Assalamualaikum.greetings.
Tarik nafas dan hembus.
Because we gonna talk a really serious matter.
It's called debt.
Or in my case, study debt.
So i read a post in facebook stating the unadjusted payment schedule that makes the debtor has to pay a large amount of money. Who's the creditor? Of course the one that being advertise on the tv, that people used to call it P.Ti.Pu.
To tell you the truth, i was not aware about the seriuosness of this payment back issue eventhough my cousins had suffer from it too. But facing it right now really scares me. Well i have to ..whether i like it or not... work part time after graduation bcoz i want to settle up my debt asap. Especially the 'p.tipu' debt.
And the older generation just dont get it why so hard for me to get a proper job, married and live a stable and normal life. Well maybe i am the exception of the stable life.
Yes, part of the reason i stay with the part time job bcoz i love the job & the people. I get vacation when everybody working (*which i like bcoz u never suffer of crowd people).
Second is i want to get experience, just to know what is it that i want to do in life, the thing that i love to do. I really really dont want to become a zombie workers with a stressful life,office politics.
Third, i assume living with family is cost saving for a fresh starter like me. I dont want to 'perjudikan' all i got to move into a place i dont know, with the job i dont sure would love it. Yes, it is time for me to grow up,but i also have to think about my security.
This is not a melodrama nor soap opera, like it or not i have to find my place in this world. this is not renaissance era where the woman just being woman & support their man. Modern life don't help us but instead push us to the cliff of harsh reality. example are this ptptipu issue.
Older generation dont face this kind of problem. Yeah, i never thought of this fact when all of the old people point bullet at me. I always questioning why other people life so easy but not mine? I am one of the people facing this kind of problem, but i know i'm not alone.
This is the harsh reality i have to face,this is my life tough task. What i can right now is just continuing my life with that part time job (with many people have bad thought about it. No, not a haram job, it just a low class job). I love to work with the things i love (books) and with the heartwarming people i met. People who talks bad about it dont pay my ptptn (ah, no need to hide it anyway.yes it is ptptn).
Maka bertabahlah farhana.
Your life is not normal. It is extraordinary.
Saturday, 26 December 2015
Tuesday, 22 December 2015
Falling for Innocence
Assalamualaikum.
Okay, aku memang gila kalau dah jumpa sesuatu yang aku suka.
Tapi jangan risau itu hanya sementara.
Dan blog inilah yang akan jadi mangsa bebelan aku yang ntah apa-apa ni selain dari kawan2 baik aku.
FALLING FOR INNOCENCE
Well aku suka tengok troll drama kat tumblr. Dan kalau tak cukup memang redah cari kat Google Images just nak gelakkan ketidak-realistik-an sesuatu drama. Especially drama Korea. Well aku memang suka tengok drama tapi aku juga suka komen drama macam pengkritik yang garang. So tengah2 skroll tu jumpa troll drama ni. Aku tak ingat yang mana. So google la pasal cerita ni sebab macam best je pelakon dia (*aku memang jenis tak ingat nama sebenar pelakon. so google sendiri la ye). Step seterusnya tengok mv kat Youtube. Oleh kerana kelajuan Youtube sangat 'memberangsangkan', aku beralih kepada bacaan review kat dramabean utk tahu keseluruhan cerita.
MV seems intersting.
Review seems interesting. Ada humour, ada drama, ada romantik.
Step seterusnya adalah mencari cerita dalam kalangan rakan2 yang rajin mendownload movie. Tapi sebab aku malu tiba2 nk redah tanya kawan2 yang aku lupa nak contact sebabkan busy (konon) maka aku cari inisiatif lain utk tengok cerita ni. Buy the DVD.
AND OMG. This story is really really really really best. I love the humour. I love the zany of the hero. I love the passionate of the heroine with her work. And the antagonist is really daebak. You will really hate him because he the one who kill you slowly with his calmness. I mean can you imagine a friend, your secret admire too would turn into a monster just because of you. I would be hating him and myself for make him like that. Actually i always have this second-lead syndrome, because i think most of them are more nicer, cooler and smart than the lead hero. But FFI really make me hate the second lead character and dont want to give him a chance at all (yes i also have pretending-lead-heroine syndrome).
Kang Min Ho is a 'serial killer' in the business world, he has a position similar to Ah Long the loan shark but of course in a cool and standard way. You know how finance company from America always manipulate the money in a slow but shit way. In one word, he's a jerk. I love his character, not just because the cliche arrogant-workholic-cold lead hero but because he's being that in a funny way. You know a bad guy is making bad thing in funny way that you dont know if you have to laugh or cry (imagine you're his opponent). He is being jerk all the way with the lead heroine but as the saying goes, dont trouble the trouble if you don't want the trouble to trouble you. Being harsh to this woman (profesionally) open the door to unexpected fate that he falls for her because he's receiving her late fiance heart (that being murdered). Yes, same as other lead hero, he try to resist the feeling because he feels he's too cool, too up standard for this woman. But, seriously who does not fall in love with a beautiful hardworking intelligent strict secretary that have her own cuteness. This woman is so cool and this guy character is so shining, please do get married for God sake.
And both of them make a great teamwork in their work field. Totally the zany type. Like Makoto and Hyuga from Rich Man Poor Man. They really suit each other, profesionally and personally.
I won't comment too much about the story because it's still the cliche story from Korea. But the performance of the cast is sooo incredible that i want to give 4 out of 5 star. For Kang Min Ho character, totally perfect. I'll treat you with few picture that you would find in google images. Haha. For exclusive preview please go to dramabean website.
i am totally biased over kang min ho. haha. whatever.
Okay, aku memang gila kalau dah jumpa sesuatu yang aku suka.
Tapi jangan risau itu hanya sementara.
Dan blog inilah yang akan jadi mangsa bebelan aku yang ntah apa-apa ni selain dari kawan2 baik aku.
FALLING FOR INNOCENCE
Well aku suka tengok troll drama kat tumblr. Dan kalau tak cukup memang redah cari kat Google Images just nak gelakkan ketidak-realistik-an sesuatu drama. Especially drama Korea. Well aku memang suka tengok drama tapi aku juga suka komen drama macam pengkritik yang garang. So tengah2 skroll tu jumpa troll drama ni. Aku tak ingat yang mana. So google la pasal cerita ni sebab macam best je pelakon dia (*aku memang jenis tak ingat nama sebenar pelakon. so google sendiri la ye). Step seterusnya tengok mv kat Youtube. Oleh kerana kelajuan Youtube sangat 'memberangsangkan', aku beralih kepada bacaan review kat dramabean utk tahu keseluruhan cerita.
MV seems intersting.
Review seems interesting. Ada humour, ada drama, ada romantik.
Step seterusnya adalah mencari cerita dalam kalangan rakan2 yang rajin mendownload movie. Tapi sebab aku malu tiba2 nk redah tanya kawan2 yang aku lupa nak contact sebabkan busy (konon) maka aku cari inisiatif lain utk tengok cerita ni. Buy the DVD.
AND OMG. This story is really really really really best. I love the humour. I love the zany of the hero. I love the passionate of the heroine with her work. And the antagonist is really daebak. You will really hate him because he the one who kill you slowly with his calmness. I mean can you imagine a friend, your secret admire too would turn into a monster just because of you. I would be hating him and myself for make him like that. Actually i always have this second-lead syndrome, because i think most of them are more nicer, cooler and smart than the lead hero. But FFI really make me hate the second lead character and dont want to give him a chance at all (yes i also have pretending-lead-heroine syndrome).
Kang Min Ho is a 'serial killer' in the business world, he has a position similar to Ah Long the loan shark but of course in a cool and standard way. You know how finance company from America always manipulate the money in a slow but shit way. In one word, he's a jerk. I love his character, not just because the cliche arrogant-workholic-cold lead hero but because he's being that in a funny way. You know a bad guy is making bad thing in funny way that you dont know if you have to laugh or cry (imagine you're his opponent). He is being jerk all the way with the lead heroine but as the saying goes, dont trouble the trouble if you don't want the trouble to trouble you. Being harsh to this woman (profesionally) open the door to unexpected fate that he falls for her because he's receiving her late fiance heart (that being murdered). Yes, same as other lead hero, he try to resist the feeling because he feels he's too cool, too up standard for this woman. But, seriously who does not fall in love with a beautiful hardworking intelligent strict secretary that have her own cuteness. This woman is so cool and this guy character is so shining, please do get married for God sake.
And both of them make a great teamwork in their work field. Totally the zany type. Like Makoto and Hyuga from Rich Man Poor Man. They really suit each other, profesionally and personally.
I won't comment too much about the story because it's still the cliche story from Korea. But the performance of the cast is sooo incredible that i want to give 4 out of 5 star. For Kang Min Ho character, totally perfect. I'll treat you with few picture that you would find in google images. Haha. For exclusive preview please go to dramabean website.
Thursday, 19 November 2015
the lemon and lemonade
Assalamualaikum
Har har har...
Why am I want to explain this so badly? Okay
There's a saying;
When people give you lemon, make a lemonade out of it
I understand the saying as to make good of something even if it is bad.
Turn the negative into positive.
Well.. is that right?
If I am wrong please forgive my laziness to do research about the meaning of the saying.
But actually i am the type of person who like to think whatever i want to believe.
stubborn person.
So who the lemon in my story?
It is an author named Syaz Johar.
I am not a die hard fan of him but he is the right person that i can refer about how to turn bad thing into good.
He, like a cliche action movie director, like to view horrible thing (like sex, crime and whatsoever) at the beginning of story.
Like the movie of Bohsia ,where we see the wild things before the characters repent or turn good at the end. Yeah, you see many kind of movie with that recipe, right?
So reading his work, I admit that some of them are like... make the woman reputation go into the lowest level. I hate it at first but until the end, the insult towards woman is actually make sense.
Maybe in the eye of some man, they only see woman as a fault, a low human creature so they don't respect them. Yes, it happen in the real world. You have to agree with him.
Kougar, an 'andartu' girl who turn miserable after she got raped, his young boyfriend just want an easy-relationship-without-responsibility, she got into forceful marriage just because she getting old, she had unhappy marriage that make her doing sex with her worker and at the end she barely escaped the marriage cage but have to endure the family,society sceptism about 'janda'. anyone doesn't agree with me that it can happen in real life? he bring the character to the lowest level, it must be he hate them. or actually he want to make us think why the prophet Muhammad s.a.w said that getting marriage is one of his sunnah? Because that is the nature of human, of woman that have to be protected by man. Feminism refuse the fact that woman need man (marriage) but can you see the effect? It is all begin in how a woman take care of herself. How is she covering her aurah, forbiding the wrongful relationship with man. She might be called 'kampung', 'so lame', 'kolot' but Allah rules do protect human.
