Assalamualaikum.
Greetings!
Just blog walking at two of my favorite blogger and both of them are talking about introvert.
Yeah i think that can summarize my inner conflict right now. I mean, often while i'm doing my work alone i like talking to myself and thinking about things (and actually make gestures too). It's like if i had an imaginary friends, i will talk to him about it (yeah i prefer male character, at this period his face would be like Wallace Chung) or if i had a pen i will write about it. I cannot talk about these stuff with my collegue or even my best friend because i love having it personal.
Because of my introvert traits, i feel i am not suit for this job. i don't hate people, i just scared of them. extroverts get energy from people, but i need to try hard just to talk to a person. If he/she had an easygoing character, then i will be nice to them. but if they're going witty, pushy or whatever it called, i will resent them. i am tired. like the superman who had to work at near krypton area. i kills me but i know i had to overcome this weakness.
i got very good collegue but i can't too depended on them. that's why i am thinking about to move on from this job. i make a deal with myself i would go through this job permanent for a year and i had decide to stay but something come out that make me think i am not suitable for this job anymore. yeah, you talking about a graduates who picky for a job and don't want to work hard. i just cannot find my path. i am failed to pretend i am okay with it and the life that come with it. i somehow don't find the exact answer.
a job that makes me a human, not a robot. a job that no matter how shit it is, i'll be able to learn hard on it and survive. i shall stop stalking people on social media so i'll not have this uneasiness. i'm getting sleepy right now. too much thinking without doing nothing, i want to change that.
till then.
bye
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