Assalamualaikum
Kehadapan kepada kalian, insan yang aku tujukan surat ini
Moga kalian dalam keadaan sihat sejahtera sentiasa
Pertama sekali aku ingin memohon maad atas kekhilafanku
Maaf jika ada perkataan dalam surat ini yang akan menyinggung kalian
Sesungguhnya tujuan surat ini ditulis bukan mengundang sengketa
Tetapi lebih kepada meluah rasa
Itupun jikalau kalian sudi membacanya
Aku takkan utuskan surat ini terus ke alamat kalian
Tetapi lebih elok jika aku paparkan disini
Aku takut untuk memenuhkan peti surat kalian dengan surat yang tidak penting seperti ini
Jika kalian terbaca surat ini, maka kalian benar-benar ambil tahu tentang diriku dan berhak untuk mengetahui isi hatiku
Tetapi jika tidak, aku anggap kalian masih tidak mengenaliku
Cukup mukadimah
Kalian semua...aku tahu kesedihan dan kepedihan di hatiku akibat tindakan kalian adalah petanda aku sayangkan kalian dan begitu juga sebaliknya
Kerana jika orang asing yang menyakitiku, aku boleh melupakannya barang sehari dua
Tapi kerana sayang kalian itulah yang kadangkala menyebabkan aku jadi nanar
Aku disini kerana kalian
Kerana kalian telah banyak berjasa dalam hidupku
Aku bukan mahu mengungkit walaupun itulah yang sering aku bicarakan pada diriku sendiri
Tetapi selama hidup aku 26 tahun ini, kalian adalah pengaruh utama dalam setiap keputusan yang aku buat dalam hidup
Aku beruntung dapat mengenali kalian dan hidup selama 26 tahun bersama kalian
Aku gembira jika dapat menggembirakan kalian
Cuma sejak akhir-akhir ini, mungkin kasih sayang antara kita diuji oleh Tuhan
Beberapa keputusan yang aku buat pada masa lalu, yang pada ketika itu tidak kalian bantah, diungkit kembali
Aku jadi bersalah seolah apa yang terjadi adalah salah aku
Kerana aku terlalu naif, terlalu tidak matang
Aku akui, aku manusia yang seperti itu
Aku tidak pernah merasa kesusahan dari kecil, terima kasih kepada kalian
Hidup aku sempurna jika dibandingkan dengan beberapa rakan sebaya ku
Kerana itu aku tidak meminta banyak
Aku hanya mahu kalian memahami ku sekurang-kurangnya sebagai seorang manusia
Aku punya hati, punya kehendak sendiri dan punya impian sendiri yang tidak pernah kalian tanyakan kepadaku
Sekalipun tidak pernah, aku takkan salahkan kalian kerana aku juga tidak sebegitu mendalam mengenali kalian
Hubungan kita hanya sekadar mengikut protokol pada kebanyakan masa
Yang aku fikir itulah sebab mengapa aku selalu memilih jalan selamat dalam setiap perhubungan yang lain
Mungkin aku yang harus belajar merendahkan harapan aku pada kalian
Supaya kalian juga berbuat yang demikian
Kerana sungguh, kalian hanya akan menambah ketebalan tembok yang aku bina di sekelilingku
Aku takkan dapat memenuhi harapan kalian
Aku minta maaf
Aku tak tahu untuk menjadi yang lain selain diriku
Aku tak tahu untuk menjadi sesuatu yang normal seperti rakan sebayaku yang lain
Maafkan aku kerana itu
Kerana....setiap insan ada rahsia mereka
Rahsia diriku mungkin akan dibawa sampai ke mati jika kita masih begini
Aku tidak boleh menjadi seperti 'itu'
Aku tak mampu menjadi seperti 'itu'
Kerana aku telah menemui sesuatu yang membawaku jauh dari sebuah kehidupan normal
Ia kedengaran satu hiperbola
Tetapi ketahuilah aku hidup bukan untuk diriku seorang
Bukan untuk kalian atau orang disekelilingku
Aku hidup untuk menyaksikan ummah merealisasikan ustaziatul alam
Bila kita merancang untuk melakukan segalanya tetapi sebenarnya kita tidak melakukan apa-apa
Itulah aku
Aku akui tiada apa yang aku lakukan untuk merealisasikan impianku
Tapi cukup untuk aku faham yang aku tidak boleh hidup seperti yang kalian mahukan
Punya kerjaya gah, berkeluarga bahagia
Aku tidak boleh
kerana dalam diri ini sudah terpahat nama seorang insan dan sesuatu yang melangkau segala yang didunia ini
Aku sudah ber'janji' untuk memberi sepenuh ragaku kepada mereka
Maka, aku masih dalam perjalanan mencari jalan kearah itu
Saat ini aku rasakan aku tidak mahu satu pun didunia ini untuk diriku
Aku masih bertatih mencari jalan hidupku, jauh dari seperti yang kalian mahukan
Untuk itu, berilah aku peluang
Beri aku peluang untuk membuat keputusan sendiri
Supaya diakhir waktu aku tidak akan menyalahkan sesiapa walaupun diriku sendiri
Berilah peluang untuk aku matang dengan cara hidup yang aku pilih
Aku masih belum membukakan hatiku sepenuhnya pada kalian kerana kekecewaan masa laluku
Aku tak mahu diriku dipersalahkan lagi atas keputusan yang aku buat
Aku tak mahu kalian meranapkan kepercayaan aku sekali lagi
Jadi berilah aku peluang
Maafkan aku atas keterlanjuran kata
Terima kasih atas segalanya
Yours truly,
D.
Sunday, 10 December 2017
Sunday, 3 December 2017
Dari Malaysia ke negeri China singgah di Turki II
Skip the greetings.
Negative review of Kara Sevda
1. The cultural shock
Basically, I know that Turki had change from the traditional Islam country to a ... emm how I can say it... a really upside down image of Islam country. I know Sultan Al Fatih accomplished the Prophet vision to rule the world with Islam at Constantinople but I also aware how Kamal Antartuk destroy all of it. I don't expect much to see the Islam value in their drama as most of our drama also not representing the true Islam.
But it is kind of awkward to see someone that portrays as the hero, the good son of his parent, the protectors of his family and the man who stand for people justice to do improper act with a married woman. I am saying this because from the beginning everyone in his family is proud for him as the successful, full of dignity and values, with no flaws at all. His mother had once told him to protect their family dignity by stop the improper relationship with a married woman. But still, there are some scene that makes me wonder why anyone don't judge his wrongdoings and justifies it by saying it is an act of love. At first I really respect both Nihan and Kemal character, but eventually they are not as good as I thought. It is not really a pure love if you don't know to read between the lines.
Love is love but your responsibility in marriage is the first priority. Yes, your husband is cruel as syaitan nirojim but still you can't be a slut who give her virginity to someone other than your husband. Ok, it is a spoiler but Nihan and Kemal really had a child before they marriage to each other. There also a scene where they escape to some place like they are having a honeymoon.
I mean god grieve, girl! You are once be the girl who full of pride that stand for yourself in front of your cruel husband. But you destroy all that pride by giving up your dignity to your so called true lover. Love is love, but no need to go that far.
