Aku, raya dan ...

Assalamualaikum. Greetings.

Hei selamat hari raya (dan cengkerik pun berbunyi sbb actually xde reader pun kat sini).

So i guess i need to rant on some things before my head going to exploded thinking about them.

The raya conflicts:
1. When you have to work during eid celebration is actually not a big deal to me. Zeriously, i prefer work over seeing some people that only going to hurt me with their words. And this year, i am done with a fake big smile and positive answer.

People, if you going to hurt someone, better dont talk at all. It's month of forgiveness so why not try to be nice.

Anyway, the point is the people who takes raya lightly as a holiday to waste your time at the mall. I mean, i feel like want to curse these kind of people.

I dont mind if they are actually cannot go back to their hometown and are a lone ranger here. But if u come to the mall with your four children, your mom & mil, your cousin and her family...shish please get a life. U really dont appreciate these opportunity that make people like us who had to work feel irritated.

2. The forgiveness scene. Ok, in this issue i admit that i am too did some nasty thing after appologise to someone. I can see that mostly people would appologise to person that they actually have no problem at all. Seldom i see someone who been fight for years make a handshake during raya. Even if it is a pretence. That only can be seen on tv. 
Because i still remember my ustaz said that in order to ask for forgiveness, you actually had to list all your wrongdoings and aincerely ask for forgiveness.

But like i said, i am still not good in this issue. I am still not easily forgive people and tend to hold grudge. All the introvert person like me can do is make a fake smile and pretend that all is well. At least the atmosphere is not awkward to everyone else,right.

3. The third issue related to the second one, but in specific theme of empaty and dont be a jerk.

I dont like irresponsible person. And if u think it only applicable to everyone but me then you are wrong. I treat myself much harder than anyone else.

You got your work, i know sometimes it feels like shit but you have to be responsible for it. You choose this so-you-call shit job but you rant on social media about less salary,less bonus and all the waste you make. You know it is your fault but you try to gain sympathy of people towards your situation.

And for some reason, you had no choice of following your family to other relative house. It is quite awkward if i would said your working partner is okay with that. But yes, maybe i can understand a bit because my family also like that (but i am really strict when it comes to work if the family matter is not really important and you can still make up for it another time).

But people...seriously for heaven sake..dont be a jerk by happily post your raya journey on social media. Please, dont show off how asshole you are to hurt your working partner when you too suppose to work that day.

I dont care who you are but if you are been irresponsible and been boastful about it then you are in my blacklist. I can find 100 reason for your irresponsible act but you been boasful...i guess not.

I know i am thinking too much with a very narrow mind. But i am tired already.
These people make me want rhyme  rhett butler's sayings;
'Frankly my dear i dont give a damn'

Ohh my head hurt. I will think about this tomorrow