Tak tahu tajuk

Distancing myself from the people..it is like my life routine since puberty. I have friends, insyaallah many good friends. But at times i like to keep my distance away from them, from the crowd just so i can be alone. Not because i hate their company, but it is a necessary routine to maintain a good relationship. To be honest, human are not nice and good 24 /7 including myself. I have angry moment, dissapointment moment, sad, happy, thrilling. Most if the time i want to keep my bad vibe to myself (which is i assume the percentage is higher than my positive vibe). Other than that, maybe it just an introvert thing. I feel recklessly tired when dealing with people, although i really enjoyed it. Maybe as i am not a good person trying to be good, it exhausted me. You can say i am pretending, hypocrite but i rather be that than hurting other people. Nevertheless, our Prophet Muhammad saw always taught his people to be good to each other and he is a great example of good human being. Seriously. So i want to be like him. My naqibah once told me to be good, sometimes it come in forceful way. Just believe it is the right thing to do, then like Nike tagline just do it.

I am not writing this for the people around me aware of the reason i am behaving like this. I am writing this because i am bored waiting the library to open. Yes, i am 27 years old and still goes to the library, what a geek. Also, it is the way i observe and evaluate (haha you think this is research analysis ?)my life. And most importantly, i dont want to bother my best friends with this thought. I am the friend who always have random thought and suddenly barge into DM of my best friends to share the thought with them.

Can i add something here? (Duhh it is your blog).

I dont know but i dont like a person who pestering other people with their life problem. Constantly (Omaigod am i talking about myself?)
No honestly, i feel like disliking a person these day because she is the type of person who like dragging people with her problem. Like if she hungry, she will drag a friend to eat with her (not treating her. The friend had to pay for herself). If she late, she want people to be late too.

No, she is not acting like a boss. She acting like a princess who had to be entertain 24/7. Which is my pet peeves of having someone leeching on you 24/7.

She is a nice girl, i just never understand of person who cant live on her own. Yes, if my fellow friends read this, please give me your thought on how to deal with this kind of people.

Till then bye
Btw the library is still not open. Duhh

the mad hatter

salam alaikum.

today, as early as 7 am, i am checking my instagram feed. typical millenial. and i come across to a post by intotaqwa.

a post of awareness about a girl who write a book title 'unveil me' (if i am not mistaken. i am too lazy to check it). basically the book is about a muslim, hijab girl who decide to take off her hijab and 'be herself'. something like that.

i am too piss off with this kind of people that i choose to let their story aside. the girl (the writer) will officially take off her hijab (although she already show her hair in the poster) at her book launching event.

i dont know if this is some kind of joke or what. maybe she just kidding just to see how much social media 's ustazah ustaz that will triggered and decide to come to her event & buy her book. maybe she not really mean to take off her hijab.

husnuzon. if that is true, then i am fine. but if she mean to do it...astagfirullah lets pray for her.

this make me cry
really

how a muslim decide to throw dirt at their own religion.
they really dont know how to read between the line of Allah's fate and rule with their own self need.

I need woman to be free from hijab, from polygamy, from Islam discrimination of covering aurah.
But never they ask guidance from Allah swt who have all the answer to their question and need.

I am practical modern woman who wears turban because I dont want to be the typical conservative Muslim woman. I am supporting an entrepreneurs, singer who wear sell turban, wear turban because they seem to have a rigid reason to wear it.

Stop it la.
I know I am the most conservative girl you might have encounter but just cut the crap. You are stepping back into the years of 1970 or 1980 (maybe) where woman in Malaysia are slowly adapting Islamic way of life that is wearing hijab. Remember, in those year, only few wearing turban (or at my point of vie they are just wearing scarf (anak tudung)), and they are wearing it because they want to learn. Not because they feel it is a good fashion sense.

In 1990s and 2000, i remember how my siblings and I laugh at some pictures of my mother and her collegue friends (back in 1980) because of their fashion style. Me at that time wonder why the woman are allowed to wear just 'scarf' but the at school, the students need to wear full hijab.

And guess what, almost 30 years after that we are back into that trend. This is not old school guys.

Hijab is too protect. Allah swt want to protect the woman. You can google Miss Nina or other good video that explain why it is necessary for a woman to cover their aurat and take care of the ikhtilat.