I bet many of conservative girl like me would feel cultural shock watching this drama. You said 'assalamualaikum' to each other, always say good words 'masyaallah' 'alhamdulillah' 'insyaallah'
'wallah wallah' even in bad time (seldomly curse) but still don't understand the real meaning of your religion that forbid alcohol, not covering aurah, zina and other thing. You caged your daughter from being too sociable but never say anything when she audition for a models wearing tight outfit. You are worrying about the neighbours talk when your daughter had a rush marriage but not aware of both of your son doing zina before marriage. You are potraying as a good man from the beginning (prefer marriage over dating) but make him a drunkard when hard time come (and people never question it).
I was mind blown by the cultural shock i found in this drama. Maybe because if mentioning about Istanbul, Malaysian people only know about Haye Sofya, Marmara tragedy, how Erdogan accept Rohingya people with open hand.... all the good stuff that represent Islam. But they don't really aware of what Kamal Antartuk done to that country that changes their people perception about the true Islam. All of the characters I believe is Islam but not practicing it.
Hmmm.. seem like someone feeling piss off. Of course I am. We in Malaysia also like that. Look at our movie and drama, is it representing Islam? I think both of the country is at the same level and situation but we much better in pretence.
Hahaha.
Sentap.
Ok, next drama 'I belonged to you' (made in China)
Negative review of Kara Sevda
1. The cultural shock
Basically, I know that Turki had change from the traditional Islam country to a ... emm how I can say it... a really upside down image of Islam country. I know Sultan Al Fatih accomplished the Prophet vision to rule the world with Islam at Constantinople but I also aware how Kamal Antartuk destroy all of it. I don't expect much to see the Islam value in their drama as most of our drama also not representing the true Islam.
But it is kind of awkward to see someone that portrays as the hero, the good son of his parent, the protectors of his family and the man who stand for people justice to do improper act with a married woman. I am saying this because from the beginning everyone in his family is proud for him as the successful, full of dignity and values, with no flaws at all. His mother had once told him to protect their family dignity by stop the improper relationship with a married woman. But still, there are some scene that makes me wonder why anyone don't judge his wrongdoings and justifies it by saying it is an act of love. At first I really respect both Nihan and Kemal character, but eventually they are not as good as I thought. It is not really a pure love if you don't know to read between the lines.
Love is love but your responsibility in marriage is the first priority. Yes, your husband is cruel as syaitan nirojim but still you can't be a slut who give her virginity to someone other than your husband. Ok, it is a spoiler but Nihan and Kemal really had a child before they marriage to each other. There also a scene where they escape to some place like they are having a honeymoon.
I mean god grieve, girl! You are once be the girl who full of pride that stand for yourself in front of your cruel husband. But you destroy all that pride by giving up your dignity to your so called true lover. Love is love, but no need to go that far.
I bet many of conservative girl like me would feel cultural shock watching this drama. You said 'assalamualaikum' to each other, always say good words 'masyaallah' 'alhamdulillah' 'insyaallah'
'wallah wallah' even in bad time (seldomly curse) but still don't understand the real meaning of your religion that forbid alcohol, not covering aurah, zina and other thing. You caged your daughter from being too sociable but never say anything when she audition for a models wearing tight outfit. You are worrying about the neighbours talk when your daughter had a rush marriage but not aware of both of your son doing zina before marriage. You are potraying as a good man from the beginning (prefer marriage over dating) but make him a drunkard when hard time come (and people never question it).
I was mind blown by the cultural shock i found in this drama. Maybe because if mentioning about Istanbul, Malaysian people only know about Haye Sofya, Marmara tragedy, how Erdogan accept Rohingya people with open hand.... all the good stuff that represent Islam. But they don't really aware of what Kamal Antartuk done to that country that changes their people perception about the true Islam. All of the characters I believe is Islam but not practicing it.
Hmmm.. seem like someone feeling piss off. Of course I am. We in Malaysia also like that. Look at our movie and drama, is it representing Islam? I think both of the country is at the same level and situation but we much better in pretence.
Hahaha.
Sentap.
Ok, next drama 'I belonged to you' (made in China)
Dari Malaysia ke negeri China singgah di Turki
Assalamualaikum. Greetings.
No, I am not travelling to those places. I am too poor to do it.
Well at first, as I said in my previous entry I am watching a Malay drama (Love Bridge) but unfortunately I got annoyed and stop to watch. Then I am craving for another drama, lucky to get know about Love Me if You Dare drama (made in China). Actually I am kinda lazy to watch detective story other than Sherlock(this is because of Benedict) and Hello Monster (this one because of Park Bogum). So yeah I give it a try anyway because the drama seem to beautifully capture all the scenes. Plus the main casts seems compatible and interesting.
As I said, I am lazy. So I save it for later. Move on!
Then I encounter with Kara Sevda, a drama from Turki. God grieve, I am really going to international drama maniac. The titles means endless love btw.
Positive review first.
1. The plot and character
I can assure you the story is really great. It begins as other drama cliche, a love between the rich and the poor. The heroine, Nihan is a free spirit rich girl who get interested with a common man she met on the bus. So who cares about the social status, she just find him as a comfortable companion so they become friend and lovers. I swear much of the drama or movies i watch always have cringe, cliche dialogue when it comes to knowing their potential lover (which is annoying and don't make sense). But these two character is so chill but sweet at the same time. Nihan with her straight forward and bold character and Kemal with his upright, decent but charming character.
But something comes up that force this girl to marry the antagonist Emir and destroy their love. Hell no. For me, it is an end to a relationship when you have to marry to someone else. So yes, unless she poison her husband, it will be so hard to be divorced and be with man she love. Both of them seem to give up to each other after five years but fate seem play a game with their life. It takes time for them really to stop hating each other and found a common ground that is their love.
Yes, it is like a forbidden love. But I know both of them know their limit. They are just love spending time chatting, bickering and planning strategy to solve the mess made by Emir that disrupt their live and their family.
I swear all over again kudos given to other supporting actors that really doing their job very well. Their acting is much better than the Hollywood, and Korean maybe. Well I am not majored in acting or film but as an audience, I can tell that these people is not acting but living their life as usual. I love how Zeynep, the ordinary sister character become the core person creating issues and conflict in her brother life. I love how Tufan, the obedient secretary making twist in the story. I love the realistic and optimistic Leyla that seem able to read everyone mind and heart in a cool way.
There are many character that really actually make the story realistic and interesting so yeah, I dont mind if Turki want to remake any Korean drama ( I heard rumors...or is it actually had happened?)
2. This drama really captivates the real differences between craziness and true love. Left aside true love between Nihan and Kemal, I am not into it very much because of some reason (read on my negative part review). So we skip to craziness of Emir towards Nihan.
Sometimes I always wondered about is Emir really can prove his love towards Nihan is genuine. Watching him doing mess with people around him I feel like want to give a love advice; "Bro, you really don't have a clue about what every woman needs, do you? You are only throw tantrum at that girl because she don't love you back like a spoiled child". But with his consistent evil and cruel action till the end, I give up on him to be just once a good husband and lover to Nihan. Oh, except the last scene on the last episode where she lead her step to avoid bomb. Oh (again) that effort seem uselss since he don't repent all his bad deeds to her and Kemal. This drama writer really caught me red handed for really wanting the usual 'bad guy turn good' storyline.
So.. wait for the part two.
Bye
No, I am not travelling to those places. I am too poor to do it.