Next in Tabu, about a fat woman with her own taboo about beautiful woman (a.k.a thin, fair skin) and also woman wearing scarf. She herself doesn't care if her boyfriend is a Negro guy and feels secure with him (as she think they suit each other well). I quit forget the whole story but most of the part, the woman critisizing about other woman. She look down on woman who wears scarf with tight clothes (skinnyjeans,legging). But she herself wearing skirts that looks like going to burst with her fat body. If you think that she has a problematic family (who not practicing Islam) then you're wrong. She has a typical mother who live in a village, with typical babbling mouth who always remind her to pray, to be a good woman. That story really make me think that actually most of the time we doing sins because of ourselves. It's like 80% depend on our decision to choose the life path and only 20% to other party.
See? Who says Fixi books are for a bunch of rebellious kid who does not know the boundary or literally a sex or crime book? These kind of story do make us scared of how the world can go crazy and out of our control. But at least these book speak of the truth, something realistic that can actually happen. It show the worst situation from our wildest imagination so we take precautions. It's better than a fantasy escapenism that bring you far from reality.
My advice, lemon is good for health. But too much of it can also cause you stomach ache. So take deliberately guys.
Till then bye =)
Har har har...
Why am I want to explain this so badly? Okay
There's a saying;
When people give you lemon, make a lemonade out of it
I understand the saying as to make good of something even if it is bad.
Turn the negative into positive.
Well.. is that right?
If I am wrong please forgive my laziness to do research about the meaning of the saying.
But actually i am the type of person who like to think whatever i want to believe.
stubborn person.
So who the lemon in my story?
It is an author named Syaz Johar.
I am not a die hard fan of him but he is the right person that i can refer about how to turn bad thing into good.
He, like a cliche action movie director, like to view horrible thing (like sex, crime and whatsoever) at the beginning of story.
Like the movie of Bohsia ,where we see the wild things before the characters repent or turn good at the end. Yeah, you see many kind of movie with that recipe, right?
So reading his work, I admit that some of them are like... make the woman reputation go into the lowest level. I hate it at first but until the end, the insult towards woman is actually make sense.
Maybe in the eye of some man, they only see woman as a fault, a low human creature so they don't respect them. Yes, it happen in the real world. You have to agree with him.
Kougar, an 'andartu' girl who turn miserable after she got raped, his young boyfriend just want an easy-relationship-without-responsibility, she got into forceful marriage just because she getting old, she had unhappy marriage that make her doing sex with her worker and at the end she barely escaped the marriage cage but have to endure the family,society sceptism about 'janda'. anyone doesn't agree with me that it can happen in real life? he bring the character to the lowest level, it must be he hate them. or actually he want to make us think why the prophet Muhammad s.a.w said that getting marriage is one of his sunnah? Because that is the nature of human, of woman that have to be protected by man. Feminism refuse the fact that woman need man (marriage) but can you see the effect? It is all begin in how a woman take care of herself. How is she covering her aurah, forbiding the wrongful relationship with man. She might be called 'kampung', 'so lame', 'kolot' but Allah rules do protect human.
Next in Tabu, about a fat woman with her own taboo about beautiful woman (a.k.a thin, fair skin) and also woman wearing scarf. She herself doesn't care if her boyfriend is a Negro guy and feels secure with him (as she think they suit each other well). I quit forget the whole story but most of the part, the woman critisizing about other woman. She look down on woman who wears scarf with tight clothes (skinnyjeans,legging). But she herself wearing skirts that looks like going to burst with her fat body. If you think that she has a problematic family (who not practicing Islam) then you're wrong. She has a typical mother who live in a village, with typical babbling mouth who always remind her to pray, to be a good woman. That story really make me think that actually most of the time we doing sins because of ourselves. It's like 80% depend on our decision to choose the life path and only 20% to other party.
See? Who says Fixi books are for a bunch of rebellious kid who does not know the boundary or literally a sex or crime book? These kind of story do make us scared of how the world can go crazy and out of our control. But at least these book speak of the truth, something realistic that can actually happen. It show the worst situation from our wildest imagination so we take precautions. It's better than a fantasy escapenism that bring you far from reality.
My advice, lemon is good for health. But too much of it can also cause you stomach ache. So take deliberately guys.
Till then bye =)
T.A.M
Assalamualaikum.
T.A.M
Another novel that have it's own drama adaptation. Anyone can guess it.
Okay it start with Tuan Anas M*****
Got it right?
Haha
Duhh..another novel review?
I don't want to comment like i hating it a lot.
Because i did before with 'Love You Mr A*******' and end with going crazy about it after copying the drama from my friend.
*curiosity really kill the coolness
Well what i can say about TAM is it is another cliche drama.
Ordinary girl met extraordinary guy in an unexpected event. The guy must be rich and arrogant, the girl must be cheerful, positive, and easy going type.
I think nowadays that time of storyline had become a basis. If you dont have it then you are doomed.
Pftt..please talk to the hand
Well there are some reasons why i can't agree with this novel although i only watch few of it
1. Okay i can tolerate if you want to stick with the cliche. do as you wish. but can you offer something that actually..useful? i mean we can predict everything from the start. just please. korea drama is successful and worth watching because they actually have something useful to offer to viewer. For example, cliche rich-guy-poor-woman theme in Hello Monster revolving a detectives story with brilliant conflict, Emergency Couple revolves around medical field, She's Pretty revolves about self-esteem and editorial job, Kill Me Heal Me revolves around psychology field, Falling for Innocence about secretarial job and creditors play big role in a company ....and yeah i dont watch many Korea drama these day. You can state whatever drama you think is best.
I am giving too much example. But the point is
Girl jobless > Replacing his mom become maid in rich house (happens to own by bachelor handsome guy) > Fight with the boss without sense > Offered a job worth RM 10 000 as a payment for her mistakes> Live near with the boss and have full authority to enter his personal place (office) *so that more love scene can be made
Sigh~
So you teach woman to;
-Argue with your boss when you're the one who make the mistakes (workers happen to be deaf when it comes to scolding session, in a reasonable situation because we admit our mistakes. With mistakes we learn our lesson)
-Blindly receive job offer worth RM 10 000
Don't you watch news or reading newspaper? Human exploitation, drug, crime... there is only 1% of chance for us to not being in any of those situation if we let our guard down. I am not telling you to become doubt or paranoia with everything but at least have some sense
Even if you know him well, i bet your sense and sensibility is at the low level. Do some research
-Blindly do everything that he told you
I dont think cooking and driving include in the job description as personal assistant or any office job. No. He already has his own assistant so why bother to have you? So that assistant also had a special tutor to learn all that things? (*seriously chef wan as a cook tutor? and personal drive teacher to teach you auto car? AUTO? SERIOUSLY?).
-Blindly leaving your OWN house to move into small house so that you live near to your boss? Seriously? I dont bother if you migrating to another region, district for a job but it clearly in the same village, district....seriously woman? and her mother?)
Sigh~
This drama, no, a lot of story nowadays just want woman to have sweet fantasy of what happiness mean. If you dont met rich guy then you dont have achievement. Seriously? (*repeating the word 'seriously' over and over).
I dont need child fantasy. I need a solution. A realistic solution. An awaken story that inspire others to move forward. Happiness is not just about material. Yes, poor woman can marry to rich guy and have happy ending. But look around you. What is wrong about the world now? How a story, even a simple one can make one heart inspire. It is not nap time. Because we have enough nap time when the time come. It's about to build a meaningful life, here and thereafter. Appreciating and focusing on what really important in our life.
This opinion i believe is shared by many people. so stop make unnecessary thing goes viral. People please, stop this madness.stop pushing me to look for the book when it's out of stock too. Like seriously. And in my next entry i want to share about an author that actually love to give me lemon so i can made lemonade.
till then, bye.
T.A.M
Another novel that have it's own drama adaptation. Anyone can guess it.
Okay it start with Tuan Anas M*****
Got it right?
Haha
Duhh..another novel review?
I don't want to comment like i hating it a lot.
Because i did before with 'Love You Mr A*******' and end with going crazy about it after copying the drama from my friend.
*curiosity really kill the coolness
Well what i can say about TAM is it is another cliche drama.
Ordinary girl met extraordinary guy in an unexpected event. The guy must be rich and arrogant, the girl must be cheerful, positive, and easy going type.
I think nowadays that time of storyline had become a basis. If you dont have it then you are doomed.
Pftt..please talk to the hand
Well there are some reasons why i can't agree with this novel although i only watch few of it
1. Okay i can tolerate if you want to stick with the cliche. do as you wish. but can you offer something that actually..useful? i mean we can predict everything from the start. just please. korea drama is successful and worth watching because they actually have something useful to offer to viewer. For example, cliche rich-guy-poor-woman theme in Hello Monster revolving a detectives story with brilliant conflict, Emergency Couple revolves around medical field, She's Pretty revolves about self-esteem and editorial job, Kill Me Heal Me revolves around psychology field, Falling for Innocence about secretarial job and creditors play big role in a company ....and yeah i dont watch many Korea drama these day. You can state whatever drama you think is best.
I am giving too much example. But the point is
Girl jobless > Replacing his mom become maid in rich house (happens to own by bachelor handsome guy) > Fight with the boss without sense > Offered a job worth RM 10 000 as a payment for her mistakes> Live near with the boss and have full authority to enter his personal place (office) *so that more love scene can be made
Sigh~
So you teach woman to;
-Argue with your boss when you're the one who make the mistakes (workers happen to be deaf when it comes to scolding session, in a reasonable situation because we admit our mistakes. With mistakes we learn our lesson)
-Blindly receive job offer worth RM 10 000
Don't you watch news or reading newspaper? Human exploitation, drug, crime... there is only 1% of chance for us to not being in any of those situation if we let our guard down. I am not telling you to become doubt or paranoia with everything but at least have some sense
Even if you know him well, i bet your sense and sensibility is at the low level. Do some research
-Blindly do everything that he told you
I dont think cooking and driving include in the job description as personal assistant or any office job. No. He already has his own assistant so why bother to have you? So that assistant also had a special tutor to learn all that things? (*seriously chef wan as a cook tutor? and personal drive teacher to teach you auto car? AUTO? SERIOUSLY?).
