Talking serious stuff

Assalamualaikum.

Greeetings

Too many things i want to rant. randomly. 

But i will start with this first

1. Two days before i went to the bank and while waiting for my number, i am secretly listening to a conversation between a man and a boy behind me. Apparently the boy decide to quit his study to work. Maybe he had some money issue that forced him to work at cinema to get income. The man adviced him to think about it again as he only got one year left to graduate. 

I am not opposing the fact (that the man mention) of getting a certification is crucial in finding a good job. But I just pissed off with his opinion about the lower class worker (such as fast food restaurant, cinema) as a 'kerja budak-budak'. According to him, a matured human being should do a mature job such as lawyer, banker or other job that has a secure epf and working in office hour.

Well mister, i see many those 'mature' human being doing the most stupid action and speech that a human can do. All of us has many stories that such stigma should not be exist. A low class worker not necessary a stupid, indecent and unlucky so does the upper class worker not necessary has a happy life story. 

Then, I come across to this video today. And suddenly it make me think about this issue even deeper.

The murder of Jalil Ibrahim: The guy who knew too much

To be short, this case happen in 1983 (if I am not mistaken) and create a massive issue in  Asian financial and politics scandal. An innocent auditor is murdered by a high influence people, the plot that we usually see in drama but really happen in reality. How an educated and high integrity person risking his life and family for the sake of his job. Maybe this is what the man (in my story above mean). A true job is when we are risking important thing in our life to actually give something to the society. A job to make us be responsible and mature in life.

The company that been associated with this case, Carriane is said to involve in huge fraud and scandal that lead into its destruction few years later. I just wonder, if there is many high class worker is as sincere and responsible like Jalil Ibrahim, maybe a company like Carriane could never exist. We, the youth who said to be the think tanker of nation end up being a 'comfortable' employee and never dare to make change for a better.

It make me feel bad. I am waiting for a chance but never dare to step out of my tiny world. This world is under destruction and yet the youth still amused with those Fatah Amin story, gadjet spinner (is it the right spelling) and other unnecessary stuff. I just... I dont know. Things are not right but I dont know how to fix it.

Today I happen to encounter to few people with their kids. It just cross my mind that.... being a married woman and live in a low class world is not what i want.  I know it sound absurd but I rather be alone and lead a small but meaningful life. I dont want to create another problem to this world if I am not responsible enough to handle it.

Yesterday, I dream to change the world.
Today, I am still in the same position. With some bad luck of life.
Tomorrow, ...I just can't think.