Well at first, as I said in my previous entry I am watching a Malay drama (Love Bridge) but unfortunately I got annoyed and stop to watch. Then I am craving for another drama, lucky to get know about Love Me if You Dare drama (made in China). Actually I am kinda lazy to watch detective story other than Sherlock(this is because of Benedict) and Hello Monster (this one because of Park Bogum). So yeah I give it a try anyway because the drama seem to beautifully capture all the scenes. Plus the main casts seems compatible and interesting.
As I said, I am lazy. So I save it for later. Move on!
Then I encounter with Kara Sevda, a drama from Turki. God grieve, I am really going to international drama maniac. The titles means endless love btw.
Positive review first.
1. The plot and character
I can assure you the story is really great. It begins as other drama cliche, a love between the rich and the poor. The heroine, Nihan is a free spirit rich girl who get interested with a common man she met on the bus. So who cares about the social status, she just find him as a comfortable companion so they become friend and lovers. I swear much of the drama or movies i watch always have cringe, cliche dialogue when it comes to knowing their potential lover (which is annoying and don't make sense). But these two character is so chill but sweet at the same time. Nihan with her straight forward and bold character and Kemal with his upright, decent but charming character.
But something comes up that force this girl to marry the antagonist Emir and destroy their love. Hell no. For me, it is an end to a relationship when you have to marry to someone else. So yes, unless she poison her husband, it will be so hard to be divorced and be with man she love. Both of them seem to give up to each other after five years but fate seem play a game with their life. It takes time for them really to stop hating each other and found a common ground that is their love.
Yes, it is like a forbidden love. But I know both of them know their limit. They are just love spending time chatting, bickering and planning strategy to solve the mess made by Emir that disrupt their live and their family.
I swear all over again kudos given to other supporting actors that really doing their job very well. Their acting is much better than the Hollywood, and Korean maybe. Well I am not majored in acting or film but as an audience, I can tell that these people is not acting but living their life as usual. I love how Zeynep, the ordinary sister character become the core person creating issues and conflict in her brother life. I love how Tufan, the obedient secretary making twist in the story. I love the realistic and optimistic Leyla that seem able to read everyone mind and heart in a cool way.
There are many character that really actually make the story realistic and interesting so yeah, I dont mind if Turki want to remake any Korean drama ( I heard rumors...or is it actually had happened?)
2. This drama really captivates the real differences between craziness and true love. Left aside true love between Nihan and Kemal, I am not into it very much because of some reason (read on my negative part review). So we skip to craziness of Emir towards Nihan.
Sometimes I always wondered about is Emir really can prove his love towards Nihan is genuine. Watching him doing mess with people around him I feel like want to give a love advice; "Bro, you really don't have a clue about what every woman needs, do you? You are only throw tantrum at that girl because she don't love you back like a spoiled child". But with his consistent evil and cruel action till the end, I give up on him to be just once a good husband and lover to Nihan. Oh, except the last scene on the last episode where she lead her step to avoid bomb. Oh (again) that effort seem uselss since he don't repent all his bad deeds to her and Kemal. This drama writer really caught me red handed for really wanting the usual 'bad guy turn good' storyline.
So.. wait for the part two.
Bye
Monday, 20 November 2017
TC
in English TC is Love's Bridge. i don't want people to find my blog if i write the actual title.
god, aku tak sangka aku blh tgk cerita ni. as always, my curiosity take control. i am just trying to understand why people go crazy about this story.
as always (again), i am going to comment some of the things that related to the drama. oh fyi, i only watch the important scene so i did cut out all the unnecessary thing and characters.
1. domestic violence
i think i mention this before on my previous review of a drama. i really don't like the issue of domestic violence been coated with 'candy-fairytale' story. i mean yes people can change and repent. everybody make mistake and deserve an apology if they really meant it.
the conflict at the beginning (where all the chaos started) seem to explain and show just in a brief one episode. they don't even show the photo that make Harris get angry at Aisyah (sorry if i missed that moment but yes i didn't see it). then he got really angry, throw out his wife at the street (well to be precise only at their house's gate) and make Aisyah miscarriage (and other health side effect).
maybe i am feminist that i really cannot forgive this kind of treatment. if you love someone, i dont expect you to pampered her with love and comfort. but i do believe at least you must respect the person that you love. misunderstand is normal in any relationship but the guy who first make a war in their relationship. he dont believe her, dont respect her for just a merely unrecognised proof.
*bloopers: god this rayyan voices is like Yu Un (matluthfi's chinese friend in Ninja video). but with a lot of annoyance.
*fyi i am writing this entry while listening to video of this drama. that's how uninteresting it is to me.
domestic violence is a serious matter. so dear writer can you please give a solution to that matter rather than giving up to fantasy fairytale? what if we take out the rich part of the hero character? what if the hero is really a cruel psycho (like jennifer lopez's husband in her movie; 'Enough')? what if the heroine really got nothing (high education or good career) to support her after the tragedy? who is she need to seek for support? what if she really poor and cannot do anything to fight for her justice?
i think as a writer you have to think the worst case, you have to wear both white and black hat to make a good judgement on the next plot of the story. yes this is dramaland where people want an escapism from the reality but still, you have to be realistic and relevant.
okay enough rambling. what is your point?
this drama is a pretence that don't solve the issue of domestic violence.
2. i hate sweet talker with 'pretending-husky' voice like zul ariffin. okay, his voice is naturally husky but stop overdo it. sorry, your charm is so not cool. i miss beto khusyairy and faizal tahir. and noh hujan. *if you ask they are the coolest real husband and celebrity
*bloopers: barren is really a sensitive issue. so stop being an annoyance dear mother in law. seriously.
3. i don't have any reason to stay watch it. seriously. oh, apart from i am really mesmerised from fatin nabilah's beauty.
urghh i should stop watching it.
bye!
god, aku tak sangka aku blh tgk cerita ni. as always, my curiosity take control. i am just trying to understand why people go crazy about this story.
as always (again), i am going to comment some of the things that related to the drama. oh fyi, i only watch the important scene so i did cut out all the unnecessary thing and characters.
1. domestic violence
i think i mention this before on my previous review of a drama. i really don't like the issue of domestic violence been coated with 'candy-fairytale' story. i mean yes people can change and repent. everybody make mistake and deserve an apology if they really meant it.
the conflict at the beginning (where all the chaos started) seem to explain and show just in a brief one episode. they don't even show the photo that make Harris get angry at Aisyah (sorry if i missed that moment but yes i didn't see it). then he got really angry, throw out his wife at the street (well to be precise only at their house's gate) and make Aisyah miscarriage (and other health side effect).
maybe i am feminist that i really cannot forgive this kind of treatment. if you love someone, i dont expect you to pampered her with love and comfort. but i do believe at least you must respect the person that you love. misunderstand is normal in any relationship but the guy who first make a war in their relationship. he dont believe her, dont respect her for just a merely unrecognised proof.
*bloopers: god this rayyan voices is like Yu Un (matluthfi's chinese friend in Ninja video). but with a lot of annoyance.
*fyi i am writing this entry while listening to video of this drama. that's how uninteresting it is to me.
domestic violence is a serious matter. so dear writer can you please give a solution to that matter rather than giving up to fantasy fairytale? what if we take out the rich part of the hero character? what if the hero is really a cruel psycho (like jennifer lopez's husband in her movie; 'Enough')? what if the heroine really got nothing (high education or good career) to support her after the tragedy? who is she need to seek for support? what if she really poor and cannot do anything to fight for her justice?
i think as a writer you have to think the worst case, you have to wear both white and black hat to make a good judgement on the next plot of the story. yes this is dramaland where people want an escapism from the reality but still, you have to be realistic and relevant.
okay enough rambling. what is your point?
this drama is a pretence that don't solve the issue of domestic violence.
