the tale of a kids in weird town

Assalamualaikum.

Hi!

My internet is fu**ing me up today. But it just I have to write about this, so yeah, lets pray I can barely post t today (13 sept).

I finally watched the movie IT!!!! Yes, I am really excited because it just totally a psychopath movie. Bear to know that I watched it alone, with no popcorn (saving money) and can’t grab anybody to hide my fear. I missed watching movie with Farah and Nurul that we always comment (sometimes almost curse) at every irrelevant scene.

To be concluded, yes, it is a wise action to restrict 18 year and above kids to watch it in cinema. Because I think it will affect their emotion because this movie is almost all about them. How kids think, how they react and the valuable thing that they have (which mostly be forgotten when they grow up). I like the setting of 1980’s as I think it is a golden era for many countries as many interesting things happen.

Basically IT make us remember about our childhood. The silly friend and silly things we do. And I would say these kids are having such an amazing adventure with amazing spirit and value. It is like watching another adventure of Harry Potter and his schoolmates. I like how they balance the freaking scary moments with these lovely childhood moments so we can relax our blood a while before it rushing like crazy. Each of these kid has scar in their life, and in addition they are living in a fu**ing weird freak town but their friendship seems to neutralise all the pain and hardship. Who said kids don’t have a serious matter to be think of?

So the focus of the scary part story is the clown. OMG I am so fu**ing hate the clown (and all the clown in this world). I mean, not as in person because yes let don’t judge a person by their make-up. But seriously, why would a kid love someone who wears load of make-up and singing cringe song? At the first scene if I am Georgia I would run as I see a clown in a dark hole (no need to have conversation with something creepy). IT (the clown been recognised as IT in this film) is totally a psychopath who have the ALL ACCESS to all places in the town like…shit how would these kid get away from it. IT is not totally from their imagination and can harm them more than a serial killer.

It gives me chill because in real world, even though town like Derry maybe not exist anymore, we are facing the same situation. Even in Malaysia, the missing kids are high, not to include the kids abuse. Just please, do care about them. I am reminding myself especially as I seem to be cold hearted when dealing with them. Pftt

Back to the clown, I just want to know why he exist and why the town is been cursed. Which is why they noted at the end credit this is just the first chapter. Duhh...America and sequels is like two lovebirds.

Come to think again, the reason I want to watch this movie is because of the clown. I totally not agreed with what he done or his motive as psychopath can't think straight like normal people. I always curious about a psychopath character. Come to think again, here are the list of my all favourite psychopath character;

1. Joker

The one and only late Heath ledger.The character is crazy but he is damn genious like seriously how Christopher Nolan can think of it. It become perfect with the enthusiasm of Heath Ledger to perform the character. 

2. Sherlock 

As in Benedict Cumberbatch. Another fu**ing genious psychopath..

"I am  a high functioning sociopath, do your research"

Ok, whatever you said. But I just love the character that totally do the unexpected thing. 

3. Min

I forget the character name but Park Bogum is playing that character (seriously i lost my mind of the title...Detective something. There is Jang Nara too). He is the character which seems cute and calm but.... shit. How come you are so calm in planning a murder. I fall in love with Park Bogum in this drama rather than in Reply 1988.

And maybe some other too that i don't remember. But totally not Christian Bale character in American Psycho or Christian Grey from 50 shades of grey (irony isn't it). I can bear a murderer but not a raper. 

I rest my case.

that's all. bye. 

the tale of a kids in weird town

Assalamualaikum.

Hi!

My internet is fu**ing me up today. But it just I have to write about this, so yeah, lets pray I can barely post t today (13 sept).

I finally watched the movie IT!!!! Yes, I am really excited because it just totally a psychopath movie. Bear to know that I watched it alone, with no popcorn (saving money) and can’t grab anybody to hide my fear. I missed watching movie with Farah and Nurul that we always comment (sometimes almost curse) at every irrelevant scene.

To be concluded, yes, it is a wise action to restrict 18 year and above kids to watch it in cinema. Because I think it will affect their emotion because this movie is almost all about them. How kids think, how they react and the valuable thing that they have (which mostly be forgotten when they grow up). I like the setting of 1980’s as I think it is a golden era for many countries as many interesting things happen.

Basically IT make us remember about our childhood. The silly friend and silly things we do. And I would say these kids are having such an amazing adventure with amazing spirit and value. It is like watching another adventure of Harry Potter and his schoolmates. I like how they balance the freaking scary moments with these lovely childhood moments so we can relax our blood a while before it rushing like crazy. Each of these kid has scar in their life, and in addition they are living in a fu**ing weird freak town but their friendship seems to neutralise all the pain and hardship. Who said kids don’t have a serious matter to be think of?

So the focus of the scary part story is the clown. OMG I am so fu**ing hate the clown (and all the clown in this world). I mean, not as in person because yes let don’t judge a person by their make-up. But seriously, why would a kid love someone who wears load of make-up and singing cringe song? At the first scene if I am Georgia I would run as I see a clown in a dark hole (no need to have conversation with something creepy). IT (the clown been recognised as IT in this film) is totally a psychopath who have the ALL ACCESS to all places in the town like…shit how would these kid get away from it. IT is not totally from their imagination and can harm them more than a serial killer.

It gives me chill because in real world, even though town like Derry maybe not exist anymore, we are facing the same situation. Even in Malaysia, the missing kids are high, not to include the kids abuse. Just please, do care about them. I am reminding myself especially as I seem to be cold hearted when dealing with them. Pftt

Back to the clown, I just want to know why he exist and why the town is been cursed. Which is why they noted at the end credit this is just the first chapter. Duhh...America and sequels is like two lovebirds.

