Salam.
Aku mls nk buka laptop. Aku mls nk buka lampu semata mata nk catit idea aku yg melimpah ke ladang gandum ni.
So yeah i will spill it here.
Idea ni dh lama aku fikirkan. Satu cerita tntg seorang ustazah yg berkahwin dgn seorang peminat indie tegar yg seakan anti social. He live in his cave for years, only allowing some friend to be close to him.
The idea berubah-ubah dari satu genre ke satu genre.
1. The cliche story of a good woman change bad guy into good. Tp aku menghadapi mental block sbb sgt susah utk satukan karakter yg anti soc & perempuan yg pendiam.Har har har. And i wont do stupid scene like pompuan ni sakit then laki tu jaga then mula jth cinta then jealous then dua2 ego which memanjangkn cerita & end up happily ever after.
This idea came when i am 22 yrs old. Masa tu aku sungguh2 percaya ke-best-an this typical story.
And moreover aku susah nk relate kn antara gig dan usrah. Allah s.w.t dh ckp kn mana boleh campurkan perkara yg benar & salah. Niat tak menghalalkn cara.
Aku tak pandai bab agama maka aku susah nk kukuhkan wtk pompuan tu dgn pegangan agama ala2 anna autofunnisa (*god i dont know how to spell it right).
2. The idea tukar jd seram pula. The girl actually had a dark past involving supernatural thing. So bila dia try nk ubah lelaki tu (by trying to go to gig) lama2 pompuan tu 'sakit' sbb dia kena kacau dengan benda tu.
Tp dia sanggup 'sakit' semula sbb nk selamatkn lelaki tu.
This quit make sense tp time tu jgk aku kekurangn idea sbb dh berjauhan dgn kwn aku yg actually 'sakit'
3. 2018, aku dh keje. At one point aku back to back minat lagu nasyid dan indie.
Indie vs nasyid is not the official title. But then aku terfikir why not emphasis kan minat dorg pd muzik. The girl used to be in the gig scene so her friend ask her to be the lead vocal in on show. But then she become viral and had to live with the image of tudung labuh girl who sings.
At the same time dia menyanyi sbb nk tarik perhatian suami dia yg tgh bercinta dgn kwnnya sndiri. It is an action to seek attention and escapnism.
Screw me. I dont know how to arrange all these idea so it make sense.
I will think about this tomorrow
Monday, 29 January 2018
Wednesday, 24 January 2018
what is my desktop background look like?
Assalamualaikum. Greetings.
To answer that question in the title, here is the picture
Okay the actual issue i want to write here is 'how people nowdays see other people'.
But first lemme explain about the picture (my alter ego: err do you have to? people don't really care actually).
Ok once upon a time i am the person who very particular about the wallpaper picture on my phone and laptop. But as my laptop had several 'accident' and 'bleed' so i am too lazy to update it because i know the picture won't last long. So why Vivy and his kids involve in this boring matter?
Haha because of their sentiment in this picture. Two cheeky kids with a worried mom. This picture is full of emotion, not in a hard or heavy way but just nice. And moreover Mariam have my soft spot, i just love her. It is the sincerity in this photo that I look up everytime I open my laptop.
Gituh.
Nowadays people like to look up on Instafamous people, Youtuber, Facebooker who had strength in their field of interest. People who love sport always look up to Messi video, cool university students get mindblown by Matluthfi's videos, and fashion people are so into Vivy Yusof for her glamorous style (and lifestyle). That's few example of how people interest influence their people preference.
Being a famous people had a really high price to pay.
As I scrolling the notification on Youtube I can't help but had to acknowledge some of famous people issue. Some of it are intended to show on Youtube (vlogger) and some are not (fan/hater/tabloid made video). So I wonder how it feels to be viewed by millions of people, the good and bad side of people reaction and perspective. Here some example of the cases that I acknowledge;
1. The case involving one actor who seems to act strangely and believed to be under drug addiction. How people and the tabloid actually make many videos and speculating on every action that he and his family did.
Mrs D goes to court today
Why Mrs D don't visit her husband
Actor S said 'Your husband is doomed...'
Mr F being chased until toilet...< true story
The title is so stupid that I don't intend to watch. Yes, I want to know what actually happen to him but I rather heard about him from the news. It is not necessary to get information from an established media (cough TV3 cough government) but also from few wise person that make a neutral reaction towards one issue.