2. i hate sweet talker with 'pretending-husky' voice like zul ariffin. okay, his voice is naturally husky but stop overdo it. sorry, your charm is so not cool. i miss beto khusyairy and faizal tahir. and noh hujan. *if you ask they are the coolest real husband and celebrity
*bloopers: barren is really a sensitive issue. so stop being an annoyance dear mother in law. seriously.
3. i don't have any reason to stay watch it. seriously. oh, apart from i am really mesmerised from fatin nabilah's beauty.
urghh i should stop watching it.
bye!
Saturday, 11 November 2017
of this and that
here some issues that got my attention today
1. SPM
watched vioe of thinker studio about spm and stuff. i like one statement that come from a beautiful mc
'yes, i just got 2A. actually i intentionally do that. before spm, i already decide to enter uitm so i check out the qualification to enter mascom. so i study only to pass that qualification. why bother study many thing if you already know what you want. i want to be in entertainment biz so i wont bother about math, add math and stuff'
ok the last statement is actually a short form from her long conversation.
i think she is truly right. why i dont even think like that before this. why youtube is not exist when i am taking spm (ehem actually my home internet is quit low in connection at that time) so i can get many wisdom words from matluthfi and other youtubers. CAPITAL WHYYY?
ahah.no need to be drama. i actually think there is a weakness in education system at that time. to be specific, i just think that my school environment are filled with students want to achieve straight A's, getting A in curriculum, be on news, make teacher proud and stuff. well they said it is the best school in town and sometime i do feel proud. but i always think ' so what will happen to students like me who never in dreams will achieve that straight a's target?'. to be realistic no matter how motivate and hardworking you are if it is not your rezeki then it will not happen.
i tell you i am doing everything that a nerd students would do. i seldom stay at library to study (and sleep), i watch amalina che bakri's video for inspirational (before she stop being innocent), i burn the midnight oil (and fell sleep at the most time of course), making cute notes and more. but i only achieved half of the target.
that's my fate. become the plain person who record no achievement on school board. next stage, university. when choosing university and course, i have a low self esteem so i choose uitm (excuse me hanis zalikha and yuna also go there so no need to feel shame). then for the course, i only choose the one related to math because i am quit confident in it (i am not excellent in add math but i love to find the way to solve it).
ambition?
i'll think about it later. maybe after graduate (five years after graduate i still dont know my ambition)
but i know what i love.
i love to read and write. i love to imagine things from scratch. i love to make a philosophy and have a deep thinking even with simple matter. i love to help people and soothen their worries.
i am not really interested in gaining a lot of money (even though i realllllllly need it right now). i want to be happy and grateful with whatever i have. i dont want to be saved, but i always want to be a saviour.
i really not interested to get things sell. but i really glad if i can give someone a helping hand. i am more into service lady.
but the world is already full with extrovert person making huge achievement and leaving this shy introvert girl far behind. i lost but i just stick to the things that make me happy. my family, books, my sacred laptop and friends. but i know i cant be this comfortable forever. i must push myself. it just.....like katy perry said ;
'you say move on where do i go' (*i did mention this statement before, right?)
it's mean i have no place for me in this world, taylor.
hey, btw hear this philosophy. god, i really love dahlia sazlan (thinker studio. she the one i talk about at the beginning) for her interesting thought.
'i would not like a man who try to woo me by treating me extra-well (ex; pulling chair, taking food for you, singing lullaby). what if he dont like me, would he do the same thing? a manner and feeling is a very different thing guys. you must treat all woman kindly (yes, man also. treat all living creature well)'
tak faham. ok silalah tgk balik video tu. mmg semua pun tak faham apa dia cuba sampaikan.
haha
but you get my point right?
whatever
1. SPM
watched vioe of thinker studio about spm and stuff. i like one statement that come from a beautiful mc
'yes, i just got 2A. actually i intentionally do that. before spm, i already decide to enter uitm so i check out the qualification to enter mascom. so i study only to pass that qualification. why bother study many thing if you already know what you want. i want to be in entertainment biz so i wont bother about math, add math and stuff'
ok the last statement is actually a short form from her long conversation.
i think she is truly right. why i dont even think like that before this. why youtube is not exist when i am taking spm (ehem actually my home internet is quit low in connection at that time) so i can get many wisdom words from matluthfi and other youtubers. CAPITAL WHYYY?
ahah.no need to be drama. i actually think there is a weakness in education system at that time. to be specific, i just think that my school environment are filled with students want to achieve straight A's, getting A in curriculum, be on news, make teacher proud and stuff. well they said it is the best school in town and sometime i do feel proud. but i always think ' so what will happen to students like me who never in dreams will achieve that straight a's target?'. to be realistic no matter how motivate and hardworking you are if it is not your rezeki then it will not happen.
i tell you i am doing everything that a nerd students would do. i seldom stay at library to study (and sleep), i watch amalina che bakri's video for inspirational (before she stop being innocent), i burn the midnight oil (and fell sleep at the most time of course), making cute notes and more. but i only achieved half of the target.
that's my fate. become the plain person who record no achievement on school board. next stage, university. when choosing university and course, i have a low self esteem so i choose uitm (excuse me hanis zalikha and yuna also go there so no need to feel shame). then for the course, i only choose the one related to math because i am quit confident in it (i am not excellent in add math but i love to find the way to solve it).
ambition?
i'll think about it later. maybe after graduate (five years after graduate i still dont know my ambition)
but i know what i love.
i love to read and write. i love to imagine things from scratch. i love to make a philosophy and have a deep thinking even with simple matter. i love to help people and soothen their worries.
i am not really interested in gaining a lot of money (even though i realllllllly need it right now). i want to be happy and grateful with whatever i have. i dont want to be saved, but i always want to be a saviour.
i really not interested to get things sell. but i really glad if i can give someone a helping hand. i am more into service lady.
but the world is already full with extrovert person making huge achievement and leaving this shy introvert girl far behind. i lost but i just stick to the things that make me happy. my family, books, my sacred laptop and friends. but i know i cant be this comfortable forever. i must push myself. it just.....like katy perry said ;
'you say move on where do i go' (*i did mention this statement before, right?)
it's mean i have no place for me in this world, taylor.
hey, btw hear this philosophy. god, i really love dahlia sazlan (thinker studio. she the one i talk about at the beginning) for her interesting thought.
'i would not like a man who try to woo me by treating me extra-well (ex; pulling chair, taking food for you, singing lullaby). what if he dont like me, would he do the same thing? a manner and feeling is a very different thing guys. you must treat all woman kindly (yes, man also. treat all living creature well)'
tak faham. ok silalah tgk balik video tu. mmg semua pun tak faham apa dia cuba sampaikan.
haha
but you get my point right?
whatever
Wednesday, 13 September 2017
the tale of a kids in weird town
Assalamualaikum.
Hi!
My internet is fu**ing me up today. But it just I have to
write about this, so yeah, lets pray I can barely post t today (13 sept).
