Becoming Makoto

Assalamualaikum.
Pertama sekali biar saya kenalkan siapa Makoto (a character in rich man poor woman drama)

Satu masa dulu, seorang gadis yg mewakili...i can say 60% of graduates that had to struggle just to get employed. We're talking about japan, where most graduates are intelligent but still struggle to get a job.

Sounds like me?
Well quite a bit, apart from the intelligent part (well she good at memorizing things).

I like that character bcoz it's soo suit my life now.
Err...wait. you have mention it b4 right?

Yup,but anyway the thing is i do have a job that are not seen as a job to some people. It is something that related to my interest actually, that is books!
For an introvert like me books is an incredible invention (hiperbola).

I like working with something that make my adrenaline rushes, the process of displaying book and the smell...
Ok i lie. That's not the point actually.
I just found the circumferens and the people are okay and comfort to work with. Although they are bickering each other at the back, but it is not as bad as the office politics that i see during my internship in government firm.

Yes, really scared that i think i have phobia against government office (hiperbola again).

Yes, at least makoto have a nice office job at Next Innovation (put a cherry on that fact is the coolest weirdest cutest boss tohru hyuga). But the thing is she is giving her best shot eventhough it is just an office job, even if it is not related to her course or passion. I want to be like that.

I had promised to myself that i dont want to be zombie just doing work because it is work. You know like the people working in KL, they are so unhuman. I want to do something that i like, or related to what i like. I love books, and writing stories. But i dont have enough experience or knowledge to become my real dream job that is writer. I just someone that always have a random thought about everything. Like a social networker posting on twitter.but instead i dont want all the random thought just be a thought you post on twitter, i want to make story of it. But i am incapable of doing that right now.

I know what i want, what i can do. I just dont know how. That's why i need the experience of becoming like a slave-worker to make me think about my life. I want to meet people, work with people, go travel to make me really matured enough to make decision.

Like kat straford said "why do i have to meet people expectation?"
I know i sounds like margo for rejecting the 'normal' cycle of life. I am rebelling in silent because i know that normal life just not happen to everyone. It might happen but in different way.

The world has proved many successful people abandoning their job to do what actually they want. Because at the end they know that doing something they dislike just make their life meaningless. The happiness is not on the job, it's on you. A beggar can sleep in smile rather than a corporate businessman just because he is appreciating his life in his own way.

People just can't stop expect. So stop trying to satisfy them.
Let satisfy Allah The Merciful instead. He know us too well than ourself.

Gadis kertas

Assalamualaikum.
1,2...

I love "Pekan2 Kertas"!!!
Wahahah

I seriously love the book version, eventhough my head always imagine like the movie version (*Quentin is soooo cute & margo is soooo margo)

Okay, ada part yg aku x brp nk fhm, tntg quote & metafora john green tntg hidup. But the end, Q ada mention kita kena berhati2 memberi metafora tntg hidup. Kita mungkin bkn tali, mungkin bkn rumput. Hidup kita ni terlalu unlimited (that's my intrepretation).

Aku suka margo dlm buku. Dia nmpk lebih 'normal' berbanding apa yg ditunjukkan dlm filem. Margo tak ada perancangan spt dlm movie. Pergi ke satu tempat asing & survive dlm tmpoh sebulan. Dia perempuan biasa, yg just nk lari dr realiti hidup. The fact that dia sgt sgt sgt terluka dgn perkara remeh mcm mslh remaja menunjukkan 'dia hanya seorg gadis'. Dia act like wild child, end up miserably tp ttp degil dgn cara hidup yg dia pilih.

Yeah, semua org dewasa akan berkata "she will learn a lesson".sbb tu dia rasa dia tak pth balik. Dia bkn sengaja nk kecewakan org2 yg syg dia. Dia... i can say that she is clueless. So lets time decide for her life doing what she love. Well walaupun hidup dlm pelarian bkn impiannya. Dia masih mencari.

Aku tak suka ending versi movie sbb mcm kwn baik dia Lacey just walk away without try to slow talk. Thank God dlm buku they ended well. Also with her family.

So, do you want to be the next margo?
Of course. But part of me is Quentin. I have to stick to the norm, to the realistic world. I cant live alone bcoz i love my family no matter how much my grudge and anger towards them. I cant live alone bcoz i had friends that had gone through high hell water .

Living in people expectation is really hell.

the random talk

Assalamualaikum

Life and death.
I am just coming home from a funeral.
So one's life is taken away, leaving the people behind. His destiny has been decided.  And ours? Yet to come.
Pray Al-Fatihah for they whom in the other world far from us. May we take their life journey as a lesson and to keep us remember who are we in this world.

Huh. Actually I want to talk about the recent drama that i watched. But maybe not today. Or at least i will not post it in nearly days.

Okay updating my life. So i decide to took vacation for a month in December. Oh my god, i'm really looking forward for my trip to Mecca. I should start study now or else i will become blur. Huh, i really want to go there, find myself and the answer about my life that maybe i can't get here in Malaysia. They said travelling people are the wisest people. Because they are aware of how little they are taking stroll in somewhere strange place all over the world. I want to start my dream traveling trip with Mecca. Pray to Allah He will ease my step.

Then, i got new car. Okay, it is actually a gift from my parent but i promised to be responsible of it (the monthly payment that takes 9 years to settle). Yes, a car for a small employee like me is like a big liability. Don't even mention about the teardrops fallen when i have to pay my education debt. Tsk tsk. Me old would never thought life would be this hard. I mean, i used to take easy on everything. I dont have plan for my life. I just doing what my friend do, following the norm and at last stranded in an abandon desert not knowing what to do. And right now i just take a stroll and wondering around searching for a signal. Well yes, the car will make your life go smoothly but seriously i am a simple minded, traditional type who prefer living in a countryside (like the village in Family Outing or Invincible Youth) that are far from modernization. Because i am tired of it.

Ahh..what i am talking about actually?
Okay, stop that melodrama story. Look at the bright side.
I naming the car Hyuga, because I think it is as difficult as the character Tohru Hyuga from Rich man Poor Man.
Haha. Okay I lied. I just really love that character so I put that name on my new awesome belonging. Well you know one of the weird thing university students (ladies precisely) is to name their stuff (well not only university student did that i think). It is a cute side of girl actually that WILL NOT be reveal to the guy because they just love being cute with their belonging. A senior of mine named her car with Leman, and there is Fatih, Serai, Kuda. A car to woman is like a man. We will never understand it but we will always take care of it. Haha that's so lame.

I used to name my mother car as Shinichi (Chiaki Shinichi from Nodame Cantabile), my first love. Like Shinichi (the character), that car also my first love. I just love it even though we really have many rough moment, that i think if it is a human, he will just yelling 'Bitch!' at me.

That's it the entry that randomly written due to my excitement about the new car. And my sadness about someone death. Someone may not be important to us, but we have to respect his/her family sadness over his/her leaving. When i think about it again, we may not having a marriage ceremony in our life, but we always have a funeral ceremony. The 100% fair thing in this world is death, so I will not going to complain about it. The world is just not ours, guys.