-Blindly leaving your OWN house to move into small house so that you live near to your boss? Seriously? I dont bother if you migrating to another region, district for a job but it clearly in the same village, district....seriously woman? and her mother?)
Sigh~
This drama, no, a lot of story nowadays just want woman to have sweet fantasy of what happiness mean. If you dont met rich guy then you dont have achievement. Seriously? (*repeating the word 'seriously' over and over).
I dont need child fantasy. I need a solution. A realistic solution. An awaken story that inspire others to move forward. Happiness is not just about material. Yes, poor woman can marry to rich guy and have happy ending. But look around you. What is wrong about the world now? How a story, even a simple one can make one heart inspire. It is not nap time. Because we have enough nap time when the time come. It's about to build a meaningful life, here and thereafter. Appreciating and focusing on what really important in our life.
This opinion i believe is shared by many people. so stop make unnecessary thing goes viral. People please, stop this madness.stop pushing me to look for the book when it's out of stock too. Like seriously. And in my next entry i want to share about an author that actually love to give me lemon so i can made lemonade.
till then, bye.
Wednesday, 11 November 2015
TPI a review
Assalamualaikum
Again and again and again and again..
Again I read something that i really think a cliche
*fyi girl, saying cliche is already clich.pftt..
Working in a bookstore, with many novels and the trend of drama adaptations make people go crazy. Like seriously. You should differentiate the pieces for drama and the pieces for novels (that should stay genuinely in readers imagination).
Ada dua kondisi aja yang buat aku membaca novel. Satu memang aku suka penulisnya atau kedua, just a curiousity of why something become hit.
Jadi aku nak menilai satu buku yang aku baca. Well posting here in my blog would not make it dramatic as if i post it on goodreads (which will appear on my facebook account) and facebook itself. I dont need people to comment to my thought.
So there are 10 things i want to say about this anonymous novel that let me call it 'TPI'. Seriously i don't want my blog to appear in the search engine as people google the real title.
1. Cliche one: Girl who jobless and searching for a job
That's to make us think that this girl has nothing, a type that people have to sympathy for. Yes, unemployment graduate is the most saddest type of person on Earth.pray for them, ameen.
Heh.
2.Unrealistic event: The girl father turn to have a rich friend that owes him a life. So the rich uncle (father's friend) offer a job to her at his son company.
Oh, is it a common for someone to get a job because she/ he has connection? Yeah. But it just too good to be true. Why not showing something that make people think they should work hard to get what they want? Like what Makoto did (i dont get over with this Makoto yet.please refer to previous entry if you are lost who the hell is she). She lied to Toru Hyuga, using his weakness to get the job. Well yeah she does not mean to do that but he the one who piss her off first. So she deserves a sweet revenge for been insulted by Toru as Miss Tokyo University. Yeay, go girl.
3. Unrealistic event: Seriously, i dont have an experience to know someone who is actually a player, playboy or whatever you call it. But do some research ladies!! You don't simply say a guy is a player because she dating or sleep with woman, sweet talker, go to pub and people mentioning his goddess level of face like hundred time. So pathetic. Go buy book The Game Player by Neil Strauss and learn something to actually highlight the player part. Yes, at the end every man just have to devoting himself to Allah s.w.t, so does this type of bad person. But he is so pathetic that i don't interested to how he become a good man. *i miss neil from 3 Hati
4. Well i dont like to say this. But imagine you're meeting a long lost friend who had change drastically to something bad. Then you simply hate her for that changes. The heroine don't hesitate to hate that friend & blurt out "bertaubatlah sebelum terlambat" just because she wearing skirt. so what are you? ahli syurga? hakim mahkamah syurga?
i am not trying to defend a wrongful thing but seriously there is a different if someone actually want you to be good Muslim or just want to mentioning he/she is more noble than you. why don't she try to ask her why she become like that. there must be a huge big reason for a woman to put off her scarf. even liana jasmay character in new york cinta have some sense in it. She said to Juliana Evans's character "why you put off your scarf? you're so sweet wearing it before this". then that girl answered she have to do that to fit in to the new york environment. see. ask, understand and then talk. dont simply judge,woman.
5. again the thing about tudung. bismillahirahman nirahim. i am really saying this because i think many people got the wrong idea about it. it's not about tudung, it's about covering aurah. you know in 80 and 90 era, only like 20% of Malaysian woman (teenagers, adult,veteran) wearing tudung. yet the social problem are not as scary as nowadays. eventhough they are not covering their hair, but they did cover their eyes, ear from things that destructive. that is also part of covering aurah, have shame to Allah and protecting yourself. nowadays people wearing tudung but don't covered their behaviour. seriously i don't think there is part in Malaysia that people never see a woman with tudung. Come on, even Siti Nurhaliza wearing it, so saying that 'tudung thing is weird' is lame. The problem now is there is a woman wearing tudung but don't obey Allah's rules and regulation. that should be the real issue, girl.
6. commenting outfit again: seriously. please. i am begging you. i even have roomates and housemates who wears purdah. the things is purdah is not part of arab fashion. you say arabian night, desert...and you imagine a girl wearing purdah with beautiful eyes. nooooooo. i am here really respecting girl wearing purdah. because it show that they are forbiding themselves from behaves badly. it is like a triple protection, from human fitnah, from syaitan propaganda, and so many more. they make effort to protect their belief through the outfit. so please just dont ruin it, okay. stop wearing purdah and make an excessive eye make up because it's just same as revealing your face with heavy makeup like a club girl. it does attract man to have interest with us. then what's the point of wearing it?
7. i hate skinship. just stop making a scene with that thought okay. you dont simply fall in love just because your eyes met and you hug her accidently. that's so korean drama. stop okay. Allah as the Director of our life always protecting us. So dont simply become a selfish director creating a scene where a man and woman hug accidently and fall in love. if there's sinful thing at the first place, dont you think the relationship loose it barakah. ohh..just want to remind it goes same with the married couple. just dont share your 'bed story' okay. romantic can come in a cool way. Like what Noh Hujan did to Miss Nina ....writing romantic songs to her!! *ahah kau dah kenapa tiba-tiba
8. okay, i admit i dont fully read the whole story. but can i know who the hell infected with OCD disease? because i can't see anyone. so if there is only a little thing about ocd then you dont have to write 3 pages of information about it. seriously.
9. i am losing ideas to critic. so can we stop at number nine.
okay, i am a japan,taiwan,korean movie lover and i had watch many love scenes. but reading a book about my people (Malaysia, Muslim, Malay) doing the same thing as them it's really sad. stop giving preservatives to the reader.give lemon to us, so we can make lemonade. i'll explain this in my next entry. sorry for the long post. here a flower @@@@------------
Again and again and again and again..
Again I read something that i really think a cliche
*fyi girl, saying cliche is already clich.pftt..
Working in a bookstore, with many novels and the trend of drama adaptations make people go crazy. Like seriously. You should differentiate the pieces for drama and the pieces for novels (that should stay genuinely in readers imagination).
Ada dua kondisi aja yang buat aku membaca novel. Satu memang aku suka penulisnya atau kedua, just a curiousity of why something become hit.
Jadi aku nak menilai satu buku yang aku baca. Well posting here in my blog would not make it dramatic as if i post it on goodreads (which will appear on my facebook account) and facebook itself. I dont need people to comment to my thought.
So there are 10 things i want to say about this anonymous novel that let me call it 'TPI'. Seriously i don't want my blog to appear in the search engine as people google the real title.
1. Cliche one: Girl who jobless and searching for a job
That's to make us think that this girl has nothing, a type that people have to sympathy for. Yes, unemployment graduate is the most saddest type of person on Earth.pray for them, ameen.
Heh.
2.Unrealistic event: The girl father turn to have a rich friend that owes him a life. So the rich uncle (father's friend) offer a job to her at his son company.
Oh, is it a common for someone to get a job because she/ he has connection? Yeah. But it just too good to be true. Why not showing something that make people think they should work hard to get what they want? Like what Makoto did (i dont get over with this Makoto yet.please refer to previous entry if you are lost who the hell is she). She lied to Toru Hyuga, using his weakness to get the job. Well yeah she does not mean to do that but he the one who piss her off first. So she deserves a sweet revenge for been insulted by Toru as Miss Tokyo University. Yeay, go girl.
3. Unrealistic event: Seriously, i dont have an experience to know someone who is actually a player, playboy or whatever you call it. But do some research ladies!! You don't simply say a guy is a player because she dating or sleep with woman, sweet talker, go to pub and people mentioning his goddess level of face like hundred time. So pathetic. Go buy book The Game Player by Neil Strauss and learn something to actually highlight the player part. Yes, at the end every man just have to devoting himself to Allah s.w.t, so does this type of bad person. But he is so pathetic that i don't interested to how he become a good man. *i miss neil from 3 Hati
4. Well i dont like to say this. But imagine you're meeting a long lost friend who had change drastically to something bad. Then you simply hate her for that changes. The heroine don't hesitate to hate that friend & blurt out "bertaubatlah sebelum terlambat" just because she wearing skirt. so what are you? ahli syurga? hakim mahkamah syurga?
i am not trying to defend a wrongful thing but seriously there is a different if someone actually want you to be good Muslim or just want to mentioning he/she is more noble than you. why don't she try to ask her why she become like that. there must be a huge big reason for a woman to put off her scarf. even liana jasmay character in new york cinta have some sense in it. She said to Juliana Evans's character "why you put off your scarf? you're so sweet wearing it before this". then that girl answered she have to do that to fit in to the new york environment. see. ask, understand and then talk. dont simply judge,woman.
5. again the thing about tudung. bismillahirahman nirahim. i am really saying this because i think many people got the wrong idea about it. it's not about tudung, it's about covering aurah. you know in 80 and 90 era, only like 20% of Malaysian woman (teenagers, adult,veteran) wearing tudung. yet the social problem are not as scary as nowadays. eventhough they are not covering their hair, but they did cover their eyes, ear from things that destructive. that is also part of covering aurah, have shame to Allah and protecting yourself. nowadays people wearing tudung but don't covered their behaviour. seriously i don't think there is part in Malaysia that people never see a woman with tudung. Come on, even Siti Nurhaliza wearing it, so saying that 'tudung thing is weird' is lame. The problem now is there is a woman wearing tudung but don't obey Allah's rules and regulation. that should be the real issue, girl.