I finally watched the movie IT!!!! Yes, I am really excited
because it just totally a psychopath movie. Bear to know that I watched it
alone, with no popcorn (saving money) and can’t grab anybody to hide my fear. I
missed watching movie with Farah and Nurul that we always comment (sometimes almost
curse) at every irrelevant scene.
To be concluded, yes, it is a wise action to restrict 18
year and above kids to watch it in cinema. Because I think it will affect their
emotion because this movie is almost all about them. How kids think, how they
react and the valuable thing that they have (which mostly be forgotten when they
grow up). I like the setting of 1980’s as I think it is a golden era for many
countries as many interesting things happen.
Basically IT make us remember about our childhood. The silly
friend and silly things we do. And I would say these kids are having such an
amazing adventure with amazing spirit and value. It is like watching another
adventure of Harry Potter and his schoolmates. I like how they balance the
freaking scary moments with these lovely childhood moments so we can relax our
blood a while before it rushing like crazy. Each of these kid has scar in their
life, and in addition they are living in a fu**ing weird freak town but their
friendship seems to neutralise all the pain and hardship. Who said kids don’t have
a serious matter to be think of?
So the focus of the scary part story is the clown. OMG I am
so fu**ing hate the clown (and all the clown in this world). I mean, not as in
person because yes let don’t judge a person by their make-up. But seriously,
why would a kid love someone who wears load of make-up and singing cringe song?
At the first scene if I am Georgia I would run as I see a clown in a dark hole
(no need to have conversation with something creepy). IT (the clown been
recognised as IT in this film) is totally a psychopath who have the ALL ACCESS
to all places in the town like…shit how would these kid get away from it. IT is
not totally from their imagination and can harm them more than a serial killer.
It gives me chill because in real world, even though town
like Derry maybe not exist anymore, we are facing the same situation. Even in
Malaysia, the missing kids are high, not to include the kids abuse. Just
please, do care about them. I am reminding myself especially as I seem to be
cold hearted when dealing with them. Pftt
Back to the clown, I just want to know why he exist and why the town is been cursed. Which is why they noted at the end credit this is just the first chapter. Duhh...America and sequels is like two lovebirds.
Come to think again, the reason I want to watch this movie is because of the clown. I totally not agreed with what he done or his motive as psychopath can't think straight like normal people. I always curious about a psychopath character. Come to think again, here are the list of my all favourite psychopath character;
1. Joker
The one and only late Heath ledger.The character is crazy but he is damn genious like seriously how Christopher Nolan can think of it. It become perfect with the enthusiasm of Heath Ledger to perform the character.
2. Sherlock
As in Benedict Cumberbatch. Another fu**ing genious psychopath..
"I am a high functioning sociopath, do your research"
Ok, whatever you said. But I just love the character that totally do the unexpected thing.
3. Min
I forget the character name but Park Bogum is playing that character (seriously i lost my mind of the title...Detective something. There is Jang Nara too). He is the character which seems cute and calm but.... shit. How come you are so calm in planning a murder. I fall in love with Park Bogum in this drama rather than in Reply 1988.
And maybe some other too that i don't remember. But totally not Christian Bale character in American Psycho or Christian Grey from 50 shades of grey (irony isn't it). I can bear a murderer but not a raper.
I rest my case.
that's all. bye.
the tale of a kids in weird town
Assalamualaikum.
Hi!
My internet is fu**ing me up today. But it just I have to
write about this, so yeah, lets pray I can barely post t today (13 sept).
I finally watched the movie IT!!!! Yes, I am really excited
because it just totally a psychopath movie. Bear to know that I watched it
alone, with no popcorn (saving money) and can’t grab anybody to hide my fear. I
missed watching movie with Farah and Nurul that we always comment (sometimes almost
curse) at every irrelevant scene.
To be concluded, yes, it is a wise action to restrict 18
year and above kids to watch it in cinema. Because I think it will affect their
emotion because this movie is almost all about them. How kids think, how they
react and the valuable thing that they have (which mostly be forgotten when they
grow up). I like the setting of 1980’s as I think it is a golden era for many
countries as many interesting things happen.
Basically IT make us remember about our childhood. The silly
friend and silly things we do. And I would say these kids are having such an
amazing adventure with amazing spirit and value. It is like watching another
adventure of Harry Potter and his schoolmates. I like how they balance the
freaking scary moments with these lovely childhood moments so we can relax our
blood a while before it rushing like crazy. Each of these kid has scar in their
life, and in addition they are living in a fu**ing weird freak town but their
friendship seems to neutralise all the pain and hardship. Who said kids don’t have
a serious matter to be think of?
So the focus of the scary part story is the clown. OMG I am
so fu**ing hate the clown (and all the clown in this world). I mean, not as in
person because yes let don’t judge a person by their make-up. But seriously,
why would a kid love someone who wears load of make-up and singing cringe song?
At the first scene if I am Georgia I would run as I see a clown in a dark hole
(no need to have conversation with something creepy). IT (the clown been
recognised as IT in this film) is totally a psychopath who have the ALL ACCESS
to all places in the town like…shit how would these kid get away from it. IT is
not totally from their imagination and can harm them more than a serial killer.
It gives me chill because in real world, even though town
like Derry maybe not exist anymore, we are facing the same situation. Even in
Malaysia, the missing kids are high, not to include the kids abuse. Just
please, do care about them. I am reminding myself especially as I seem to be
cold hearted when dealing with them. Pftt
Back to the clown, I just want to know why he exist and why the town is been cursed. Which is why they noted at the end credit this is just the first chapter. Duhh...America and sequels is like two lovebirds.
Come to think again, the reason I want to watch this movie is because of the clown. I totally not agreed with what he done or his motive as psychopath can't think straight like normal people. I always curious about a psychopath character. Come to think again, here are the list of my all favourite psychopath character;
1. Joker
The one and only late Heath ledger.The character is crazy but he is damn genious like seriously how Christopher Nolan can think of it. It become perfect with the enthusiasm of Heath Ledger to perform the character.
2. Sherlock
As in Benedict Cumberbatch. Another fu**ing genious psychopath..
"I am a high functioning sociopath, do your research"
Ok, whatever you said. But I just love the character that totally do the unexpected thing.
3. Min
I forget the character name but Park Bogum is playing that character (seriously i lost my mind of the title...Detective something. There is Jang Nara too). He is the character which seems cute and calm but.... shit. How come you are so calm in planning a murder. I fall in love with Park Bogum in this drama rather than in Reply 1988.
And maybe some other too that i don't remember. But totally not Christian Bale character in American Psycho or Christian Grey from 50 shades of grey (irony isn't it). I can bear a murderer but not a raper.
I rest my case.
that's all. bye.
