Apa yang kau percaya?

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Assalamualaikum. Percaya atau tidak ini cubaan kedua aku untuk tulis entri ni. Sebab tadi aku tertekan back maka punahkan segala benda yang aku dah tulis.

Hmm maybe niat tak baik la tu tadi. Istighfar.

So i cut it short somehow this video triggered about the battle that going to happen in our country on this 9th May. The election.

This is not a manifesto, a hatred letter nor a chain letter for any party. Although i might sound like defending one side but it is just my personal opinion. i dont represent any of the party so this entry cannot be used as by any party.

Setan,S: *smirk So you belong to those party? The moon or the rocket party?

Me,M: at least not your party

S: You are so shallow. Do you know that 90% of youth joining that party just so they can rebel? They think it is so cool to choose something 'indie' rather than 'mainstream'.

M: First, where did you get the statistic? Although i quit agree with you. Second, do you know why mainstream is so dangerous? It is because everyone is listening to the same damn thing everyday, they being feed by the fact being natural is safe and end-up with the same bullshit everytime. Oh, if you dont believe me just turn on the radio. Do tell me how many hours they talking about the annoying gossip and how much time they did say something meaningful.

S: See. You are angry with the system and you want to rebel

M: I want to be changemaker. I do believe that there is something wrong somewhere in the system and at least i want the people to actually think about what they believe and what they forced to believe.

S: Pftt look at yourself, you dont even have a proper job.

M: You can save your wit tomorrow. I only have a question for you. In your opinion, what is the most epic war in the world?

S: WW1

M: Why?

S: Well you can Google it. I mean you ...

M: For me the most epic war is Badar's War and at the time Sultan Fatih conquer Constantinople. I can give you fact straight from the Quran which you can't denial how detail and accurate it is. Surah Ali-Imran verse 213-218 talking about Badar's War. You can check the recition yourself because I am not the one who have the authority to give a deep meaning. But all i can say, as i read the verse it just inspire me. The fact that with less army and other weakness, Allah s.w.t just want the Prophet s.a.w and the Muslim army to believe in Him. Only Allah s.w.t can give them the victory. Just with one stand of words 'I believe in Allah s.w.t' give them the really powerful spirit and strength to win the battle. They even got the angel as their army, all with Allah s.w.t will.

S: Dude, it happen in a really long time ago. You cant relate it in nowadays. There is no prophet..

M: I am not finish yet. So one principle to win a war is our believe. And what we believe is important. If you believe that your race is more important to fight for, i am afraid you will become just like Ku Klux Klan. Worst case, you might agree with a race eviction just to stand for your race. Hmm..i wondering who is your muse if race is what you fighting for.

S: The Buddhist monk who so faithful to their religion did a cruel thing to Rohingya's people. And dont forget about the ISIS. Fighting for your religion does not mean you are on the right side.

M; Well every religion do have extremist. I don't even said that the cruelty of KKK is part of Christianity. Okay enough about that. Then, the Constantinople. Do you know the verse that make my body shivering?

S: What?

M: When Prophet s.a.w recite (hadith narrated by Imam Ahmad) that 'Constantinople will fall into the hands of the Muslim army. The king is the best king and his army is the best military'.

S; So?

M: I dont know. Look at the people you look up to. Does he have that characteristic? Does the people he lead had that characteristics?

S: And you are so shallow to believe that person with kopiah and serban is good while others are bad.

M: Mulianya seorang manusia itu apabila dia tunduk ke bumi seperti Rasulullah s.a.w. Hinanya manusia itu apabila dia mendongak ke langit dan mendabik dada seperti Firaun. Dan jangan kau percaya sesuatu ajaran hanya kerana ketuanya, kerana Siddhārtha Gautama tak pernah mengaku dirinya Tuhan walaupun dia seorang yang berakhlak. Percaya sesuatu kerana kau tahu sesuatu yang kau percaya tu akan bawa kau pada Yang Maha Hakiki dan tak ada tolok bandingnya. Hormat seorang pemimpin kerana akhlaknya, bukan kerana bertapa banyak hartanya. Dan cerminan pemimpin itu adalah apa yang ada disekelilingnya, orang disekelilingnya. Dan semua yang aku cakap ni takkan berguna kalau kau tak cuba ambil tahu. Walau dari media mainstream, internet atau cakap mulut orang, kau boleh pilih yang mana kau nak percaya. Jangan percaya bulat-bulat pada konon dakyah yang aku cuba sampaikan tapi teliti betul-betul semua sumber yang kau boleh dapat.