6. commenting outfit again: seriously. please. i am begging you. i even have roomates and housemates who wears purdah. the things is purdah is not part of arab fashion. you say arabian night, desert...and you imagine a girl wearing purdah with beautiful eyes. nooooooo. i am here really respecting girl wearing purdah. because it show that they are forbiding themselves from behaves badly. it is like a triple protection, from human fitnah, from syaitan propaganda, and so many more. they make effort to protect their belief through the outfit. so please just dont ruin it, okay. stop wearing purdah and make an excessive eye make up because it's just same as revealing your face with heavy makeup like a club girl. it does attract man to have interest with us. then what's the point of wearing it?
7. i hate skinship. just stop making a scene with that thought okay. you dont simply fall in love just because your eyes met and you hug her accidently. that's so korean drama. stop okay. Allah as the Director of our life always protecting us. So dont simply become a selfish director creating a scene where a man and woman hug accidently and fall in love. if there's sinful thing at the first place, dont you think the relationship loose it barakah. ohh..just want to remind it goes same with the married couple. just dont share your 'bed story' okay. romantic can come in a cool way. Like what Noh Hujan did to Miss Nina ....writing romantic songs to her!! *ahah kau dah kenapa tiba-tiba
8. okay, i admit i dont fully read the whole story. but can i know who the hell infected with OCD disease? because i can't see anyone. so if there is only a little thing about ocd then you dont have to write 3 pages of information about it. seriously.
9. i am losing ideas to critic. so can we stop at number nine.
okay, i am a japan,taiwan,korean movie lover and i had watch many love scenes. but reading a book about my people (Malaysia, Muslim, Malay) doing the same thing as them it's really sad. stop giving preservatives to the reader.give lemon to us, so we can make lemonade. i'll explain this in my next entry. sorry for the long post. here a flower @@@@------------
Thursday, 29 October 2015
Becoming Makoto
Assalamualaikum.
Pertama sekali biar saya kenalkan siapa Makoto (a character in rich man poor woman drama)
Satu masa dulu, seorang gadis yg mewakili...i can say 60% of graduates that had to struggle just to get employed. We're talking about japan, where most graduates are intelligent but still struggle to get a job.
Sounds like me?
Well quite a bit, apart from the intelligent part (well she good at memorizing things).
I like that character bcoz it's soo suit my life now.
Err...wait. you have mention it b4 right?
Yup,but anyway the thing is i do have a job that are not seen as a job to some people. It is something that related to my interest actually, that is books!
For an introvert like me books is an incredible invention (hiperbola).
I like working with something that make my adrenaline rushes, the process of displaying book and the smell...
Ok i lie. That's not the point actually.
I just found the circumferens and the people are okay and comfort to work with. Although they are bickering each other at the back, but it is not as bad as the office politics that i see during my internship in government firm.
Yes, really scared that i think i have phobia against government office (hiperbola again).
Yes, at least makoto have a nice office job at Next Innovation (put a cherry on that fact is the coolest weirdest cutest boss tohru hyuga). But the thing is she is giving her best shot eventhough it is just an office job, even if it is not related to her course or passion. I want to be like that.
I had promised to myself that i dont want to be zombie just doing work because it is work. You know like the people working in KL, they are so unhuman. I want to do something that i like, or related to what i like. I love books, and writing stories. But i dont have enough experience or knowledge to become my real dream job that is writer. I just someone that always have a random thought about everything. Like a social networker posting on twitter.but instead i dont want all the random thought just be a thought you post on twitter, i want to make story of it. But i am incapable of doing that right now.
I know what i want, what i can do. I just dont know how. That's why i need the experience of becoming like a slave-worker to make me think about my life. I want to meet people, work with people, go travel to make me really matured enough to make decision.
Like kat straford said "why do i have to meet people expectation?"
I know i sounds like margo for rejecting the 'normal' cycle of life. I am rebelling in silent because i know that normal life just not happen to everyone. It might happen but in different way.
The world has proved many successful people abandoning their job to do what actually they want. Because at the end they know that doing something they dislike just make their life meaningless. The happiness is not on the job, it's on you. A beggar can sleep in smile rather than a corporate businessman just because he is appreciating his life in his own way.
People just can't stop expect. So stop trying to satisfy them.
Let satisfy Allah The Merciful instead. He know us too well than ourself.
Pertama sekali biar saya kenalkan siapa Makoto (a character in rich man poor woman drama)
Satu masa dulu, seorang gadis yg mewakili...i can say 60% of graduates that had to struggle just to get employed. We're talking about japan, where most graduates are intelligent but still struggle to get a job.
Sounds like me?
Well quite a bit, apart from the intelligent part (well she good at memorizing things).
I like that character bcoz it's soo suit my life now.
Err...wait. you have mention it b4 right?
Yup,but anyway the thing is i do have a job that are not seen as a job to some people. It is something that related to my interest actually, that is books!
For an introvert like me books is an incredible invention (hiperbola).
I like working with something that make my adrenaline rushes, the process of displaying book and the smell...
Ok i lie. That's not the point actually.
I just found the circumferens and the people are okay and comfort to work with. Although they are bickering each other at the back, but it is not as bad as the office politics that i see during my internship in government firm.
Yes, really scared that i think i have phobia against government office (hiperbola again).
Yes, at least makoto have a nice office job at Next Innovation (put a cherry on that fact is the coolest weirdest cutest boss tohru hyuga). But the thing is she is giving her best shot eventhough it is just an office job, even if it is not related to her course or passion. I want to be like that.
I had promised to myself that i dont want to be zombie just doing work because it is work. You know like the people working in KL, they are so unhuman. I want to do something that i like, or related to what i like. I love books, and writing stories. But i dont have enough experience or knowledge to become my real dream job that is writer. I just someone that always have a random thought about everything. Like a social networker posting on twitter.but instead i dont want all the random thought just be a thought you post on twitter, i want to make story of it. But i am incapable of doing that right now.
I know what i want, what i can do. I just dont know how. That's why i need the experience of becoming like a slave-worker to make me think about my life. I want to meet people, work with people, go travel to make me really matured enough to make decision.
Like kat straford said "why do i have to meet people expectation?"
I know i sounds like margo for rejecting the 'normal' cycle of life. I am rebelling in silent because i know that normal life just not happen to everyone. It might happen but in different way.
The world has proved many successful people abandoning their job to do what actually they want. Because at the end they know that doing something they dislike just make their life meaningless. The happiness is not on the job, it's on you. A beggar can sleep in smile rather than a corporate businessman just because he is appreciating his life in his own way.
People just can't stop expect. So stop trying to satisfy them.
Let satisfy Allah The Merciful instead. He know us too well than ourself.
Monday, 26 October 2015
Gadis kertas
Assalamualaikum.
1,2...
I love "Pekan2 Kertas"!!!
Wahahah
I seriously love the book version, eventhough my head always imagine like the movie version (*Quentin is soooo cute & margo is soooo margo)
Okay, ada part yg aku x brp nk fhm, tntg quote & metafora john green tntg hidup. But the end, Q ada mention kita kena berhati2 memberi metafora tntg hidup. Kita mungkin bkn tali, mungkin bkn rumput. Hidup kita ni terlalu unlimited (that's my intrepretation).
Aku suka margo dlm buku. Dia nmpk lebih 'normal' berbanding apa yg ditunjukkan dlm filem. Margo tak ada perancangan spt dlm movie. Pergi ke satu tempat asing & survive dlm tmpoh sebulan. Dia perempuan biasa, yg just nk lari dr realiti hidup. The fact that dia sgt sgt sgt terluka dgn perkara remeh mcm mslh remaja menunjukkan 'dia hanya seorg gadis'. Dia act like wild child, end up miserably tp ttp degil dgn cara hidup yg dia pilih.
Yeah, semua org dewasa akan berkata "she will learn a lesson".sbb tu dia rasa dia tak pth balik. Dia bkn sengaja nk kecewakan org2 yg syg dia. Dia... i can say that she is clueless. So lets time decide for her life doing what she love. Well walaupun hidup dlm pelarian bkn impiannya. Dia masih mencari.
Aku tak suka ending versi movie sbb mcm kwn baik dia Lacey just walk away without try to slow talk. Thank God dlm buku they ended well. Also with her family.
So, do you want to be the next margo?
Of course. But part of me is Quentin. I have to stick to the norm, to the realistic world. I cant live alone bcoz i love my family no matter how much my grudge and anger towards them. I cant live alone bcoz i had friends that had gone through high hell water .
Living in people expectation is really hell.
1,2...
I love "Pekan2 Kertas"!!!
Wahahah
I seriously love the book version, eventhough my head always imagine like the movie version (*Quentin is soooo cute & margo is soooo margo)
Okay, ada part yg aku x brp nk fhm, tntg quote & metafora john green tntg hidup. But the end, Q ada mention kita kena berhati2 memberi metafora tntg hidup. Kita mungkin bkn tali, mungkin bkn rumput. Hidup kita ni terlalu unlimited (that's my intrepretation).
Aku suka margo dlm buku. Dia nmpk lebih 'normal' berbanding apa yg ditunjukkan dlm filem. Margo tak ada perancangan spt dlm movie. Pergi ke satu tempat asing & survive dlm tmpoh sebulan. Dia perempuan biasa, yg just nk lari dr realiti hidup. The fact that dia sgt sgt sgt terluka dgn perkara remeh mcm mslh remaja menunjukkan 'dia hanya seorg gadis'. Dia act like wild child, end up miserably tp ttp degil dgn cara hidup yg dia pilih.
Yeah, semua org dewasa akan berkata "she will learn a lesson".sbb tu dia rasa dia tak pth balik. Dia bkn sengaja nk kecewakan org2 yg syg dia. Dia... i can say that she is clueless. So lets time decide for her life doing what she love. Well walaupun hidup dlm pelarian bkn impiannya. Dia masih mencari.
Aku tak suka ending versi movie sbb mcm kwn baik dia Lacey just walk away without try to slow talk. Thank God dlm buku they ended well. Also with her family.
So, do you want to be the next margo?
Of course. But part of me is Quentin. I have to stick to the norm, to the realistic world. I cant live alone bcoz i love my family no matter how much my grudge and anger towards them. I cant live alone bcoz i had friends that had gone through high hell water .
Living in people expectation is really hell.
Tuesday, 20 October 2015
the random talk
Assalamualaikum
Life and death.
I am just coming home from a funeral.
So one's life is taken away, leaving the people behind. His destiny has been decided. And ours? Yet to come.
Pray Al-Fatihah for they whom in the other world far from us. May we take their life journey as a lesson and to keep us remember who are we in this world.
