ada apa dengan cinta

Assalamualaikum.

Gosh the title so lame.
Insert Nicholas Saputra's voice....

Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi kerana cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu

Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya syurga dalam mata seorang hawa

Ada apa dengan cinta 
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama 
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya

Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja...

Maybe if I fall in love, the feeling would be the same as when I heard this poem in AADC film. Yeah...maybe.

So I am having a really shameful moment of my life. At this point, I... actually confused with my feeling for someone. Haha. The story is he is the only guy I always meet, a friend of mine. And I thought I had a chance with him. Just maybe. Although most of the time I don't like his attitude.

That's why I said I am confused with my own feeling. Just because he is a guy and I am a girl, I have to fall in love with him. There is no logic point for us to be in love because we seldom talk and seldom knew each other. So then I watch him fall in love with another girl, which I knew. It happen so quickly that I had to gaze at them and think when the hell actually they fall in love? Haha. They always like to argue and then poof their status change(so the cat dog theory is actually true? Hmm). She is the type of girl who is 360 degree different from me. Chatty, soft, sweet, a bit blur( actually me too), naive and yes, pretty. So I was like... duhh does all men need to find these kind of girl as their lover?
(See example; Neelo** and Anzal**. Neelo** is an iconic lady, beauty with brain with status. And Alzal** is the sweet spoken lady and ..............(put whatever comment you think of her because I am lazy to do so). So who do you think man would come for?)

The other story is about my best friend. I love her love story. She is the kind of girl who is very cool and chill that most of the boys like to have a chat. But she still the kind of reserve girl who knows well about ikhtilat. She told me that she is actually being approached by a guy (junior) in our uni. Their relationship is like a brother and sister who like to jokes and bickering to each other, maybe they found an attraction with that kind of relationship. However they can't make it because she don't feel good about it and because of some advice told by someone she trust. Then not long after that her school friend propose her through her family. And somehow she feel easy to accept him although actually they are not too close before this , only see each other on facebook or when there is their class reunion. They knew each other since young and their family also know each other as their house are not far.

When she told me this story she can't help but to smile because before this she never thought of him as her future husband. She come out with a wisdom words 'love is so unexpected' which make me recall of all my crush since kindergarten (so maybe I can contact them back through facebook and expect the same love story hahahahahahahahahahahah so ridiculous).

But anyway yes, surrounding by people who recently fall in love and some of them eventually will get married make me feel so sentimental. I began to observe and analyze them,oh not only them but other lover couple. I conclude that love is something that full of cringe, mushy pushy (seriously what is that word meaning?) and.... I don't know... an alienated feeling?

And I had been bugging my best friends with this issue like a desperate girl. I mean the issue of 'how could a guy and a girl fall in love'? Where can I get the manual because I really had no idea about it? How in the world is this plain girl going to found her soulmate? Why is good guy population keep decreasing? Why? What? How? When?Who?

Banyak soalan banyak juga jawapannya..

Pfttt somehow that Najwa Latif's song seem realistic right now.

All these issue make me dizzy.
Pftt...I'll think about it tomorrow.

Disclaimer;
For the friend (you know who you are) sorry if I advertise your story in my blog because I just want to make a point. And sorry if the detail goes wrong.

For the guy that I confused about (you never knew about this) good luck in your new relationship. And yes, you really proof  something to me.

For the celebrities I mention above, sorry but no offense. I am just giving an example.

Peace no war.