Nobody cares

Assalamualaikum.

Finally i got the nerves to spill my..... whatever shit i have in my mind.

I am telling you i am living in a really really funny world. i am living in the world where woman had to kerah all their keringat to get a good result, good job and good man. for me all those things are not destined to be mine.

So yeah i had to be nerdy going back and forth to library, worrying about exam every fucking night and still not good enough as other brilliant girl in my school.

Second after all those struggling years in study i got fucking zero idea about job world. tell you i had to deal with fucking many deals just to pass my exam, so when is it time for me thinking about job prospect. i am an introvert, i struggling each seconds i act in front of people bcause basically i am afraid of them.

I got this job just because i cant stand to be jobless eventhough just two months finishing my university life. you know old people just cant stand this young lady doing nothing and clueless. i cant be damsel in distress because i dont have that elegant look of fine englishwoman in 20 century.

And in my job, i had to be tough like a man. mentally and physically. so that tire me up. i am independent yet exhausted woman but yes who care. nobody care. no man care.

And thats why i am so piss off by people who just do the talk of 'u should so that' 'u should do this' 'u are so this' 'u are so that'. just shut up ok. i just want to live quietly. because a screw girl like me just need a silence to keep herself calm.

Got it? zip your mouth if you dont give damn care about me (*because duhh so do i). ignoring me would be better (*who need u anyway).

This entry is not for particular person. it is for you who love judging people as if in your life u never make mistake.
Even if yes nobody cares.