Huh. Actually I want to talk about the recent drama that i watched. But maybe not today. Or at least i will not post it in nearly days.
Okay updating my life. So i decide to took vacation for a month in December. Oh my god, i'm really looking forward for my trip to Mecca. I should start study now or else i will become blur. Huh, i really want to go there, find myself and the answer about my life that maybe i can't get here in Malaysia. They said travelling people are the wisest people. Because they are aware of how little they are taking stroll in somewhere strange place all over the world. I want to start my dream traveling trip with Mecca. Pray to Allah He will ease my step.
Then, i got new car. Okay, it is actually a gift from my parent but i promised to be responsible of it (the monthly payment that takes 9 years to settle). Yes, a car for a small employee like me is like a big liability. Don't even mention about the teardrops fallen when i have to pay my education debt. Tsk tsk. Me old would never thought life would be this hard. I mean, i used to take easy on everything. I dont have plan for my life. I just doing what my friend do, following the norm and at last stranded in an abandon desert not knowing what to do. And right now i just take a stroll and wondering around searching for a signal. Well yes, the car will make your life go smoothly but seriously i am a simple minded, traditional type who prefer living in a countryside (like the village in Family Outing or Invincible Youth) that are far from modernization. Because i am tired of it.
Ahh..what i am talking about actually?
Okay, stop that melodrama story. Look at the bright side.
I naming the car Hyuga, because I think it is as difficult as the character Tohru Hyuga from Rich man Poor Man.
Haha. Okay I lied. I just really love that character so I put that name on my new awesome belonging. Well you know one of the weird thing university students (ladies precisely) is to name their stuff (well not only university student did that i think). It is a cute side of girl actually that WILL NOT be reveal to the guy because they just love being cute with their belonging. A senior of mine named her car with Leman, and there is Fatih, Serai, Kuda. A car to woman is like a man. We will never understand it but we will always take care of it. Haha that's so lame.
I used to name my mother car as Shinichi (Chiaki Shinichi from Nodame Cantabile), my first love. Like Shinichi (the character), that car also my first love. I just love it even though we really have many rough moment, that i think if it is a human, he will just yelling 'Bitch!' at me.
That's it the entry that randomly written due to my excitement about the new car. And my sadness about someone death. Someone may not be important to us, but we have to respect his/her family sadness over his/her leaving. When i think about it again, we may not having a marriage ceremony in our life, but we always have a funeral ceremony. The 100% fair thing in this world is death, so I will not going to complain about it. The world is just not ours, guys.
Life and death.
I am just coming home from a funeral.
So one's life is taken away, leaving the people behind. His destiny has been decided. And ours? Yet to come.
Pray Al-Fatihah for they whom in the other world far from us. May we take their life journey as a lesson and to keep us remember who are we in this world.
Huh. Actually I want to talk about the recent drama that i watched. But maybe not today. Or at least i will not post it in nearly days.
Okay updating my life. So i decide to took vacation for a month in December. Oh my god, i'm really looking forward for my trip to Mecca. I should start study now or else i will become blur. Huh, i really want to go there, find myself and the answer about my life that maybe i can't get here in Malaysia. They said travelling people are the wisest people. Because they are aware of how little they are taking stroll in somewhere strange place all over the world. I want to start my dream traveling trip with Mecca. Pray to Allah He will ease my step.
Then, i got new car. Okay, it is actually a gift from my parent but i promised to be responsible of it (the monthly payment that takes 9 years to settle). Yes, a car for a small employee like me is like a big liability. Don't even mention about the teardrops fallen when i have to pay my education debt. Tsk tsk. Me old would never thought life would be this hard. I mean, i used to take easy on everything. I dont have plan for my life. I just doing what my friend do, following the norm and at last stranded in an abandon desert not knowing what to do. And right now i just take a stroll and wondering around searching for a signal. Well yes, the car will make your life go smoothly but seriously i am a simple minded, traditional type who prefer living in a countryside (like the village in Family Outing or Invincible Youth) that are far from modernization. Because i am tired of it.
Ahh..what i am talking about actually?
Okay, stop that melodrama story. Look at the bright side.
I naming the car Hyuga, because I think it is as difficult as the character Tohru Hyuga from Rich man Poor Man.
Haha. Okay I lied. I just really love that character so I put that name on my new awesome belonging. Well you know one of the weird thing university students (ladies precisely) is to name their stuff (well not only university student did that i think). It is a cute side of girl actually that WILL NOT be reveal to the guy because they just love being cute with their belonging. A senior of mine named her car with Leman, and there is Fatih, Serai, Kuda. A car to woman is like a man. We will never understand it but we will always take care of it. Haha that's so lame.
I used to name my mother car as Shinichi (Chiaki Shinichi from Nodame Cantabile), my first love. Like Shinichi (the character), that car also my first love. I just love it even though we really have many rough moment, that i think if it is a human, he will just yelling 'Bitch!' at me.
That's it the entry that randomly written due to my excitement about the new car. And my sadness about someone death. Someone may not be important to us, but we have to respect his/her family sadness over his/her leaving. When i think about it again, we may not having a marriage ceremony in our life, but we always have a funeral ceremony. The 100% fair thing in this world is death, so I will not going to complain about it. The world is just not ours, guys.
Thursday, 17 September 2015
Encik mimpi yg tak rindu2 kanlah dirinya
Assalamualaikum.
Greetings to all.
So recently i got many weird dreams that driving me a bit crazy and annoying. Yeah,annoy of it's unrealistic plot and whatsoever.
But i think,no. After have a really deep thinking (pftt..) my encik mimpi is aome kind of defense mechanism to me.it create the worst situation that can happen to me and see how my reaction.
Like a personality test in Divergent (lol..).
Someone die, someone/something attack, lost and damn many more unrealistic tale (mr brainy is so complicated).
Yes, i used to dream of a vlogger that i admired proposed me & got excited about it for a week. Well i do want it to come true but logically it cant happen. Andue. Shiro. Nehi he. Hahah
Scientifically, there is no prove that when we dream someone it mean he/she will be destined for us (apart from after performing istiharah prayer). It just he or she is existed deep down in our memory, so mr brainy just connecting it to other memory. Like a memory about wedding ceremony. So yes, it is untrusted.
For some people, dream can be a guide to him/her.that's like an add value, a gift from God.
Ahh..feeling sleepy. Till then.
Encik mimpi dont be ridiculous. Ahh..zzzz
Greetings to all.
So recently i got many weird dreams that driving me a bit crazy and annoying. Yeah,annoy of it's unrealistic plot and whatsoever.
But i think,no. After have a really deep thinking (pftt..) my encik mimpi is aome kind of defense mechanism to me.it create the worst situation that can happen to me and see how my reaction.
Like a personality test in Divergent (lol..).
Someone die, someone/something attack, lost and damn many more unrealistic tale (mr brainy is so complicated).
Yes, i used to dream of a vlogger that i admired proposed me & got excited about it for a week. Well i do want it to come true but logically it cant happen. Andue. Shiro. Nehi he. Hahah
Scientifically, there is no prove that when we dream someone it mean he/she will be destined for us (apart from after performing istiharah prayer). It just he or she is existed deep down in our memory, so mr brainy just connecting it to other memory. Like a memory about wedding ceremony. So yes, it is untrusted.
For some people, dream can be a guide to him/her.that's like an add value, a gift from God.
Ahh..feeling sleepy. Till then.
Encik mimpi dont be ridiculous. Ahh..zzzz
Saturday, 12 September 2015
Change change change change change
Assalamualaikum
Greetings
I have a thought that changes happen in every seconds of our life. The blood density change, our skin getting older...yes God give us changes physically so why some of us just denied that they change?
Old buddies met after 5 years with 'adult' appearance and denied that he change. He admit that he still the old playful guy who always like to tease people.
You are changing,man. At least maybe your jokes are more matured. A girl break up with boyfriend that have change heart towards her.
Changing happen. We just have to adapt with it. I am maybe the same old quiet girl but does not mean i dont grow up. I am quiet but does not mean i cant give a good presentation.
Yes people, i changed. My attitude, my act, my appearance maybe. Also towards the people that know me, they knew i have changed. I change for better. Because i am not the same as 13 year old girl i used to be.
Dont ever denied the change,because that what is life about. You maybe be hurt by some people that have change but u maybe not realised you too have change. U just to adapt with it. Like what i am doing right now.
You should see my phone wallpaper to get the full picture what the lala is going on.
Am i turning into a pathetic girl who need to be sympathied?
Pftt...please change girl
Greetings
I have a thought that changes happen in every seconds of our life. The blood density change, our skin getting older...yes God give us changes physically so why some of us just denied that they change?
Old buddies met after 5 years with 'adult' appearance and denied that he change. He admit that he still the old playful guy who always like to tease people.
You are changing,man. At least maybe your jokes are more matured. A girl break up with boyfriend that have change heart towards her.
Changing happen. We just have to adapt with it. I am maybe the same old quiet girl but does not mean i dont grow up. I am quiet but does not mean i cant give a good presentation.
Yes people, i changed. My attitude, my act, my appearance maybe. Also towards the people that know me, they knew i have changed. I change for better. Because i am not the same as 13 year old girl i used to be.
Dont ever denied the change,because that what is life about. You maybe be hurt by some people that have change but u maybe not realised you too have change. U just to adapt with it. Like what i am doing right now.
You should see my phone wallpaper to get the full picture what the lala is going on.
Am i turning into a pathetic girl who need to be sympathied?
Pftt...please change girl
Thursday, 3 September 2015
the uncategorized genre
Assalamualaikum.
Greetings.
Well something struck my mind in 'bilik termenung' just now.
Quoting Safiah from AKN, while 'answering nature call' we can get brilliant ideas and punchline.
*i wonder if that happen to comedian in Maharaja Lawak Mega
Okay back to the scene.
When i was being interviewed for a job recently, the interviewer ask about my hobby. So when i am answering reading, she ask about my favourite book and genre.
I answer i just read all types of book, depending on the writer.
Then she insist of 'how come you dont have a genre of interest?'
Well, in my heart i just answer 'yes, i dont have that'.
But in my mouth i just answer 'well i like non fiction book'.
*i swear until now i regret my unknowledgement about the difference between fiction and non-fiction.
Okay lets not talk about the interview. It is full of twisted fact because at that time seriously i am a bit sleepy *nervous plus hungry
So maybe if anyone ask me again i would answer,
'i dont have genre of interest. i read all books. and it also depends on the writer'
yes, i would stick with the same answer but with a little more confidence.
reading all material does not show i am a bookworm that can tell facts from cover to cover of academic books during my school or university days . i read when i like it, and i did not even peek at it when i am not interested. so my like and interest is depend on how interesting the style of writing or what exactly the message in it. and that ladies and gentleman, depend on the writer.