For example how Ustaz Don relating a Korean singer suicide case (and the related issue) with depression problem. Rather than criticising the fanatic fans (muslim) who had extreme mourns over the deceased, he make a rigid explanation that Islam prohibited that manner and then he more focus to discuss the root problem (that is depression).
So I think people (including me) should chose the right person (or source) to listen or look up to before jumping into conclusion. I think I rather be 'the frog under a shell' over one issue (that not so important to my life) than being a person who misjudged people.
2. The video about one public figure's daily life. Ok, the good thing about her is she have many things to show to the world. Her lavish lifestyle and work, her cute family, her expensive stuff and cool things she could done because she rich. Pause it right there.
Maybe some of the viewer would judge 'why la you so show off with your wealth' and other negative comments. I am not trying to defend her but well at least can we put on our white positive hat just a while?
First that I can see is she is businesswoman and that is one of her marketing strategy. Admit it everyone love to see rich people life rather than poor people who can't afford to even buy rice (raise up your hand if you choose to watch Keeping Up with Kardishian over Bersamamu TV3). So she is using human weakness to promote her product. It is a trend for millenials to show off, so she just doing her job.
As I mention there is a high price to pay. Don't you think that these public figure have less freedom to be, to do or to go to wherever they are? Anywhere you go people are watching you with good and bad intention...pftt i passed that. I really hate even if one person watching me without a reason.
So no need to be so negative in it.
3. The video about people showing their ignorance and stupidity. Example making parody or songs or whatever type on entertainment that is just stupid.
If you are clever, you would not watching it. If you fall for it then just accept that. Nobody ask your opinion except for a blank space provided by Youtube (comment section).
In this matter truthfully I never watch some of the videos that I think just wasting my time.
A video about stupid song featuring controversial people.
A video of an ignorant teenager wearing heavy make up and being bitch.
A video about a weird actor who denying his depression and self conflict
Everyone should have their own stand point about some issue in media social. They can look up to anybody that they want but they dont have the authority to judge them. If you are watching stupid video just as an entertainment then no need to be so serious about it. If you want to be serious then watch serious video. As the saying goes;
'..if you don't like the video...just subscribe anyway it is free who cares'
Haha.
To answer that question in the title, here is the picture
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| yes very dull except for the picture |
But first lemme explain about the picture (my alter ego: err do you have to? people don't really care actually).
Ok once upon a time i am the person who very particular about the wallpaper picture on my phone and laptop. But as my laptop had several 'accident' and 'bleed' so i am too lazy to update it because i know the picture won't last long. So why Vivy and his kids involve in this boring matter?
Haha because of their sentiment in this picture. Two cheeky kids with a worried mom. This picture is full of emotion, not in a hard or heavy way but just nice. And moreover Mariam have my soft spot, i just love her. It is the sincerity in this photo that I look up everytime I open my laptop.
Gituh.
Nowadays people like to look up on Instafamous people, Youtuber, Facebooker who had strength in their field of interest. People who love sport always look up to Messi video, cool university students get mindblown by Matluthfi's videos, and fashion people are so into Vivy Yusof for her glamorous style (and lifestyle). That's few example of how people interest influence their people preference.
Being a famous people had a really high price to pay.
As I scrolling the notification on Youtube I can't help but had to acknowledge some of famous people issue. Some of it are intended to show on Youtube (vlogger) and some are not (fan/hater/tabloid made video). So I wonder how it feels to be viewed by millions of people, the good and bad side of people reaction and perspective. Here some example of the cases that I acknowledge;
1. The case involving one actor who seems to act strangely and believed to be under drug addiction. How people and the tabloid actually make many videos and speculating on every action that he and his family did.
Mrs D goes to court today
Why Mrs D don't visit her husband
Actor S said 'Your husband is doomed...'
Mr F being chased until toilet...< true story
The title is so stupid that I don't intend to watch. Yes, I want to know what actually happen to him but I rather heard about him from the news. It is not necessary to get information from an established media (cough TV3 cough government) but also from few wise person that make a neutral reaction towards one issue.
For example how Ustaz Don relating a Korean singer suicide case (and the related issue) with depression problem. Rather than criticising the fanatic fans (muslim) who had extreme mourns over the deceased, he make a rigid explanation that Islam prohibited that manner and then he more focus to discuss the root problem (that is depression).
