Becoming Makoto

Assalamualaikum.
Pertama sekali biar saya kenalkan siapa Makoto (a character in rich man poor woman drama)

Satu masa dulu, seorang gadis yg mewakili...i can say 60% of graduates that had to struggle just to get employed. We're talking about japan, where most graduates are intelligent but still struggle to get a job.

Sounds like me?
Well quite a bit, apart from the intelligent part (well she good at memorizing things).

I like that character bcoz it's soo suit my life now.
Err...wait. you have mention it b4 right?

Yup,but anyway the thing is i do have a job that are not seen as a job to some people. It is something that related to my interest actually, that is books!
For an introvert like me books is an incredible invention (hiperbola).

I like working with something that make my adrenaline rushes, the process of displaying book and the smell...
Ok i lie. That's not the point actually.
I just found the circumferens and the people are okay and comfort to work with. Although they are bickering each other at the back, but it is not as bad as the office politics that i see during my internship in government firm.

Yes, really scared that i think i have phobia against government office (hiperbola again).

Yes, at least makoto have a nice office job at Next Innovation (put a cherry on that fact is the coolest weirdest cutest boss tohru hyuga). But the thing is she is giving her best shot eventhough it is just an office job, even if it is not related to her course or passion. I want to be like that.

I had promised to myself that i dont want to be zombie just doing work because it is work. You know like the people working in KL, they are so unhuman. I want to do something that i like, or related to what i like. I love books, and writing stories. But i dont have enough experience or knowledge to become my real dream job that is writer. I just someone that always have a random thought about everything. Like a social networker posting on twitter.but instead i dont want all the random thought just be a thought you post on twitter, i want to make story of it. But i am incapable of doing that right now.

I know what i want, what i can do. I just dont know how. That's why i need the experience of becoming like a slave-worker to make me think about my life. I want to meet people, work with people, go travel to make me really matured enough to make decision.

Like kat straford said "why do i have to meet people expectation?"
I know i sounds like margo for rejecting the 'normal' cycle of life. I am rebelling in silent because i know that normal life just not happen to everyone. It might happen but in different way.

The world has proved many successful people abandoning their job to do what actually they want. Because at the end they know that doing something they dislike just make their life meaningless. The happiness is not on the job, it's on you. A beggar can sleep in smile rather than a corporate businessman just because he is appreciating his life in his own way.

People just can't stop expect. So stop trying to satisfy them.
Let satisfy Allah The Merciful instead. He know us too well than ourself.