Of introvert and writing

Assalamualaikum

Sebenarnya nak cakap, aku dah ada kegilaan baru. Watak Clark Medina dr On The Wings of Love #jadineloveteam

Tapi aku tak nak cakap pasal dia tp drama tu yg mempengaruhi otak, mimpi dan fikiran aku.

Jadi sebelum tidur semalam aku tengok beberapa episod drama tu & sementara tunggu download aku karang cerita yang dah bersarang kat kepala aku.

Ceritanya tentang seorang perempuan dalam lewat 20 an yg tipikalnya sedang membina kerjaya & cinta. Dia ada keje elok, di sebuah syarikat event management yg diurus oleh seorang bos lelaki (tua,dlm 38 thn) yang sgt self centered. Watak bos ni sbnrnya aku dpt dari cerita kwn aku nurul fauzani. Ex bosnya di sebuah syarikat event & jualan (i guess,sorry kalau salah) jnis yg hmmm self centered. He want to do many things but never focused to do it properly.

And at one point really menyusahkan pekerja2 nya. So dlm cerita aku, watak perempuan ni at early sgt sabar melayan kerenah si bos ni. Bukan sbb dia hensem atau kaya atau bongkak, tapi sbb itu saja pekerjaan yg perempuan ni boleh buat.

When almost all her friend left the company, dia terpaksa stay sbb dia tak sampai hati biar si bos tu uruskan sorg2. Tak, aku takkan terpengaruh dgn mana2 kisah cinta bos & pekerja yg berlambak kat tv dan novel. Aku cuba nk sampaikan kisah struggle kaum perempuan utk menaiki tangga kerjaya. Ramai kwn2 aku dan aku sndiri yg rasakan. Yelah at least bukan tahap2 mcm vivy yusof, but just a marhaen people who salary not reach rm 2k.

The only thing that keep this woman rational is her boyfriend, aidan. Aidan tipikal lelaki melayu yg sanggup buat byk kerja semata2 utk capai cita2nya jd rockstar. Aidan seorg yg energetic, kelakar dan semua sifat extrovert yg tiada pd wtk perempuan tu,farehah.

But then they broke up and farehah life screw up. Dia x expect utk berkahwin dlm waktu trdekat tp nmpknya dlm impian dan cita2 melangit aidan, dia tiada.

Kemudian barulah masuk cerita one of my best friend about her experience with tinder. She eventually hooked up with an older man with great career. But bodoh punya laki,still want his ex wife.

The bos, btw his name is hidayat, also is in the same situation. His wife left him after 10 years of marriage because of his workholic. He just dont know how to move on sbb dia pun bukan stok2 lelaki tua yg gatal tgk anak dara.

He found that farehah is the realistic wife he can have. Farehah is loyal, excellent in work and down to earth. He is not interested with her lame personality or characteristic, but he knows they can be great partner.

Farehah know hidayat only want to take advantages of her kindness ,of course dia tak layan. Hidayat wont do sth that dont benefit him. He can go to the extend of neglecting her right as worker just because they are marriage couple.

She want to back off and quit but it is not easy. Hidayat meet her father and eventually people around her pushed her to get married because hidayat seem like a fine good man.

Nobody knows that farehah actually had a depression after her break up. She can hardly smile and somehow become negative in life. She need someone like aidan, not hidayat. But she already give up with aidan so she accept hidayat proposal.

She just give up with her life and no longer care about the bad consequence she might have for choosing hidayat as her husband.

Pastu aku dh tak ada idea sbb aku cuba nk elakkan the cliche of benci2 syg. I am thinking of to make their rship as realistic and practical as they can be. Which is i think most of the couple in the world had. Not many couple survive because they still love each other. But because it is realistic and practical to stick with it rather than complicated your life with divorce issue.

I still dont find the ending. Jadi sebagaimana aku dpt idea dr cerita dua kwn aku ni, aku hrp aku dpt cerita dr org lain utk akhiri cerita ni.

Which is impossible i guess.

Which bring me to the urge of watching more drama and buy more books

Pftt...it is really hard to be introvert when you have so much thing in your head. Yang seterusnya buat aku mimpi benda pelik mcm bertunang dgn stranger.

Pergh menghayati watak seh. Apa2 jela
Till then,bye

Aku dan kegilaanku pada john llyod

Haha tajuk apabenda jela.