So I think people (including me) should chose the right person (or source) to listen or look up to before jumping into conclusion. I think I rather be 'the frog under a shell' over one issue (that not so important to my life) than being a person who misjudged people.
2. The video about one public figure's daily life. Ok, the good thing about her is she have many things to show to the world. Her lavish lifestyle and work, her cute family, her expensive stuff and cool things she could done because she rich. Pause it right there.
Maybe some of the viewer would judge 'why la you so show off with your wealth' and other negative comments. I am not trying to defend her but well at least can we put on our white positive hat just a while?
First that I can see is she is businesswoman and that is one of her marketing strategy. Admit it everyone love to see rich people life rather than poor people who can't afford to even buy rice (raise up your hand if you choose to watch Keeping Up with Kardishian over Bersamamu TV3). So she is using human weakness to promote her product. It is a trend for millenials to show off, so she just doing her job.
As I mention there is a high price to pay. Don't you think that these public figure have less freedom to be, to do or to go to wherever they are? Anywhere you go people are watching you with good and bad intention...pftt i passed that. I really hate even if one person watching me without a reason.
So no need to be so negative in it.
3. The video about people showing their ignorance and stupidity. Example making parody or songs or whatever type on entertainment that is just stupid.
If you are clever, you would not watching it. If you fall for it then just accept that. Nobody ask your opinion except for a blank space provided by Youtube (comment section).
In this matter truthfully I never watch some of the videos that I think just wasting my time.
A video about stupid song featuring controversial people.
A video of an ignorant teenager wearing heavy make up and being bitch.
A video about a weird actor who denying his depression and self conflict
Everyone should have their own stand point about some issue in media social. They can look up to anybody that they want but they dont have the authority to judge them. If you are watching stupid video just as an entertainment then no need to be so serious about it. If you want to be serious then watch serious video. As the saying goes;
'..if you don't like the video...just subscribe anyway it is free who cares'
Haha.
Wednesday, 17 January 2018
ada apa dengan cinta
Assalamualaikum.
Gosh the title so lame.
Insert Nicholas Saputra's voice....
Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi kerana cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu
Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya syurga dalam mata seorang hawa
Ada apa dengan cinta
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya
Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja...
Maybe if I fall in love, the feeling would be the same as when I heard this poem in AADC film. Yeah...maybe.
So I am having a really shameful moment of my life. At this point, I... actually confused with my feeling for someone. Haha. The story is he is the only guy I always meet, a friend of mine. And I thought I had a chance with him. Just maybe. Although most of the time I don't like his attitude.
That's why I said I am confused with my own feeling. Just because he is a guy and I am a girl, I have to fall in love with him. There is no logic point for us to be in love because we seldom talk and seldom knew each other. So then I watch him fall in love with another girl, which I knew. It happen so quickly that I had to gaze at them and think when the hell actually they fall in love? Haha. They always like to argue and then poof their status change(so the cat dog theory is actually true? Hmm). She is the type of girl who is 360 degree different from me. Chatty, soft, sweet, a bit blur( actually me too), naive and yes, pretty. So I was like... duhh does all men need to find these kind of girl as their lover?
(See example; Neelo** and Anzal**. Neelo** is an iconic lady, beauty with brain with status. And Alzal** is the sweet spoken lady and ..............(put whatever comment you think of her because I am lazy to do so). So who do you think man would come for?)
The other story is about my best friend. I love her love story. She is the kind of girl who is very cool and chill that most of the boys like to have a chat. But she still the kind of reserve girl who knows well about ikhtilat. She told me that she is actually being approached by a guy (junior) in our uni. Their relationship is like a brother and sister who like to jokes and bickering to each other, maybe they found an attraction with that kind of relationship. However they can't make it because she don't feel good about it and because of some advice told by someone she trust. Then not long after that her school friend propose her through her family. And somehow she feel easy to accept him although actually they are not too close before this , only see each other on facebook or when there is their class reunion. They knew each other since young and their family also know each other as their house are not far.
When she told me this story she can't help but to smile because before this she never thought of him as her future husband. She come out with a wisdom words 'love is so unexpected' which make me recall of all my crush since kindergarten (so maybe I can contact them back through facebook and expect the same love story hahahahahahahahahahahah so ridiculous).