I read Nurul Syahida novels, blog and would even excited to read her status in facebook but i dont read her teens novels.oh, because i am a broken, poor teenagers.
I read Ramlee Awang Murshid books because he is so into thriller and mystery but i can't read all his books because it's too many. i only borrowing his books from library and friends (repeating the facts that i am broken to buy all his books).
I read Hlovate novels but am not willing to read his quote books (because seriously you just can read it on her/his facebook account). same case. borrow.
I read Nadia Khan novels, but I only extract few point from her Gantung's novel.thank god i did not own that book or it will be nightmare if i read it again.
I read Shaz Johar just because he like to referring woman as slut (i resent, hate that kind of human fyi), but you just can't denied his point of view. also borrow.
I read Hamka Kereta Mayat because he's funny despite of being too much 'exposure'. And he's realistic and a bit religious.
So what genre do we have here?
Love stories? I can't take most of Alaf 21and Kaki Novel 's novels with twisted storyline and non-realistic fact. I found Imaen boring but i admire his idea and really like all his ranting about social issues or general knowledge. I found Ratu Bulan novels are so into Taiwanese drama and fairytale but i like her sense of humor and realistic storyline.
Thriller and mystery? I trust someone ( a writer) and buy his book just because it has good title and synopsis but once i read one chapter, i quickly read the final page. Failed! So just stick to RAM.
Science fiction? Well i only like (probably the only i read) is the book titled 'Ombak Sfera Lotus' that i read during my schooldays. The only science fiction book that i can read again and again.
Comedy romantic? No, non of the writer i listed above do comedy romantic even i love that genre (for movies especially). So i nominated Sophie Kinsella as the best writer for this kind of book. Yeah my english is not so good that i could only finish reading her novels (she is using simple, 'bahasa pasar' english fyi, that's why i can understand).
Not only book, i read poem. yes, i do adore some of the poem i learn from schools (english in literature subject i mean_well yes, don't be so arrogant because i got C during SPM). the poem about war Dulce et Decorum Est (that i think suit Saving Private Ryan movie_because that the only war movie that i dont feel pretentious).
I like Shakespeare story of Hamlet (or is it a play?) and the story behind poem Life Brief Candle. Oh, not forget the RAM in english novels, Roald Dahl.
So dear interviewer, i rest my case
In a nutshell ; "aku ni introvert jadi aku suka baca buku. dan aku hanya baca apa yang aku nak. dan kadang-kadang aku terpengaruh dengan orang untuk baca sesuatu buku. tapi aku ambil masa untuk baca buku yang aku tak biasa dengan gaya penulisannya atau penulisnya. aku hanya baca and beli sesuatu buku yang worth utk dibaca ulang-ulang, bukan that klise love story problem yang tak realistik. tapi kalau kau nampak aku baca maknanya aku tengah boring la tu"
me trying to understand my own judgemental. failed.
Greetings.
Well something struck my mind in 'bilik termenung' just now.
Quoting Safiah from AKN, while 'answering nature call' we can get brilliant ideas and punchline.
*i wonder if that happen to comedian in Maharaja Lawak Mega
Okay back to the scene.
When i was being interviewed for a job recently, the interviewer ask about my hobby. So when i am answering reading, she ask about my favourite book and genre.
I answer i just read all types of book, depending on the writer.
Then she insist of 'how come you dont have a genre of interest?'
Well, in my heart i just answer 'yes, i dont have that'.
But in my mouth i just answer 'well i like non fiction book'.
*i swear until now i regret my unknowledgement about the difference between fiction and non-fiction.
Okay lets not talk about the interview. It is full of twisted fact because at that time seriously i am a bit sleepy *nervous plus hungry
So maybe if anyone ask me again i would answer,
'i dont have genre of interest. i read all books. and it also depends on the writer'
yes, i would stick with the same answer but with a little more confidence.
reading all material does not show i am a bookworm that can tell facts from cover to cover of academic books during my school or university days . i read when i like it, and i did not even peek at it when i am not interested. so my like and interest is depend on how interesting the style of writing or what exactly the message in it. and that ladies and gentleman, depend on the writer.
I read Nurul Syahida novels, blog and would even excited to read her status in facebook but i dont read her teens novels.oh, because i am a broken, poor teenagers.
I read Ramlee Awang Murshid books because he is so into thriller and mystery but i can't read all his books because it's too many. i only borrowing his books from library and friends (repeating the facts that i am broken to buy all his books).
I read Hlovate novels but am not willing to read his quote books (because seriously you just can read it on her/his facebook account). same case. borrow.
I read Nadia Khan novels, but I only extract few point from her Gantung's novel.thank god i did not own that book or it will be nightmare if i read it again.
I read Shaz Johar just because he like to referring woman as slut (i resent, hate that kind of human fyi), but you just can't denied his point of view. also borrow.
I read Hamka Kereta Mayat because he's funny despite of being too much 'exposure'. And he's realistic and a bit religious.
So what genre do we have here?
Love stories? I can't take most of Alaf 21and Kaki Novel 's novels with twisted storyline and non-realistic fact. I found Imaen boring but i admire his idea and really like all his ranting about social issues or general knowledge. I found Ratu Bulan novels are so into Taiwanese drama and fairytale but i like her sense of humor and realistic storyline.
Thriller and mystery? I trust someone ( a writer) and buy his book just because it has good title and synopsis but once i read one chapter, i quickly read the final page. Failed! So just stick to RAM.
Science fiction? Well i only like (probably the only i read) is the book titled 'Ombak Sfera Lotus' that i read during my schooldays. The only science fiction book that i can read again and again.
Comedy romantic? No, non of the writer i listed above do comedy romantic even i love that genre (for movies especially). So i nominated Sophie Kinsella as the best writer for this kind of book. Yeah my english is not so good that i could only finish reading her novels (she is using simple, 'bahasa pasar' english fyi, that's why i can understand).
Not only book, i read poem. yes, i do adore some of the poem i learn from schools (english in literature subject i mean_well yes, don't be so arrogant because i got C during SPM). the poem about war Dulce et Decorum Est (that i think suit Saving Private Ryan movie_because that the only war movie that i dont feel pretentious).
I like Shakespeare story of Hamlet (or is it a play?) and the story behind poem Life Brief Candle. Oh, not forget the RAM in english novels, Roald Dahl.
So dear interviewer, i rest my case
In a nutshell ; "aku ni introvert jadi aku suka baca buku. dan aku hanya baca apa yang aku nak. dan kadang-kadang aku terpengaruh dengan orang untuk baca sesuatu buku. tapi aku ambil masa untuk baca buku yang aku tak biasa dengan gaya penulisannya atau penulisnya. aku hanya baca and beli sesuatu buku yang worth utk dibaca ulang-ulang, bukan that klise love story problem yang tak realistik. tapi kalau kau nampak aku baca maknanya aku tengah boring la tu"
me trying to understand my own judgemental. failed.
Tuesday, 18 August 2015
catch me if you can
Assalamualaikum.
Ya saya bercakap tentang sesuatu yang ada Leonardo Dicaprio di dalamnya.
Cerita benar tntg seorang penipu bernama Frank Abagnale yg baru berusia 16 tahun menyamar sebagai orang dewasa yang bekerjaya. Cikgu, juruterbang, doktor... mungkin banyak lagi kerjaya yang dia reka semata-mata nak melarikan diri dari realiti pahit hidup keluarganya.
Well apart from he being so handsome, cool and confidence i am admiring his survival skills. You know you will always get trouble but you know you can always escape and run away, right? What it takes to survive in this world is a confidence and be realistic. Don't live in a dream world where every Cinderella need to be saved by the prince who obsessed about one pair of glass shoes.
Okay, what's my motive of writing this post? Am I encouracing people to do fraud just to survive?
Well I am admiring his character for being and doing what he want. You want to be a pilot but don't dare to risk passengers life with your zero skills? Then buy a uniform, pretend to interview pilot people to get information, pretend to be the second pilot and wallah...fly to the sky. Grab every chance that you get. He is a kind of people that challenge the normal world we been living. You can get whatever you want in your own way. Quoting Violet from series of Unfortunate Event; "There always something in everything you have".
Jadi mungkin golongan muda marhaen seperti aku yang baru nak memulakan hidup dari bawah, melihat pada kejayaan hidup ramai orang dengan kerjaya hebat masing-masing, aku memang cemburu. Tapi manusia sentiasa cemburu pada kejayaan orang lain, tapi tak pernah sama-sama rasai kesakitan orang lain. Aku sentiasa mengeluh dengan hidup yang tak nampak bayang masa depan yang nyata. Melihat kepada orang-orang hebat yang ada di dunia ni, rahsia kejayaan mereka adalah dengan jadi diri sendiri dan percaya "There always something in everything you have". Walaupun akhirnya kau tak end up jadi billionaire kalahkan Bill Gates tapi mungkin Tuhan bagi kau kesihatan yang terbaik, orang sekeliling yang terbaik dan macam-macam lagi.
I will running towards my dreams
Because I believe in Allah
and make Him as my last destination
I will stumble, fall, tear apart and exhausted
but i will run, even with injured leg
and slow step
But I will not stop and stares
Just to let you catch me
oh..if only you can catch me *smirk
Ya saya bercakap tentang sesuatu yang ada Leonardo Dicaprio di dalamnya.
Well apart from he being so handsome, cool and confidence i am admiring his survival skills. You know you will always get trouble but you know you can always escape and run away, right? What it takes to survive in this world is a confidence and be realistic. Don't live in a dream world where every Cinderella need to be saved by the prince who obsessed about one pair of glass shoes.
Okay, what's my motive of writing this post? Am I encouracing people to do fraud just to survive?
Well I am admiring his character for being and doing what he want. You want to be a pilot but don't dare to risk passengers life with your zero skills? Then buy a uniform, pretend to interview pilot people to get information, pretend to be the second pilot and wallah...fly to the sky. Grab every chance that you get. He is a kind of people that challenge the normal world we been living. You can get whatever you want in your own way. Quoting Violet from series of Unfortunate Event; "There always something in everything you have".