'Hey, read the Quran la. There are many dalil on woman aurah. Not googled it. Because Google is Yahudi company'

I am suggesting that way because you need something easy,light speech to triggered you first. Then, do research on your own. Talk to ustaz and ustazah. Read the Quran. Pray for His guideliness Life is a journey of learning, dont be lazy and make an early conclusion.

But if you dont even have faith in Him at the first place, then you should try other way of finding other God besides Allah swt. If and only if you are not a Muslim. If you are a Muslim, i beg you to think billions time before you decide to turn away from Him.

And there is other case post by PU Syed. A woman named Aisah make a status that she dont want a husband like Rasulullah saw. She decline the way of tabligh people's life which is if you dont know, they tend to leave their family to do dakwah for months.

When i was little, my mother always tell me same kind of hoax. Tabligh man is irresponsible, conservative and so on. And at university i learn that actually Tabligh people are very good in their tarbiah, so we should learn it from them. Moreover i had a friend back in primary school. Her father is tabligh people, a doctor (specialised in eye) who have his own clinic and when i peek at her father salary slip (yes, i am such a busybody) it says RM 8K. *eye wide open

'So what? Money can help their wife to take care of the children?'

Err..yes? Because they can hire maid?
And do you know they have a very good support system that not only come from family but from their sahabat (from tabligh and none tabligh circle). Let say Amin is an ustaz who also have a grocery shop. So each time Aminah, Ahmad's wife go shopping, Amin give her price discount and the shop helper help Aminah to bring the stuff she bought right in front of her house if she need anything in urgent. Ahmad neighbour, Puan Siti is a housewife who look after Ahmad's children when Aminah go to work.

It looks like a fairytale but a senior really did share his story of PJJ marriage. He works as engineer at Petronas Terengganu, her wife at Shah Alam. They have been married for 10 years and still happily ever after. He say the key word to their marriage is support system.

*have you ever thought why sometime there is a home husband (read: jobless) is a burden than a bless?

Remember my friend in primary school just now? Despite all the nasty talk about her father and her conservative family, she excel in SPM (13 straight A), continue studies in Cairo and now a doctor who has been married to a good man.

What a sweet revenge.

So Kak Aisah (the one who dont want Rasulullah type of husband and insulting tabligh), life is own by Allah swt. And what you need right now is to learn about barakah. Not a husband.

I am showing you a real example because yes, most of these people are actually excel in their profession. Do you know most of Palestine people have a very good profession, doctor, architect, engineer. And do you know where they end up? Serving for their country. The doctors are serving the patients with all the scratch facilities that they have. The lecturers, architect and engineer are brainstorming together with their good leader to plan war strategy and their aim is just want to save their people's life and their religion.

Shame on us.

Our country not even been in tough war and yet someone who feel gender discrimination (read: LGBT) are so eager to reject Islam, to object Allah swt 's rules, to humiliate ulama and alim people, and to curse at our prophet Nabi Muhammad saw.

You just have all the traits of people form former prophets whom have been destroyed.
Tahniah.

Everyone make mistake,everyone have flaws. Just dont commercialise your dosa and feel proud of it. Thats all i want.

As-syu' ara ayat 84-111

I overcome to this page just now. Let together be a good muslim. And pray for Islam and the believer.

My chubby friends

Salam.

Aku sanggup guna data setoet aku ni semata2 nk tulis entri. 

Semuany demi kawan aku, farhanis. The late farhanis actually.

Baru2 ni aku tgk video hazeman huzir bg talk pasal buli kat uitm & kat vlog shalma aina. He always come across with the story of his friend,syafa nissa.

A chubby cute humourous selamba woman in her early 30. He said at the beginning of her involvement with motif viral, many netizen bashed her on youtube channel because of her appearance.

I witness every single of the comments that at one point i block fewmean comment about her because i cant stand to read it.

I mean seriously, it is 2016 ( at that time if iam not mistaken) and you guys still bashed people for their appearance? Sebab apa? Kau jealous dia dpt masuk tv, keje astro, been noticed by sepahtu padahal kau yg konon cantik slim tu have a terrible life? But seriously, ada antara komen jahat tu dtg dari perempuan in early 20 and also look like school girl.