Come to think again, the reason I want to watch this movie is because of the clown. I totally not agreed with what he done or his motive as psychopath can't think straight like normal people. I always curious about a psychopath character. Come to think again, here are the list of my all favourite psychopath character;

1. Joker

The one and only late Heath ledger.The character is crazy but he is damn genious like seriously how Christopher Nolan can think of it. It become perfect with the enthusiasm of Heath Ledger to perform the character. 

2. Sherlock 

As in Benedict Cumberbatch. Another fu**ing genious psychopath..

"I am  a high functioning sociopath, do your research"

Ok, whatever you said. But I just love the character that totally do the unexpected thing. 

3. Min

I forget the character name but Park Bogum is playing that character (seriously i lost my mind of the title...Detective something. There is Jang Nara too). He is the character which seems cute and calm but.... shit. How come you are so calm in planning a murder. I fall in love with Park Bogum in this drama rather than in Reply 1988.

And maybe some other too that i don't remember. But totally not Christian Bale character in American Psycho or Christian Grey from 50 shades of grey (irony isn't it). I can bear a murderer but not a raper. 

I rest my case.

that's all. bye. 

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part two

lets put an end to career talk. then we talk about woman who successfully marry a guy. most of friend that i know would put an end towards their career hunt. they have no worries about flying high or achieving their ambition because they finally found happily ever after.

it sounds like a jealous statement, right?
partly yes and partly no.

of course as a friend i would probably happy for them. but i just cant brain that their ability just stop there. so they are focusing on family which is i know very very very important. but i feel like they are not solving their problems. i mean, one of my friend and i had the same situation in career choice but suddenly she got married and stop searching job. i feel left out not because i jealous of her but i seem to dissapoint at the way she give up with career. i know she can do better than just doing business online (and it is not her own product).

i would like to see myself and my peers as a problem solving to the world problem. rohingya, palestine, environment pollution, social problem....and many more. just like will turner quote in 'me before you';

dont just settle. live your life to the fullest.

i dont like the idea of one just thinking about herself and her family but dont try to contribute anything to society. yes,maybe i am that person who just be a keyboard warrior but do nothing. i really dont want to be a person who settle down in comfort zone but done have the ability to fly high.

and i just want one chance...

random yang tak awesome

salam alaik.

hari ni aku pergi wedding kwn baik aku raudhah.
alhamdulillah.

well thats not i want to talk about here.
it just something that related to it.

i chat with one of her friend, who actually from terengganu but works here. she said she is raudha's ex-housemate, uni-mate, and currently coworker.
a girl come from terengganu just to work here with a salary that i can guess not big enough just so she could survive.
i am not saying terengganu is a kampung place or what but yes, maybe chance to work at the south is better than north. especially in kuala lumpur.
i had another friend, well a bunch of friend from perak, kelantan and other places migrates to kl and putrajaya to work as kindergarden teacher which all of the world know is a noble but not a really fancy work.
and also, i met some of my uni-mate (both from kelantan)who got married and settle down at big city doing various independent job.

why am i stating all that?

because i want to scream to old-minded people out there, there is vast ways for a youth today to stay survive. the noble step would probably when they do 'hijrah' from their hometown (read: comfort zone). as i grow up i had stop hoping for the real rules and regulation of a perfect life. before this i used to think yes, maybe the worst thing i could end up being a kindergarten teacher, having a 9 to 5 work just like my parent, meet a good guy and get married before end up with bunch of lovely child.... the fairytale story.

but my fate seem to take a far route from that 'perfect' life. i dont meet up with guy as i am basically a terrible social awkward (especially with man. i blame my introvert blood), i meet my turning point at university but it seem i take a u-turn back to my old self, making all the believe and hope and dream that i build just destroy. before this i got the perfect mind and thought of how a human should live. but today, like any adult out there, i would just do anything to survive.

although i am quit unhappy with it and the family & society pressure add fuel into it.
i dont blame them, well it happen to all people, right?

i just want to explain to them that actually my fate and my friend's fate is not that differ. they got an office-hour job that can get public holiday easily, but their stress and salary is the same with me. we even got the same education debt. plus and minus here and there, at the of the month we have the same amount of money left in our bank. and for godsake, i know i should be thankful that i am living with my parents that some of the stress can be cool down a little bit quicker because my home is my best cave (cave is the term familiar with introvert).

i am a clueless youth but i know what makes me happy. good friend and work environment, family, cat, book so right now i just want to keep all these things close to me. i know i should grow up, make a hijrah for a better life but you should know i am working hard on it. i want to be a writer and write story but i dont know and still searching for the opportunity. that's why i am like 'yes i gonna stick close to my dream by working at a bookstore'.

and to be a writer i know i have to write something. i am struggling to do it because i dont want to be a close-minded writer who only know how to leech on a rich guy or dreaming sth that too good to be true. i want to be a writer that speaks for the unfortunate people or at least as a marhaen people who offers support to other people to do well. i know i am more fortunate than some other teens so i really grateful with what i have.

that's why i am asking you people to stop pushing me to the cliff, making me applying for a meaningless job that i know not a little bit define my life. it sounds arrogant and selfish, but just accept me as who i am. at least i dont want to do things just because other people ask me or other 'normal' people do it. i have ambition, i have faith and a little bit of strength. i just need Allah's guide to go through it.

so.....
after all the ranting...
what it got to do with a marriage?

well wait for my second entry.