But anyway yes, surrounding by people who recently fall in love and some of them eventually will get married make me feel so sentimental. I began to observe and analyze them,oh not only them but other lover couple. I conclude that love is something that full of cringe, mushy pushy (seriously what is that word meaning?) and.... I don't know... an alienated feeling?
And I had been bugging my best friends with this issue like a desperate girl. I mean the issue of 'how could a guy and a girl fall in love'? Where can I get the manual because I really had no idea about it? How in the world is this plain girl going to found her soulmate? Why is good guy population keep decreasing? Why? What? How? When?Who?
Banyak soalan banyak juga jawapannya..
Pfttt somehow that Najwa Latif's song seem realistic right now.
All these issue make me dizzy.
Pftt...I'll think about it tomorrow.
Disclaimer;
For the friend (you know who you are) sorry if I advertise your story in my blog because I just want to make a point. And sorry if the detail goes wrong.
For the guy that I confused about (you never knew about this) good luck in your new relationship. And yes, you really proof something to me.
For the celebrities I mention above, sorry but no offense. I am just giving an example.
Peace no war.
Gosh the title so lame.
Insert Nicholas Saputra's voice....
Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi kerana cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu
Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya syurga dalam mata seorang hawa
Ada apa dengan cinta
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya
Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja...
Maybe if I fall in love, the feeling would be the same as when I heard this poem in AADC film. Yeah...maybe.
So I am having a really shameful moment of my life. At this point, I... actually confused with my feeling for someone. Haha. The story is he is the only guy I always meet, a friend of mine. And I thought I had a chance with him. Just maybe. Although most of the time I don't like his attitude.
That's why I said I am confused with my own feeling. Just because he is a guy and I am a girl, I have to fall in love with him. There is no logic point for us to be in love because we seldom talk and seldom knew each other. So then I watch him fall in love with another girl, which I knew. It happen so quickly that I had to gaze at them and think when the hell actually they fall in love? Haha. They always like to argue and then poof their status change(so the cat dog theory is actually true? Hmm). She is the type of girl who is 360 degree different from me. Chatty, soft, sweet, a bit blur( actually me too), naive and yes, pretty. So I was like... duhh does all men need to find these kind of girl as their lover?
(See example; Neelo** and Anzal**. Neelo** is an iconic lady, beauty with brain with status. And Alzal** is the sweet spoken lady and ..............(put whatever comment you think of her because I am lazy to do so). So who do you think man would come for?)
The other story is about my best friend. I love her love story. She is the kind of girl who is very cool and chill that most of the boys like to have a chat. But she still the kind of reserve girl who knows well about ikhtilat. She told me that she is actually being approached by a guy (junior) in our uni. Their relationship is like a brother and sister who like to jokes and bickering to each other, maybe they found an attraction with that kind of relationship. However they can't make it because she don't feel good about it and because of some advice told by someone she trust. Then not long after that her school friend propose her through her family. And somehow she feel easy to accept him although actually they are not too close before this , only see each other on facebook or when there is their class reunion. They knew each other since young and their family also know each other as their house are not far.
When she told me this story she can't help but to smile because before this she never thought of him as her future husband. She come out with a wisdom words 'love is so unexpected' which make me recall of all my crush since kindergarten (so maybe I can contact them back through facebook and expect the same love story hahahahahahahahahahahah so ridiculous).
But anyway yes, surrounding by people who recently fall in love and some of them eventually will get married make me feel so sentimental. I began to observe and analyze them,oh not only them but other lover couple. I conclude that love is something that full of cringe, mushy pushy (seriously what is that word meaning?) and.... I don't know... an alienated feeling?
And I had been bugging my best friends with this issue like a desperate girl. I mean the issue of 'how could a guy and a girl fall in love'? Where can I get the manual because I really had no idea about it? How in the world is this plain girl going to found her soulmate? Why is good guy population keep decreasing? Why? What? How? When?Who?
Banyak soalan banyak juga jawapannya..
Pfttt somehow that Najwa Latif's song seem realistic right now.
All these issue make me dizzy.
Pftt...I'll think about it tomorrow.
Disclaimer;
For the friend (you know who you are) sorry if I advertise your story in my blog because I just want to make a point. And sorry if the detail goes wrong.
For the guy that I confused about (you never knew about this) good luck in your new relationship. And yes, you really proof something to me.
For the celebrities I mention above, sorry but no offense. I am just giving an example.
Peace no war.
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