It is not an entry totally about john llyod, si aktor filipina tu. Tapi aku lebih nak cakap tentang drama cinta filipina atau dipanggil 'soap opera'.

I dont watch all his drama because seriously it is so hard to get them because most of his drama is in 2000's. Zaman tu youtube baru nak lahir dan peminat drama filipina hanyalah mak cik2 yg duduk rumah.

But i watch few on youtube ,but it only airs less than 15 episodes (out of 100+ guys). So i would like to give my thought on filipina love drama through john llyod dramas

How philiphines perception on love (in 2000s era)

1. The hero or heroine must be rich. Super rich like the mayor son or very successful businessman.

'More than love' drama show the heroine come from a family who had a successful shipping company and the hero is the long lost son of their rival company.

'It might be you',the hero is the son of town mayor while the heroine is an orphan (i i think she got backstory also but i told you u only watch 10 episode & i not yet googled about it).

'ikaw ang lahat sa akin', the hero once again the heir of a successful business company (they do many business which i dont care).

John llyod mmg takkan jadi org miskin yg mmg miskin. So does bea alonzo. Oh yeah if you notice, i only watch the drama he did with bea alonzo. Memula dorg suka cerita psl perbezaan darjat but at the end it always rupanya dua2 sama darjat.

Kau rasa? Haha. So aku mcm skeptikal skit dgn usaha dorg utk memberi mesej 'cinta tak mengenal darjat'. Pftt.

2. John llyod always...always...be the guy who madly deeply in love with the girl. Yeah i know bea is pretty, even a woman could adore (and envy) her.

It is the extend of entering her room just to say he miss her (ikaw ang lahat sa akin), pretend to be her husband and make a lot of skinship in (more than love) & clinging to her from childhood period to adult (it might be you).

Sometimes it feels romantic and sometimes it is soo annoying. Like freaking annoying.
Must he ask her to date him in office hours (IALSA) & only the antagonist feel it is inappropriate while everyone let them be?

I am bothered by the skinship they had in MTL (yeah, they got two season and half of them are just showing how they glued with each other).

It seem like, they try to show if you love someone, touch her, comfort her with you hands, your body...i mean what the hell. You are intruding someone personal space too much and you call that love. Call me conservative, i dont care if you are englishman or americans. But it bothered me because asian people should have limitation of it.

Which bring us to number 3,

3. They seem to transform into their colonial culture

We all know that all the soap opera story is sooo not relevant. They only talk about
jealousysy and hatred because of wealth, exaggerate love between man and woman more than with their own parents.

They seem want to be like their colony; rich and dont care about anything else like poverty and social issue. Yes, they did show scene where the rich donate food and money to the poor but that is so pretencious. Like a 12 year old girl can write the scene.

4. How they allowing LGBT community in their society

Maybe in 2000s it is not so obvious. But in drama 'IMBY', there is an important character in the heroine life which become drag queen. I mean, the real actor i believe is a straight guy, and i dont see the importance to potray such character.

In become more obvious these day, the drag queen Vice Ganda even had his own show, and his films get into box offices.

Oh, just to tell you john lloyd did a gay character in one of his movie. Then starting from that, he is well known in hollywood.
Omaigod, why is he doing that? You want tough character? Just go to Tondo and live there for a month.

5. Last but not least, ok i just want to comment how they always potray bea alonzo in most of drama & movies. Can you stop potray her as a slut with all the unnessary romantic scene? She can be a good tomboy girl in IMBY and innocent girl next door in IALSA. so stop stripping her clothes and make her look like a slut.

 i conclude the 'love' that been potrayed in soap drama is more to illusion rather than reality. I told you philiphines people are very creative and have much affection in their love story. You watch 100 episode of indonesian sinetron is different from the feel that you get watching 100 episode of philiphines drama. So it would be great if they just stick with their own culture, with their real society issue and make a meaningful love story.

This is a few credit i want to give with each john llyod drama that i watch;

1. In IALSA, i like how the second heroine love and life issue. She is the typical hardworking poor girl but she been raped (when she in drunk situation) by  the man she adore (as a gentleman, not that she want to marry him). She still fight for her right (after know the truth) eventhough the rapist had become her business partner and best friend.

2. In IMBY i like the simple childhood both of the main character had. Especially with the child actor kathryn bernado. She is cute but matured, rough but soft heart. Her adorable gesture and the way she talk really make me satisfied with the first five episode.