Friday, 8 September 2017
random yang tak awesome 2
part two
lets put an end to career talk. then we talk about woman who successfully marry a guy. most of friend that i know would put an end towards their career hunt. they have no worries about flying high or achieving their ambition because they finally found happily ever after.
it sounds like a jealous statement, right?
partly yes and partly no.
of course as a friend i would probably happy for them. but i just cant brain that their ability just stop there. so they are focusing on family which is i know very very very important. but i feel like they are not solving their problems. i mean, one of my friend and i had the same situation in career choice but suddenly she got married and stop searching job. i feel left out not because i jealous of her but i seem to dissapoint at the way she give up with career. i know she can do better than just doing business online (and it is not her own product).
i would like to see myself and my peers as a problem solving to the world problem. rohingya, palestine, environment pollution, social problem....and many more. just like will turner quote in 'me before you';
dont just settle. live your life to the fullest.
i dont like the idea of one just thinking about herself and her family but dont try to contribute anything to society. yes,maybe i am that person who just be a keyboard warrior but do nothing. i really dont want to be a person who settle down in comfort zone but done have the ability to fly high.
and i just want one chance...
lets put an end to career talk. then we talk about woman who successfully marry a guy. most of friend that i know would put an end towards their career hunt. they have no worries about flying high or achieving their ambition because they finally found happily ever after.
it sounds like a jealous statement, right?
partly yes and partly no.
of course as a friend i would probably happy for them. but i just cant brain that their ability just stop there. so they are focusing on family which is i know very very very important. but i feel like they are not solving their problems. i mean, one of my friend and i had the same situation in career choice but suddenly she got married and stop searching job. i feel left out not because i jealous of her but i seem to dissapoint at the way she give up with career. i know she can do better than just doing business online (and it is not her own product).
i would like to see myself and my peers as a problem solving to the world problem. rohingya, palestine, environment pollution, social problem....and many more. just like will turner quote in 'me before you';
dont just settle. live your life to the fullest.
i dont like the idea of one just thinking about herself and her family but dont try to contribute anything to society. yes,maybe i am that person who just be a keyboard warrior but do nothing. i really dont want to be a person who settle down in comfort zone but done have the ability to fly high.
and i just want one chance...
random yang tak awesome
salam alaik.
hari ni aku pergi wedding kwn baik aku raudhah.
alhamdulillah.
well thats not i want to talk about here.
it just something that related to it.
i chat with one of her friend, who actually from terengganu but works here. she said she is raudha's ex-housemate, uni-mate, and currently coworker.
a girl come from terengganu just to work here with a salary that i can guess not big enough just so she could survive.
i am not saying terengganu is a kampung place or what but yes, maybe chance to work at the south is better than north. especially in kuala lumpur.
i had another friend, well a bunch of friend from perak, kelantan and other places migrates to kl and putrajaya to work as kindergarden teacher which all of the world know is a noble but not a really fancy work.
and also, i met some of my uni-mate (both from kelantan)who got married and settle down at big city doing various independent job.
why am i stating all that?
because i want to scream to old-minded people out there, there is vast ways for a youth today to stay survive. the noble step would probably when they do 'hijrah' from their hometown (read: comfort zone). as i grow up i had stop hoping for the real rules and regulation of a perfect life. before this i used to think yes, maybe the worst thing i could end up being a kindergarten teacher, having a 9 to 5 work just like my parent, meet a good guy and get married before end up with bunch of lovely child.... the fairytale story.
but my fate seem to take a far route from that 'perfect' life. i dont meet up with guy as i am basically a terrible social awkward (especially with man. i blame my introvert blood), i meet my turning point at university but it seem i take a u-turn back to my old self, making all the believe and hope and dream that i build just destroy. before this i got the perfect mind and thought of how a human should live. but today, like any adult out there, i would just do anything to survive.
although i am quit unhappy with it and the family & society pressure add fuel into it.
i dont blame them, well it happen to all people, right?
i just want to explain to them that actually my fate and my friend's fate is not that differ. they got an office-hour job that can get public holiday easily, but their stress and salary is the same with me. we even got the same education debt. plus and minus here and there, at the of the month we have the same amount of money left in our bank. and for godsake, i know i should be thankful that i am living with my parents that some of the stress can be cool down a little bit quicker because my home is my best cave (cave is the term familiar with introvert).
i am a clueless youth but i know what makes me happy. good friend and work environment, family, cat, book so right now i just want to keep all these things close to me. i know i should grow up, make a hijrah for a better life but you should know i am working hard on it. i want to be a writer and write story but i dont know and still searching for the opportunity. that's why i am like 'yes i gonna stick close to my dream by working at a bookstore'.
and to be a writer i know i have to write something. i am struggling to do it because i dont want to be a close-minded writer who only know how to leech on a rich guy or dreaming sth that too good to be true. i want to be a writer that speaks for the unfortunate people or at least as a marhaen people who offers support to other people to do well. i know i am more fortunate than some other teens so i really grateful with what i have.
that's why i am asking you people to stop pushing me to the cliff, making me applying for a meaningless job that i know not a little bit define my life. it sounds arrogant and selfish, but just accept me as who i am. at least i dont want to do things just because other people ask me or other 'normal' people do it. i have ambition, i have faith and a little bit of strength. i just need Allah's guide to go through it.
so.....
after all the ranting...
what it got to do with a marriage?
well wait for my second entry.
hari ni aku pergi wedding kwn baik aku raudhah.
alhamdulillah.
well thats not i want to talk about here.
it just something that related to it.
i chat with one of her friend, who actually from terengganu but works here. she said she is raudha's ex-housemate, uni-mate, and currently coworker.
a girl come from terengganu just to work here with a salary that i can guess not big enough just so she could survive.
i am not saying terengganu is a kampung place or what but yes, maybe chance to work at the south is better than north. especially in kuala lumpur.
i had another friend, well a bunch of friend from perak, kelantan and other places migrates to kl and putrajaya to work as kindergarden teacher which all of the world know is a noble but not a really fancy work.
and also, i met some of my uni-mate (both from kelantan)who got married and settle down at big city doing various independent job.
why am i stating all that?
because i want to scream to old-minded people out there, there is vast ways for a youth today to stay survive. the noble step would probably when they do 'hijrah' from their hometown (read: comfort zone). as i grow up i had stop hoping for the real rules and regulation of a perfect life. before this i used to think yes, maybe the worst thing i could end up being a kindergarten teacher, having a 9 to 5 work just like my parent, meet a good guy and get married before end up with bunch of lovely child.... the fairytale story.
but my fate seem to take a far route from that 'perfect' life. i dont meet up with guy as i am basically a terrible social awkward (especially with man. i blame my introvert blood), i meet my turning point at university but it seem i take a u-turn back to my old self, making all the believe and hope and dream that i build just destroy. before this i got the perfect mind and thought of how a human should live. but today, like any adult out there, i would just do anything to survive.
although i am quit unhappy with it and the family & society pressure add fuel into it.
i dont blame them, well it happen to all people, right?
i just want to explain to them that actually my fate and my friend's fate is not that differ. they got an office-hour job that can get public holiday easily, but their stress and salary is the same with me. we even got the same education debt. plus and minus here and there, at the of the month we have the same amount of money left in our bank. and for godsake, i know i should be thankful that i am living with my parents that some of the stress can be cool down a little bit quicker because my home is my best cave (cave is the term familiar with introvert).
i am a clueless youth but i know what makes me happy. good friend and work environment, family, cat, book so right now i just want to keep all these things close to me. i know i should grow up, make a hijrah for a better life but you should know i am working hard on it. i want to be a writer and write story but i dont know and still searching for the opportunity. that's why i am like 'yes i gonna stick close to my dream by working at a bookstore'.
and to be a writer i know i have to write something. i am struggling to do it because i dont want to be a close-minded writer who only know how to leech on a rich guy or dreaming sth that too good to be true. i want to be a writer that speaks for the unfortunate people or at least as a marhaen people who offers support to other people to do well. i know i am more fortunate than some other teens so i really grateful with what i have.
that's why i am asking you people to stop pushing me to the cliff, making me applying for a meaningless job that i know not a little bit define my life. it sounds arrogant and selfish, but just accept me as who i am. at least i dont want to do things just because other people ask me or other 'normal' people do it. i have ambition, i have faith and a little bit of strength. i just need Allah's guide to go through it.
so.....
after all the ranting...
what it got to do with a marriage?
well wait for my second entry.
