Aku yang dulu bukanlah yang sekarang

Assalamualaikum. Greetings.

Seriously i had try to update this blog entry but maybe God want me to be 'senonoh' in writing, especially in this ramadhan kareem. We have to watch out for our words even in social media.

Actually i want to update about my craziness with one philiphine drama but i guess i will save that later.

Last month was a hectic month. That is why you dont find me writing in this blog. After the general election, i try to give opinion about the honorable (& awesome youth)syed saddiq. But i guess my opinion are not that important. Everybody is saying the same thing about him.

I mean everyone apart from his die hard fan. I am have the same opinion with aina wafi (vlogger of ML studio) regarding him so yeah you can check it out yourself.

So what is this entry is about?

When it comes to ramadhan, once upon a time, when i was in high school, my PI teachers always taught us about how precious it is that we should practice to finish 30 juz of quran.

The naive me take that challenge and each year i try to finish it (always fail) with a very fast pace (without really take the meaning of the quran in heart).

When i was in university, i i learn that we can always finish reciting the quran in jamaah. That is everyone in the usrah circle got their own part of the quran to finish read and recite. I did it...i think twice.

Back to these days, when the reality strike me like a thunder in the desert, i am shameful to admit my achievement is not very good. I barely had time to read quran after solat as it is recommended.

I was lost even to my naive 17 year old self. Right now all my friends are welcoming the lailatul qadr with a big hand, like a straight A students who prepared well in their exam.

And there is me, who as always,unprepared towards lailatul qadr. I dont dare to even dream about it because i know to get it is so hard like hel..ops. like heaven i mean.

To all my sahabat, thank you for reminding me with all the lailatul qadr post. I need to pause a second in my life and at least appreciate how beautiful and blessful ramadhan is.

Pray for me,dear.