Kemenangan hakiki itu datang dari sakit penat lelah. Palestine belum mencapai kemenangan walaupun bridget Al Qassam adalah antara pasukan militari terbaik dunia. Kalau kau rasa kemenangan hanya dengan menekan papan kunci, dengan mencanang buruk orang, dengan projek pelaburan berjuta ...jadi mungkin kita belum menang lagi. Not even closed with the Palestine people who never give up with their faith in Islam.

Allahu.

Aku malas speaking lagi. Penat cakap dengan sesuatu yang memang negatif.
Dan serius, aku paling malu dengan diri aku sendiri lepas tulis entri ni. Sebab aku dah kalah dengan 'pilihan raya' takdir hidup aku sendiri.

we are not terrorist

Assalamualaikum
Greetings

Song: We Are Not Terrorist- Lowkey

Sementara muslim di benua lain di dunia menghadapi ancaman dari luar baik dari segi pendirian agama mahupun keselamatan dan nyawa mereka, kita di Malaysia buat apa ye?

Ok jom baca Twitter/IG/Facebook

Hmm..someone post a status or video.
Hmm..someone dislike it.
Hmm..someone say harsh thing about it.
Hmm...there is a social media war.

Clap. Clap.
Syabash mere bete. Syabash.

Aku bukan apa, benda ni berlaku depan mata aku. Dua orang Islam bergaduh di depan aku bersaksikan beberapa orang bukan Islam. Yang setahu aku orang bukan Islam itu mempunyai hubungan yang sangat baik walaupun mereka pernah juga berbalah (namun tidak ditunjukkan secara terang).

Aku malu.
Aku bukanlah manusia paling bertanggungjawab atau acah-acah baik sangat. Hanya aku dan Tuhan tahu bertapa hinanya perangai diri aku. Jadi aku langsung tak ambil pusing jika salah seorang dari muslim itu meminta aku untuk menyokongnya. Aku boleh mendengar tapi bukan menghakimi hanya dengan mendengar satu pihak.

Dear, friend. If you are seeing me as an easy target to get into your group then you really underestimate me. I seriously have many issue in my mind that need to settle. And I know you have yours too. So when is the exactly time did we have to care about this childish argument.

You want an advice?
Why..did he/she did something unpleasant to you? Does he/she hurt you until you bleed (literally)?
Then you should seek the authority like police and doctor to treat and settle the assault.

No?
He/she said something bad about you?
Then talk to her, explain to her to clear the misunderstanding.

Not brave enough?
Then sabar and solat. If you are too angry to talk to he/she, the keep silent. Dont spread rumours just to make he/she seem bad. If you do so then you are the same like her.

So he/ she is actually a bad person that you need to warn everyone?
Back to question number one.

Ohh..so they cannot settle this small matter?
Then back off from this danger zone. Ignorant is the best remedy for hater. They wont feel the hatred anymore.

So your problem solve. You are settle down in some peace environment.
Omoo there is someone like her in this place.
God whats wrong with all people?
You should left again..like a 'brave wounded warrior'.

Can you imagine how the world would be if every single person act like that? The world, like today is full of ignorant people. The weak person who can't afford to get away will suffer till the end, and the strong one will always punish people. So we just have to wait for Kiamat so Allah can punish them.

Sigh~

Stop arguing over small matter like you want the politician to stop argue about huge matter. Stop hate someone just because they are different, like you want the Syiah and Sunni to stop fighting. Stop ignoring other people like the arrogant rich elite people do to the poor. Stop it guy. Stop.
Stop yourself.

The prophet Muhammad s.a.w would be very sad if you ruin the ukhwah that he build almost all his entire life. Even as a kid he show the people around him the ultimate akhlak of human being. It is not being weak but every emotion have to deliver in a rational way. You get angry when someone play with your religion, but you yourself never show a good akhlak to show how your religion is precious to you.