Saturday, 26 August 2017
doppelganger
assalamualaikum
greetings.
kau kenapakah tulis sampai dua entri wahai perempuan?
haha
suka hati akulah
well sebab aku rasa rajin hari ni dan entri ni pun dah lama bersarang labah-labah dalam otak aku.
ia hanya, aku kurang gemar untuk tunjukkan tanda penghargaan aku pada seseorang kat media sosial. aku rasa macam aku hanya menunjuk-nunjuk dan buat orang lain pula terasa hati sebab aku tak bercerita tentang mereka.
jadi adil untuk aku ceritakan kat sini.
pembaca yang berusaha untuk ke blog ni dan baca benda merepek meraban yang aku tulis.
aku ada seorang kawan bernama munirah. aku kenal dia tahun 2013 macam tu ketika di uitm shah alam. somehow we just click together although our personality is totally different.
she stay at the same dorm with me and we always go to many event together. plus she have a car so yes, i am taking advantage of her (evil laugh). no lah, just kidding.
she really had ups and down during her study years. she suffers of health issue and somehow her physical and mental also sometimes got distracted (same like me too). it is a typical problem for a branch campus student like us to be a stranger in main big campus like shah alam. we share the awkward and low self esteem issue together but somehow she managed to be recognised because of her critical thinking and thought.
i always thought that we are a doppelganger (one of our same trait is introvert) but still far different from each other. here the list
1) i love to write...
stories. i mean fiction story. and on blog (not social media) i like to see things and make it into drama (seriously).
she like to write inspiring true story (and post it on media social). she like to share of her experience, feeling and thought as one of her escapism and healing process. she is more open to tell her stories but i prefer to just listen to other people true story. because my stories is too boring to be shared.
2) i love to read...
novel. and bickering about it when it is not good muahahah. yes, i am a drama person.
she loves to read motivational books and share the quote on her stick on note (that she paste on her study wall).
i only love motivational book when i am not lazy (which is rare).
oh one more thing. of course she is more attachable to read Quran than me. pfttt...please take note on this, girl (hard pat on my shoulder).
3) i love to eat and cook...
random cheap stuff. like aglio ollie.
she like to eat and cook nutritionious food like homemade air kurma.
4) i love to watch and listen to..
drama. korean, japanese, taiwanese, thailand, bollywood, hollywood...random decent good humour type.
i listen to random stuff like the drama ost, taylor swift songs, LP songs...from the mainstream to indie. international and local. as long as it is not cheesy and have no meaning. or i can't relate to anything meaningful.
she like to watch good islamic movie and inspiring hollywood movie. actually she seldom be seen to watch movie. but i know she is not the type of person who would waste her time watching korean drama or such.
she listen to inspiring song like the nasyid song and fynn jamal. seriously she love fynn jamal songs that she keep repeat all day and explaining to one of our housemate the actual meaning of the song. God, she is pure.
5) we love our car
that is our similarities. we are woman with car and drive like a crazy woman. muahahahaha. ok maybe i am much crazier.
then we graduate at the same time although she suppose to finish early than me. we both struggle to find career and alhamdulillah she managed to take a step forward in her life. because she is a chubby person with a big heart. she really deserve it.
i am happy to hear your good news, sahabat. keep calm and fighting! May Allah ease your way.
Me?
i still struggling to find myself, my place in this world. maybe sometimes i envy you but sincerely, as i think of all the harship you going through...you really deserve a happy ending. because you are my good sahabat, a person that i always want to look up as if we are mirror.
i want to be great like you. a doppelganger.
*okay maybe somehow you dont understand wth this girl is talking about in this entry. is she some psycho who would stalk and kills someone just because she want to be like her?
oh no, totally not that. she just a drama queen who have a writing addiction. bear it.
bye!
greetings.
kau kenapakah tulis sampai dua entri wahai perempuan?
haha
suka hati akulah
well sebab aku rasa rajin hari ni dan entri ni pun dah lama bersarang labah-labah dalam otak aku.
ia hanya, aku kurang gemar untuk tunjukkan tanda penghargaan aku pada seseorang kat media sosial. aku rasa macam aku hanya menunjuk-nunjuk dan buat orang lain pula terasa hati sebab aku tak bercerita tentang mereka.
jadi adil untuk aku ceritakan kat sini.
pembaca yang berusaha untuk ke blog ni dan baca benda merepek meraban yang aku tulis.
aku ada seorang kawan bernama munirah. aku kenal dia tahun 2013 macam tu ketika di uitm shah alam. somehow we just click together although our personality is totally different.
she stay at the same dorm with me and we always go to many event together. plus she have a car so yes, i am taking advantage of her (evil laugh). no lah, just kidding.
she really had ups and down during her study years. she suffers of health issue and somehow her physical and mental also sometimes got distracted (same like me too). it is a typical problem for a branch campus student like us to be a stranger in main big campus like shah alam. we share the awkward and low self esteem issue together but somehow she managed to be recognised because of her critical thinking and thought.
i always thought that we are a doppelganger (one of our same trait is introvert) but still far different from each other. here the list
1) i love to write...
stories. i mean fiction story. and on blog (not social media) i like to see things and make it into drama (seriously).
she like to write inspiring true story (and post it on media social). she like to share of her experience, feeling and thought as one of her escapism and healing process. she is more open to tell her stories but i prefer to just listen to other people true story. because my stories is too boring to be shared.
2) i love to read...
novel. and bickering about it when it is not good muahahah. yes, i am a drama person.
she loves to read motivational books and share the quote on her stick on note (that she paste on her study wall).
i only love motivational book when i am not lazy (which is rare).
oh one more thing. of course she is more attachable to read Quran than me. pfttt...please take note on this, girl (hard pat on my shoulder).
3) i love to eat and cook...
random cheap stuff. like aglio ollie.
she like to eat and cook nutritionious food like homemade air kurma.
4) i love to watch and listen to..
drama. korean, japanese, taiwanese, thailand, bollywood, hollywood...random decent good humour type.
i listen to random stuff like the drama ost, taylor swift songs, LP songs...from the mainstream to indie. international and local. as long as it is not cheesy and have no meaning. or i can't relate to anything meaningful.
she like to watch good islamic movie and inspiring hollywood movie. actually she seldom be seen to watch movie. but i know she is not the type of person who would waste her time watching korean drama or such.
she listen to inspiring song like the nasyid song and fynn jamal. seriously she love fynn jamal songs that she keep repeat all day and explaining to one of our housemate the actual meaning of the song. God, she is pure.
5) we love our car
that is our similarities. we are woman with car and drive like a crazy woman. muahahahaha. ok maybe i am much crazier.
then we graduate at the same time although she suppose to finish early than me. we both struggle to find career and alhamdulillah she managed to take a step forward in her life. because she is a chubby person with a big heart. she really deserve it.
i am happy to hear your good news, sahabat. keep calm and fighting! May Allah ease your way.