Jadi mungkin golongan muda marhaen seperti aku yang baru nak memulakan hidup dari bawah, melihat pada kejayaan hidup ramai orang dengan kerjaya hebat masing-masing, aku memang cemburu. Tapi manusia sentiasa cemburu pada kejayaan orang lain, tapi tak pernah sama-sama rasai kesakitan orang lain. Aku sentiasa mengeluh dengan hidup yang tak nampak bayang masa depan yang nyata. Melihat kepada orang-orang hebat yang ada di dunia ni, rahsia kejayaan mereka adalah dengan jadi diri sendiri dan percaya "There always something in everything you have". Walaupun akhirnya kau tak end up jadi billionaire kalahkan Bill Gates tapi mungkin Tuhan bagi kau kesihatan yang terbaik, orang sekeliling yang terbaik dan macam-macam lagi.
I will running towards my dreams
Because I believe in Allah
and make Him as my last destination
I will stumble, fall, tear apart and exhausted
but i will run, even with injured leg
and slow step
But I will not stop and stares
Just to let you catch me
oh..if only you can catch me *smirk
Monday, 10 August 2015
Abang Beduk kick my heart
Assalamualaikum
so this raya i think i can be the creative director of astro, as i had watch almost all the variety show and films on the tv
#thecurseofreplication
So suddenly a telefilm 'Abang Beduk' just caught my eyes.
The story is about emm this one guy... Amir if i'm not mistaken who is a special child (well grown up special child). He seem to be have no future since he is not excel in academic and even don't have the ability to think straight like guy in his age. He is childish, obedient son and be like bff to his little sister.
So we will think how this one guy will survive in this tough world?
It begins with one girl that she admire. Forgot her name, lets call her Miss Sweety because she looks so sweet. Miss Sweety is just a barista at a cafe, but she seems to be the typical Perempuan Muslimah Terakhir which are soft spoken, caring and really obedient with her parents. She said to him to have ambition in life no matter how small it is. Well his ambition is to marry her. Hahaha. But he really think hard about her word.
Then he suddenly attracted to Pencetus Ummah reality program, especially with the role of 'Abang Beduk'. So he secretly inspire to be like 'Abang Beduk'. Then his mother, like typical mother, had decided his future to become singer through Akademi Fantasia. You know with good looks, an unique character and little talent in singing could probably provide a bright future for her son. And Amir's father also has decided something for him, he want him to become a body builder star. Yes, I love the idea of his parent still thinking about their children future eventhough he is a special edition child.
But Amir cannot accept both ideas, he still wants to be Abang Beduk. So he tell Miss Sweety about it and she help him to learn basic knowledge in Islam such as rukun Iman and rukun Islam. He is eagerly want to learn Islam so he found an old man at the surau to teach him solat and reading Quran. This is the thing that should be highlight because sometimes people get the wrong idea of woman inspire man to become good Muslim. She can only tell him the basic thing but it's up to him to learn the detail process to fulfill the rukun Islam and rukun Iman.
And the sad part is this Miss Sweety is slightly driving him to get the wrong idea about their relationship. Well who in the world would expect those time they spend together learning about Islam, the never ending support and motivation does'nt mean anything to the woman. She just want to help him and no hard feeling. Damn. That guy even had asked his parent to propose the girl (at the same day other guy's family chosen by her parent propose her). How heart broken urghhh!!
So he learn about sincerity to learn Islam. Amir parents force him to join Pencetus Ummah as they feel that could heal his broken heart and also as he is prepared to become Ustaz. But Amir decline. He want to be Abang Beduk, not the participant of PU. They had argument and at last his parent give up. Amir can be who he want to be. Teardrop~
The typical perception of Muslim in Malaysia is one should become Ustaz or Ustazah type to spread Islam. But a special guy like Amir is satisfy to be just a small part in a good Muslim program because he know his ability. We can be anybody to spread or help people to spread Islam. Eventhough a merely cameraman.
Guess what Amir's prize at the end?
Of course his Miss Sweety. For some reason she did not end up with her fiance that been chosen by her parent. Yeay! I mean oh well Allah know the best for His creation. Oh em gee..i swear they are really sweet together. See, you can have a really sweet couple with sweet ending without showing unappropriate touching scene. And don't forgot his sweety little sister that is super cute and brilliant. Hehe.
So, I am writing this entry to get some inspiration. Tomorrow gonna be my big day, the first day i will work. Whatever you are doing in this life, even just a small part but if the niat and the way is Lillahi Taala, in syaa Allah He will help. And don't worry if life seem unfair or giving you unfortunate choice. Just get know of yourself, do what you can do and never give up to spread Islam in every steps you take.
Fighting dear homo sapien!
so this raya i think i can be the creative director of astro, as i had watch almost all the variety show and films on the tv
#thecurseofreplication
So suddenly a telefilm 'Abang Beduk' just caught my eyes.
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| My mummy want me to be AF star and my papa want be to be like How Tough R U star but i really want to be 'Abang Beduk' |
The story is about emm this one guy... Amir if i'm not mistaken who is a special child (well grown up special child). He seem to be have no future since he is not excel in academic and even don't have the ability to think straight like guy in his age. He is childish, obedient son and be like bff to his little sister.
So we will think how this one guy will survive in this tough world?
It begins with one girl that she admire. Forgot her name, lets call her Miss Sweety because she looks so sweet. Miss Sweety is just a barista at a cafe, but she seems to be the typical Perempuan Muslimah Terakhir which are soft spoken, caring and really obedient with her parents. She said to him to have ambition in life no matter how small it is. Well his ambition is to marry her. Hahaha. But he really think hard about her word.
Then he suddenly attracted to Pencetus Ummah reality program, especially with the role of 'Abang Beduk'. So he secretly inspire to be like 'Abang Beduk'. Then his mother, like typical mother, had decided his future to become singer through Akademi Fantasia. You know with good looks, an unique character and little talent in singing could probably provide a bright future for her son. And Amir's father also has decided something for him, he want him to become a body builder star. Yes, I love the idea of his parent still thinking about their children future eventhough he is a special edition child.
But Amir cannot accept both ideas, he still wants to be Abang Beduk. So he tell Miss Sweety about it and she help him to learn basic knowledge in Islam such as rukun Iman and rukun Islam. He is eagerly want to learn Islam so he found an old man at the surau to teach him solat and reading Quran. This is the thing that should be highlight because sometimes people get the wrong idea of woman inspire man to become good Muslim. She can only tell him the basic thing but it's up to him to learn the detail process to fulfill the rukun Islam and rukun Iman.
And the sad part is this Miss Sweety is slightly driving him to get the wrong idea about their relationship. Well who in the world would expect those time they spend together learning about Islam, the never ending support and motivation does'nt mean anything to the woman. She just want to help him and no hard feeling. Damn. That guy even had asked his parent to propose the girl (at the same day other guy's family chosen by her parent propose her). How heart broken urghhh!!
So he learn about sincerity to learn Islam. Amir parents force him to join Pencetus Ummah as they feel that could heal his broken heart and also as he is prepared to become Ustaz. But Amir decline. He want to be Abang Beduk, not the participant of PU. They had argument and at last his parent give up. Amir can be who he want to be. Teardrop~
The typical perception of Muslim in Malaysia is one should become Ustaz or Ustazah type to spread Islam. But a special guy like Amir is satisfy to be just a small part in a good Muslim program because he know his ability. We can be anybody to spread or help people to spread Islam. Eventhough a merely cameraman.
Guess what Amir's prize at the end?
Of course his Miss Sweety. For some reason she did not end up with her fiance that been chosen by her parent. Yeay! I mean oh well Allah know the best for His creation. Oh em gee..i swear they are really sweet together. See, you can have a really sweet couple with sweet ending without showing unappropriate touching scene. And don't forgot his sweety little sister that is super cute and brilliant. Hehe.
So, I am writing this entry to get some inspiration. Tomorrow gonna be my big day, the first day i will work. Whatever you are doing in this life, even just a small part but if the niat and the way is Lillahi Taala, in syaa Allah He will help. And don't worry if life seem unfair or giving you unfortunate choice. Just get know of yourself, do what you can do and never give up to spread Islam in every steps you take.
Fighting dear homo sapien!
Thursday, 6 August 2015
What you want to do?
I watch a movie at channel Diva with title babysitting or something like that *forgot meh
One of the character say something about his college life.
"Most of students in the college is so pathetic, they play a lot without thinking about their future. But not me. I always know that i will inherent my father's business. I focus to that target"-said 2nd hero character.
"Well i think my college life is one of the best period of my life. I learn many things and met awesome people like my bestfriend"-said heroine character
"Yeah, although i seem carefree but college life had show me the path of life that i will take. I study engineer but i found that fixing unstable table in our homeroom are much interesting. So i decide to start making furniture"-said the hero 1 *not exactly but something like that.
There you go people. Some time people know what they want and they get it. Otherwise they dont get it and think about other thing that actually fated for them.
And some people just dont know what they want. They just clueless about their life. But a writer write to me that;
'Life will decide for you as time goes by. So just take every chance that you get'
Maybe you really clueless,you just dont know. It because you dont even take a step to seek for the answer, you are not looking outside your comfort shell or inside yourself. So first just take a first step by asking. Asking God for guideness,asking people who have experience in life.someone that you look up to.
As an introvert, i know how hard it is to actually talking to people. I always thought that i want to become someone that only had to work from home, infront of the computer like some kind of writer,editor or maybe hacker or computer geek. But i think the wisest people is a traveller. They go to places and meet people. We need to get experience so we learn life and stay strong when hardship come. It maybe bitter but it will heal you in the future.
So,hey you *talking to myself
just take a step forward. Pray to Allah swt for His guideness.Insyaallah all is well.
Saturday, 1 August 2015
tengok atas
Salam.
Hi there.
Well..how do i start?