Come on friend. Even to fight with your weak iman, just do it. Stop hating other people. If you cannot do that, just start loving Allah s.w.t. He will make it easy for you.

Heard that, Hanashinichi?
Bear that in mind, girl!

Blah la kau J

Assalamualaikum.
Greetings.

Ini lah mukadimah yg proper. Bukan mcm sebelum ni, mencarut mcm org tak betul.

Jadi siapa J dlm dua entri lepas aku? Yup, ia sememangnya apa yg semua fikirkan. Mmg sbnrnya nk tulis tajuk penuh buku Tamar Jalis tu tp aku tak nak obvious sgt kekacauan emosinya.

I cry today. Pfttt bila je kau tak menangis, perempuan. I mean yeah aku rasa nak buang everything and everyone. I dont even care this entry pakai bahasa rojak. Screw me.

And so i run. I run away with Hyuga (my car) to the place i have been in my life. My schools and some places that i found calmness (#gununglambak #diystore. Can u believe it). And right now i am in a mosque beside my old school.

To told u the truth, this is the very special place i always go when i am ruin. Haha. Failing in exam, ditching by my crush (lol never la), arguing with best friend.

Even in my university life, i found calmness when i go to mosque. And library. Because the park are too crowded with people and yeah it is not quit pretty view actually.

I am far from being the very good girl who pray a lot. I found calmness just by sitting alone and maybe read some quran or pretend to busy with phone while actually i am having a deep thinking.

Back to the cry subject... I know i can run away. But i always keep come back to the same place. I am angry with God sometimes, but by the end of the day i still come to His place.

I dont know what to do in my life (as always).
So yeah..whatever. but sincerely i really afraid that this would happen to me.

*Find youself jong hyun suicide note on youtube

Years back... I almost a thin layer of paper to take my own life. My feeling are like always hanging around that suicide subject, it takes only a guts that will command my body to act.

I pray to God that give me a way, give me something to change my life. And later,  He did. In a very unexpected way. I found usrah and few friends that seem to tied my heart with them.

I am a very sceptic person, i dont easily getting friendly with people. But somehow, they never give up on me that i decide to give my all to 'that way' and them.

I found Islam as my addin (a way of life).

This is not a good ending neither have connection to the title. But i better stop now. He is going to call me. And i feel,this time i have to sincerely answering His call.

Bye.

Berdialog dgn J

Aku penat

Bila kau try hard untuk siapkan kerja kau supaya boleh proceed kerja lain. Tapi it takes other authority untuk tentukannya, menyebabkan ia pending

Lepas tu kau sakit hati

Sebab kau jenis yang kerja 'dgn diri sendiri'.

Kalau nak suruh aku pass through the authority, better jgn bagi aku banyak kerja kot.

Tuhan nak aku rasa neraka ni untuk entah sampai bila.

Aku tak boleh move forward, move back. Aku kena statik kat situ

Fine

This is not even my life, my body and my soul. Semua ni pinjaman je.

So screw everyone and everything

People do change. Because they want to cure themselves from the pain

Apabenda aku merepek

Bercakap dgn J

"I dont give fuck about people anymore"
"Kenapa kau kena mencarut?"
"Sebab itu je perkataan paling sesuai?"
"Sebab manusia selain kau adalah teruk dan kau paling baik?"
"Entah. Aku tak rasa mereka teruk atau aku baik. Neither one. Aku hanya malas nak ambil tahu"
"Itulah sifat pentingkan diri sendiri,my friend"
"Tapi aku tak kacau orang"
"Betul. Tapi bayangkan orang kacau hidup kau dan orang lain bersifat pentingkan diri sendiri macam kau. Kau rasa dunia aman damai ke?"
Gelak.
"Kelakar?"
"Aku pun pernah nak jadi superhero, penyelamat dunia but screw me. I am not capable enough to be like that. My fate dont fair me a better life."

"Entahlah tapi aku rasa kan, nowadays orang dah tak pandang kau baik atau buruk. Tapi apa yang kau ada... Iphone, kerja opis, kete, suami best hahah"
"Semua material tu untuk orang lain,bukan aku. Aku lebih rela orang tak pandang aku. Aman sikit hidup aku"