More Than Love is just too complicated. I bet everyone just watch it because they want to see kilig moments between bea and john.

With this, i end my crush with you john. Kita putus.

Tudung people

Assalamualaikum
Greetings

Jadi hari ni, mungkin ia sedikit kontroversi tapi rasanya aku perlu juga bercakap mengenainya.

Calm down people calm down. To be honestly i did follow vivy yusof and takahara on instagram. And i a

am not the person who will follow someone that i hate. I loves these two people. Vivy with her cheeky humour writing and taka with her awesome weirdness.

I dont have a problem with these two people personality or lifestyle. It just their appearance seem a bit trouble for me. Especially tudung part.

I already post an entry talking about how Islam is wide and there is variety of culture in it. The way muslim pakistan woman wear hijab is different from the way muslim london woman wear hijab. I get it and i respect it.

It just, i dont like how that shawl trend is getting weirder, how people are used to watch woman exposing their neck, their ear and even their hair. I can see that netizen who comments on a celebrity who did expose their aurat can be categorized in few type. The one who give harsh insult (pretending like they have no sin) , the one who give soft reminder and the one who support her.

Me neither.

I dont care much of what people wear because it is their money,their choice. And moreover, who need my thought? I am not a fashion stylist and dont have opinion on everything. I dont care to peek on sajat instagram because i know i will only curse her/him. Bak kata azwan ali, why bother?

But seriously,just a reminder for young people who just entering the teenage world, it is not the appropriate way to wear tudung. Allah swt save give you the guideliness about woman aurat in His love letter

Labuhkan kerudungmu menutupi dada mu terutamanya. Your 'accecories' is not there to show people. 

"Hei, pakai style mcm tu menutup apa!",someone would say.

"Habis nk pakai tudung labuh macam ustazah? Narrow minded sgt", someone else would say. 

Ok. Kalau kau tuan puteri yg pergi balik keje/ sekolah dgn  driver, naik heli tak tempuh jammed, keje hanya menaip dan menulis dlm ofis, tak perlu angkat brg berat...then silakan. Kalau kau rs throughout your day ada bodyguard yg akan lindung kau kalau tudung kau terselak dek angin, ada bodyguard yg blh halang lelaki dr tgk & cuba ngurat kau, kalau kau blh jd invisible dpn semua org ...then silakan. This style is for you. 

Tp hakikatnya, we never knew what ahead us throughout a day. The courage of being woman akan datang bila kau rasa selamat dgn diri sendiri. Bukannya 24 jam asyik tarik tudung ke bawah sebab ternaik bila kau bergerak, 24 jam nk menghadap cermin btulkan rambut kau yg terkeluar. 

Islam tu memudahkan sbnrnya. What i learn from geng tudung labuh back in college is it is so easy to wear tudung labuh when u had a busy day or go travel. Senang nk solat, senang kalau tiba2 kena buat aktiviti fizikal yg paksa kita utk byk bergerak, senang kalau tiba2 hujan turun & taklah badan kita jd transparent gila bila bsh kuyup, senang kalau tiba2 eksiden aurat kita dh terjaga. 

You never thought about that,kan geng2 hijabista? 

Itu baru pasal diri sendiri. Belum lagi tentang mata2 jahat lelaki yg memandang. Yes, kes rogol yg jd bkn sebab pakaian wanita. Dan lelaki masih boleh byg yg bukan2 walaupun kau bertudung labuh, berniqab bagai. Cuma, jgn menggalakkan lg imaginasi mereka. Kau pakai tudung tp pakai baju ketat, mmg free show je. Dan kalau benda buruk tu tak berlaku pd kau, ia mungkin berlaku pd org lain. So save other woman from being a rapist victim by covering yourself well. 

Itu je aku minta. 

Please cover yourself well sister. Kau kecamlah aku macam mana yg kau nk. Believe me, i am worst than you guys in term of appearance and taqwa. Sometimes i got no time to iron my tudung so i

wear tudung sarung & go to the grocery shop. The tudung will easily flipped if there is a strong wind and make my aurat uncovered. We make mistakes and sometimes it is just happen unexpectedly. 

But do try to improve your aurat everyday. Protect them and only show how beautiful it is just for your husband. 

Aku dah malas tulis dan ayat aku dah tunggang langgang,bye.