Do you have someone or something that you always look up to when you have problem, you want to make decision or you just need an inspiration to move on? Well i have a lot. i mean if someone like Matluthfi make a video about how suck korean drama is maybe i will stop watching them immediately. *pftt adakah lelaki itu ada kuasa veto melebihi ayahanda dan bondaku
Well, i can say that, yes we must look up to our parents but naturally teenagers will tend to hear opinion from their friends or someone they admire. and for me that person should be my favourite writer,NS.
i grow up to be the cliche teenagers that read novels just because i love to dream. and novels in the 90's and early 2000 seems to be full of romantic scene of love couples, the mushy scene of gaduh gaduh manja skandal orang ketiga...which is i think really have no relation with my current or future life. i mean in my life i never met a classmate who has Tengku in his name, nor some guy that damn bastard rich and arrogant but actually sweet and romantic. No. Never in my dream also. so i start to write story that i want to read. story that i can relate with me or people around me. but yeah i am even not very good at it.
and one day i read a novel series in Remaja mags (that have Adam as it's cover, i go crazy with him in back days) . It's call soal hati.I only read 2 page and really like the character Zulaikha & Sufian (they just so cool and the writing style is so simple but interesting). i fall in love with that story after buying the novel and start to trust NS's work.
i grow up with her novel, from secondary school until now i had finish my degree studies. her novels are something that i can freely look up to when i have problem, when i stress and need distraction. i know maybe some of my friends could not understand that. and maybe some of them would say
"why don't you read book from a more decent writer like H,FS, HA or bla bla..to find inspiration. They are more islamic and good too"
well, feel free to read their book. everyone has their style. but if you asking me why i look up for NS is because i can relate myself with all of her work. she is one girl that have travel to many part of the world in various centuries through reading. and her work is like the summary of what she know and what she actually do or see in real life. in simple word, she's realistic.
the most interesting part of her is instead of creating a fb account for fan, she receive all her fan as friend. she be like something that everyone can look up to, close to us. maybe that the type of person i prefer to look up to instead of someone just bluffing in their book try to teach this and that without actually touch the reader in the real life.
to be truth, i try to read various of style and genre, i try to not be too judgemental or defending in one side. i read SJ's & NK's book just to know the uglinest of human nature, H's book to gain confidence to become good muslim, HJ's book to see the perspective of knowledgable teacher, PMJ's book to become an effective muslim, RB's book to experience a logical fantasy story and many more. i can tell you none of these writer are absolutely right in all their opinion but at least that would make me think and rationalize each of them.
well you know what they say
al-quran is always the right book as guidance. so regardless human creation, you should always look up to Allah first.
Hi there.
Well..how do i start?
Do you have someone or something that you always look up to when you have problem, you want to make decision or you just need an inspiration to move on? Well i have a lot. i mean if someone like Matluthfi make a video about how suck korean drama is maybe i will stop watching them immediately. *pftt adakah lelaki itu ada kuasa veto melebihi ayahanda dan bondaku
Well, i can say that, yes we must look up to our parents but naturally teenagers will tend to hear opinion from their friends or someone they admire. and for me that person should be my favourite writer,NS.
i grow up to be the cliche teenagers that read novels just because i love to dream. and novels in the 90's and early 2000 seems to be full of romantic scene of love couples, the mushy scene of gaduh gaduh manja skandal orang ketiga...which is i think really have no relation with my current or future life. i mean in my life i never met a classmate who has Tengku in his name, nor some guy that damn bastard rich and arrogant but actually sweet and romantic. No. Never in my dream also. so i start to write story that i want to read. story that i can relate with me or people around me. but yeah i am even not very good at it.
and one day i read a novel series in Remaja mags (that have Adam as it's cover, i go crazy with him in back days) . It's call soal hati.I only read 2 page and really like the character Zulaikha & Sufian (they just so cool and the writing style is so simple but interesting). i fall in love with that story after buying the novel and start to trust NS's work.
i grow up with her novel, from secondary school until now i had finish my degree studies. her novels are something that i can freely look up to when i have problem, when i stress and need distraction. i know maybe some of my friends could not understand that. and maybe some of them would say
"why don't you read book from a more decent writer like H,FS, HA or bla bla..to find inspiration. They are more islamic and good too"
well, feel free to read their book. everyone has their style. but if you asking me why i look up for NS is because i can relate myself with all of her work. she is one girl that have travel to many part of the world in various centuries through reading. and her work is like the summary of what she know and what she actually do or see in real life. in simple word, she's realistic.
the most interesting part of her is instead of creating a fb account for fan, she receive all her fan as friend. she be like something that everyone can look up to, close to us. maybe that the type of person i prefer to look up to instead of someone just bluffing in their book try to teach this and that without actually touch the reader in the real life.
to be truth, i try to read various of style and genre, i try to not be too judgemental or defending in one side. i read SJ's & NK's book just to know the uglinest of human nature, H's book to gain confidence to become good muslim, HJ's book to see the perspective of knowledgable teacher, PMJ's book to become an effective muslim, RB's book to experience a logical fantasy story and many more. i can tell you none of these writer are absolutely right in all their opinion but at least that would make me think and rationalize each of them.
well you know what they say
al-quran is always the right book as guidance. so regardless human creation, you should always look up to Allah first.
Friday, 31 July 2015
are you masked?
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| Yeah literally i am talking about this drama; Mask |
The protagonist, as always, rich man with self-complex and poor woman with strong and motivated character eventhough she living a hell. well i would say Soo Ae is naturally beauty. i mean yes, like the hero said (in the drama) "she is the woman with sad face and i just want to make her smile", that's really suit Soo Ae. She doesn't have to strain herself to get a sad face, which sometimes i am annoyed with woman trying to make pitiful face. Like duhh only you have life complication.
Jun Ji-Hoon also, the other one emotionless face that fit the character. we just don't know what he is thinking about. yeah the drama do show the cute side of his character but it doesn't bother me since i have passed the period of OMG HE IS SO DAMN COOL BUT CUTE in his 'Goong' drama. But i like him being emotionless, as he is saying 'yeah i dont trust you to smile or talk to you, people'.
Anddddddd...the antagonist characters cast by Yeon Jung-hoon and In-Young is my favourite devilish couple. Also actor Sung Chang-hoon as Bbul-te that be the assistant of the evil character Seok-Hoon. Yeah i only realised now that he's also the evil character from city hunter. aren't he so cool for being badass? haha
Yeah, Jung-Hoon is hardly smile in this drama, his character as Seok Hoon is calm and always get an evil thought really make that character shine. i mean until the last moment he never forget about his revenge and surrender to the police just because he's nowhere to go. Yeah, that happen after his wife died after revealing her sincere love,she is his true lover. But you know i have a doubt that she is alive and faking her death by the scene at the jail which Seok-Hoon reveals he will meet his wife when he's release. i don't know whether he means that they will meet in heaven or he know she didn't die yet.
Yeah, In-Young is truly my all favourite female antagonist. She has the look that will scared anyone, the stare and evil smirk that make you remember back the annoying school seniors that looks down on you or your haters. She has the capability of be a serious and annoyed character 24/7. But seriously all the acts that she did is because she being logical and realistic. She just want to protect people that she loved. i mean she hate Seu Ah because she's dating her husband and now want to be her sister in law. Only stupid person don't smell that fishy act, so she want to stop whatever they are planning by trapping her into a car accident. And also she does'nt want his step brother to get hurt. She maybe annoyed and seem ignorant, but she know what his brother feels about being an outcast. She doesn't care of owning the company like her mother did, she just want to love her husband, protect her family and having a child. Woman is just as simple as that guys.
Well, another character that would stand for Seok-Hoon is his assistant, Bbul-te or also known as Scar in DramaBean blog (i dont know if he actually called by that in this drama cause heck the unconsistent translation). He is as evil as Seok Hoon, his silence is his weapon. You just don't know him because no scene about his true character, motive, believe or whatsoever. He's just being there, assist Seok Hoon in evil plan. Until the last moment, he still loyal to Seok Hoon and help him to run away (with his own decision, not being order by Seok Hoon). I mean in that critical moment he can easily betray Seok Hoon or stay silent if he want to have a peaceful life but he did not. Nobody knows why, and even the writer does not think about him but that the interesting part of that character. He is a silencer that kills people without no reason, or maybe will not reveal his true reason. He just evil as he should be.
Well the truth is, everybody do wear a mask. But we just don't boastful about it. Otherwise we will become a pathetic person.
Thursday, 25 June 2015
Just to make my day
1. at least this is better than that 'strange' looks of hyun bin in 'me, jekyll & hyde. much funnier obviously.
* demmit this guy resembles childhood hero shinichi chiaki
*which i think a good news for me, for always have daydream and write about it. a little effort on imagination will produce gigantic success
i had a dream..
i had a dream about yesterday
i dont know if it's a daydream or a nightmare
the failures time i had been going through
and will facing it again and again
i am a paranoid
i fears of failure that i quit to trust myself
i seem confident just to hide my true feeling
i seem confident just to make other feel goods
the dream i had about yesterday
make me a coward
the girl that only facing trash of reality
in a bed of roses's torn
out out brief candles
let me end this period quickly
i hate myself for being so coward
but i am much hurt if i put hope too high
all is well.
because it will end.
#presentation industrial training
June 2015
i dont know if it's a daydream or a nightmare
the failures time i had been going through
and will facing it again and again
i am a paranoid
i fears of failure that i quit to trust myself
i seem confident just to hide my true feeling
i seem confident just to make other feel goods
the dream i had about yesterday
make me a coward
the girl that only facing trash of reality
in a bed of roses's torn
out out brief candles
let me end this period quickly
i hate myself for being so coward
but i am much hurt if i put hope too high
all is well.
because it will end.
#presentation industrial training
June 2015
Sunday, 29 March 2015
fears and frustration
how pain it is to live in your own world?
Surrounded by fear and frustration,
of betrayal and ignorance that fuck you off
the wonderwall ,oasis call it , that keep you from pain but also from happiness
scientifically it's just a protection mechanism
dont judge me , give me chance
eventhough an introvert will keep being one but aint no reason to hurt people
family..friends...i do love you that i think my present is unnessary
i am just living to keep a balance in ecosystem
dying and begging for The Almighty's love and bless to keep breath in this world
but i haven't yet be the good muslim
so why react like some brat spoil kid bitching other people
wake up farhana
Surrounded by fear and frustration,
of betrayal and ignorance that fuck you off
the wonderwall ,oasis call it , that keep you from pain but also from happiness
scientifically it's just a protection mechanism
dont judge me , give me chance
eventhough an introvert will keep being one but aint no reason to hurt people
family..friends...i do love you that i think my present is unnessary
i am just living to keep a balance in ecosystem
dying and begging for The Almighty's love and bless to keep breath in this world
but i haven't yet be the good muslim
so why react like some brat spoil kid bitching other people
wake up farhana
Friday, 6 March 2015
of rants and the grow up letter
All I know is we said hello
Your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is he held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
Your eyes look like coming home
All I know is a simple name, everything has changed
All I know is he held the door
You'll be mine and I'll be yours
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
All I know is we said hello
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain
And everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days, I'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
So dust off your highest hopes
All I know is pouring rain
And everything has changed
All I know is a new found grace
All my days, I'll know your face
All I know since yesterday is everything has changed
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