Tentang dan kentang

Assalamualaikum.
Greetings.

Tak, entri ni bukan pasal buku yg popular tu.
Ini tentang perkara yg aku rasa, maybe in some luck aku blh luahkan perasaan kat certain2 org tu. I am an introvert so writing might the best way to express it.

1. Tentang sahabat
Aku ada macam2 jnis kwn. Aku rasa aku ada split personaliti yg blh join group paling gila (tp x popular, as always i do avoid flashlight) dan blh join group yg paling baik (at least they always remind me about God,not because they are maksum without sin or what).
So, dearest my really really good friends, you guys know who you are in my life. I am not avoiding you because i hate you or just want to forget what we have been through. I love you but i am a sucker when it comes to practicality. You know, i never remember your birthday or seldom contact you guys through facebook or whats app. I am just a silent observer in our group chat. I do want to do what you guys always do, like before. I really try to have that kind of live. But i am a coward, a chicken, that stuck into a life that i dont expect. I cannot face you guys anymore because i really ashamed of who i become. But, in Allah will, i will always love you guys more than anything. I can feel the tingling in my heart right now (is that a correct word?). I am sorry for being such a loser. And you guys always be the thing that make me strong, during a hard time.
Thank you.
Sorry.
I love you.
I miss you.
Sorry again.

2. Kentang Kehidupan
 Ohh..i'll think about it tomorrow.