of problem, but i know i'm not alone.

This is the harsh reality i have to face,this is my life tough task. What i can right now is just continuing my life with that part time job (with many people have bad thought about it. No, not a haram job, it just a low class job). I love to work with the things i love (books) and with the heartwarming people i met. People who talks bad about it dont pay my ptptn (ah, no need to hide it anyway.yes it is ptptn).

Maka bertabahlah farhana.
Your life is not normal. It is extraordinary.