Ok, dorg tak matang. Aku pun pernah tak matang. Back in 1999, ms tu aku drjah 1. Aku berkawan dgn sorg budak perempuan 'comel' yg kdg2 terkincit, berak dlm seluar dalam. Aku tak suka bila dia terberak or terkencing, aku jauhkan diri bila dia dah bau lain mcm.but thats it. The 7 year old me know that i should not say sth bad just because of her physical appearance or flaws.

Girl, whereever you are, i am sorry for telling this. Peace no war.

In 2003-2004, i had a chubby guy friend who like to be asshole to everyone. He never let me borrow his comic because he said i am ...not worth. Yes, asshole. Thats end there. Coincidently our family are related and we never fight or what, because it is not necessary.

To be honest, my circle of friends mostly come from a thin small girl. Because you know what, chubby girl are more likeable to be friend with. Most of chubby girl i met is funny and talkative, guy rather spend time with them rather than us thin girl.

In 2010, when i was 19 years old, i met a friend name farhanis. This is the first time i had a real close chubby friend. She was my classmate and even in our first class, everyone love her already.

She is cute, have sweet way of talk, a very friendly yet good listener, have interesting hobby which is watching korean japan malay drama ( she is the source of my craziness with drama) and most important she is very very kind and patient.

I am seriously an awkward person and thats the reasons i am not so close with her. But my best friend is very close with her so we always gather in group. I enjoy her company. She is the one who lend me her car when i need to fetch my father who visit me (at perak), drive me to ipoh just to repair my broken laptop, lend me her novels and listen to my bored story.

Seriously, i feel i do nothing to cheer or help her back. I really cant find any flawless in her, not because she is dead. But because she is she. Ask all her friend and i can cut my hand if there is even one person tell you the opposite of what write here.

So people, please dont judge someone by their appearance and appreciate the kindness that they have before it is too late.

Al fatihah for my friend, farhanis. And to my late bff in high school, nani.

Woi, aku rindu kau. Siapa aku nk buli selain kau,woi. Takda org yg blur blur naif cam kau lg.hehe. dan aku minta maaf aku tak pernah dtg melawat kau. Mungkin sbb aku selfish. Sibuk sgt kejar dunia.

Dan fanis,sory hana tak dpt jenguk fanis utk kali terakhir. I guess i am not a good friend to you too.

Aku tak boleh tidur.
Jadi dengar jela aku membebel.

1. Selebriti dakwah yang butthurt
Aku ada komen pd ig seorg selebriti dakwah. Aku tak tahu pula aku punya sarcasm dah tahap sherlock (as in benedict fumberbatch) atau sheldon cooper tp dia memberi reaksi negatif apabila aku mengaitkan beliau dgn program maharaja lawak.
Hal tu dah settle, aku dah mohon maaf pada dia, terangkan kat sesetengah netizen yg juga salah faham tentang komen tersebut (seriously lawak guys. Aku terhibur baca komen korang) dan selamat juga unfollow selebriti berkenaan.
Tak penting pun kan. Tak beri kesan pun pd selebriti tu.

Cuma sekarang aku teringat pada satu selebriti lain yg juga menggunakan unsur lawak dalam dakwahnya.

Jadi tak kisahlah kan dari program realiti mana pun kau datang, kalau kau ikhlas dan positif, it does not matter. Aku dh lama x tgk MLM sbnrnya sejak sepahtu dah tak bertanding. Dan hanya tgk kembali bila dzawin ada menyertai. So kiranya, at least dakwah dzawin sampai juga kpd golongan marhaen mcm aku ni yg jahil agama. So stop being butthurt.

2. On the wings of love
Aku dh khatam cerita ni. Basically aku tertarik dgn jln cerita dia yg revolve around imigrant filipina di america. It is realistic. Yg idealistic nya sbb james reid blh nmpk cute 24/7 dan suka shirtless (no iam not happy with that. Wear you shirt,dude).

Cerita ni as typical filipina and asian drama, banyak sgt gula sampai aku kencing manis dan sakit gigi. So aku byk skip that part. Aku bahagia cerita ni tak ada watak orang kaya (apart from simon character which i think not important)

3. Office politic
Aku tak sangka aku akan mghadapi this thing again. Dimana2 ada saja manusia talam dua muka yg suka mengata dan menjatuhkan orang lain.

Ok dh ngantuk. Bye