Me?
i still struggling to find myself, my place in this world. maybe sometimes i envy you but sincerely, as i think of all the harship you going through...you really deserve a happy ending. because you are my good sahabat, a person that i always want to look up as if we are mirror.
i want to be great like you. a doppelganger.
*okay maybe somehow you dont understand wth this girl is talking about in this entry. is she some psycho who would stalk and kills someone just because she want to be like her?
oh no, totally not that. she just a drama queen who have a writing addiction. bear it.
bye!
hater gonna love
assalamualaikum.
greetings.
aku baru layan lagu taylor swift dan tiba-tiba terfikirkan tajuk kat atas ni.
benci jadi suka
suka jadi benci
manusia berubah
kerana itu perasaan juga berubah
dan sesekali jangan menilai manusia sebelum kita kenal dia
impressi pertama sangat penting
tapi ia bukanlah segala-galanya
aku hanya nak kongsikan beberapa figura yang aku rasa merubah pemikiran aku dari semasa ke semasa dan seterusnya memberi inspirasi untuk aku
ye, aku bukan buat roket sains atau jadi tokoh berjaya pun
tetapi sekurang-kurangnya pandangan cetek aku berubah dan melucutkan sesuatu stigma negatif dalam masyarakat
1. Hanis Zalikha
Aku kenal dia selepas dia jadi cerita muka depan satu surat khabar mingguan (dulu aku peminat tegar surat khabar tetapi selepas pemerintahan negara yang terbaru ini, aku jadi jengkel dengan media tersebut). Pada masa itu dia hanya seorang pelajar tajaan JPA untuk peringkat asasi kalau aku tak salah (sebab entah kenapa dulu aku salah sangka pelajar tajaan JPA adalah pelajar luar negara padahal si gadis ini hanyalah belajar UiTM Segamat).
Well, cantik (sangat), bijak, banyak bakat (menulis, modelling), kaya (rumah dia nampak cantik) dan baik (dia kongsikan kisah tentang keluarganya yang aku rasa sangat menarik)..tentu sesiapa saja cemburu. Aku masih tidak puas hati dengan gadis ini, kenapalah dia sempurna sangat. Kenapa blogger macam dia boleh popular & jadi cerita muka depan surat khabar? Sebab dia cantik je ke?
Aku mula ikut blog dia.
Okey, aku mula suka dia.
Maksud aku, ye aku tahu dia macam gadis yang lahir di dunia lain daripada aku. Tapi perbezaan itu tidak semestinya jadi asas untuk aku benci dia. Aku tak kenal dia dan dia tak kenal aku, jadi kenapa nak jadi pembenci (baca:haters). Semua entri dalam blog dia sangat menarik. Kisah hidup dia sebagai fashionista, pencinta kucing, usahawan, pe-makan tegar, traveller tegar, sebagai pelajar, pengacara dan kemudian pelakon. Aku takkan pernah merasakan semua itu jadi aku jadi sangat berminat dengan hidup sepertinya.
Kemudian dia mula popular di kaca tv dan semestinya tidak lari dari gosip. Isu tentang pakaian ketat, lamaran atas pentas dan mungkin banyak lagi. Aku tak kenal dia dan bukanlah peminat tegarnya tetapi aku hanya endah tidak endah. Well banyak lagi manusia teruk kat luar sana.
Kemudian, dia mula berhijrah dengan memakai hijab, kemudian berkahwin dan mempunyai anak lelaki paling comel. Life do her better and sincerely i think she deserve it.
2. Vivy Yusof
Aku sangat kosong tentang Fashion Valet sehinggalah tahun 2015 kalau aku tak silap aku lihat dokumentari tentang wanita berjaya. Sebenarnya aku tertarik dengan cerita dia sebab aku ingat dia adalah pelakon satu drama yang ada Erra Fazira juga tetapi bukan. Dia hanyalah anak orang kaya yang berjaya dalam perniagaan.
Impressi pertama yang teruk dan klise. Ye, kau banyak duit dan kau boleh jadi apa yang kau nak. Tipikal.
Tapi saat aku berfikir tentang kenyataan diatas kebetulan Vivy sedang menceritakan bagaiman stigma sesetengah pihak tentang dirinya.
"..ohh you punya daddy kaya bolehlah you berjaya. This and that but actually no. I tak kacau pun my dad punya business. Actually banyak sebenarnya peluang yang terbuka untuk mulakan perniagaan, you just have to search itu. Rugilah kalau awak sentiasa fikir negatif macam tu.."
Sentap. Okey aku ke orang yang dia cakap tu?
Lepas tu dia tunjuk beberapa babak Vivy sedang membelek satu folio yang ada gambar-gambarnya dan serius aku rasa ia sangat cantik dan kreatif. Bapanya juga ada ditemuramah;
"when she studying in london, i see she spend a lot of money on shoes, bag and clothes. i ask her, why you use my money to buy things? and she said, it actually her money from business card that she been doing in her university"
dia berdiri atas kaki sendiri, yo! cool gila.
"when there is my parents anniversary or birthday, me and my sister always buy cards for them. then my dad cakap why you spend money to buy card kalau you boleh buat sendiri? then it give me idea to make it myself. i decorate my own card and give it to them...saya rasa itu lebih bermakna"
dan dia tunjukkan kad yang dia buat untuk ibu bapanya. okey, cantik gila.
perempuan ini kan (hehe jeles tambah kagum).
paling penting, dan menarik sekali adalah dia hanya tua lima tahun dari aku. how cool is that to have your own company at such young age.
dan aku mula ikut blog dia. aku admire not only her talent in doing everything she love (writing, business, styling herself, blogging) but also her attitude towards her family. she used to have a granny that she is close to that inspire her to study hard and work hard ... its love and blessing from her family that brings her the success in life.
well blow off the bad story about her 'eating in diapers' issue. people make mistakes. and yes, you, me, are people too. she grew up in a businesslike family and her positive strong attitude that support her in her way to success.
at least she is far from the stereotype spoilt rich kid who leech on their family wealth.
perasan tak entri ni mula-mula berbahasa melayu kemudian berubah pula kepada omputih. ahah, aku masih gagal memelayukan penulisan aku. ia hanya, aku rasa aku sangat skema berbahasa melayu dan tak, aku tak rasa cool berbahasa inggeris (people who know me in real life know this). ia hanya aku rasa aku lebih selesa luahkan pendapat aku dalam bahasa inggeris.
hmm
ngomong saja sih apa yang kalian mahu. gue enggak mahu defend lagi kenyataan gue. udah basi lorh tau.
oh, ya. beberapa dialog dan fakta yang aku kemukakan tentang figura-figura diatas mungkin ada silap sikit. as long as you get the meaning of what i want to say (aku adalah orang yang paling stress untuk buat literature review dalam setiap kertas research. tak boleh ke kita just interpret fakta berdasarkan pandangan dan kefahaman kita?)
konklusinya, tak payah la jadi haters.
benci perlakuan kesalahan atau dosa.
tapi bukan insan yang berbuat dosa itu.
sebab kita bukan Tuhan untuk menghukum.
tapi hanya manusia yang boleh menilai dengan akal fikiran.
haters gonna love love love
shake it off
shake it off
bye!
greetings.
aku baru layan lagu taylor swift dan tiba-tiba terfikirkan tajuk kat atas ni.
benci jadi suka
suka jadi benci
manusia berubah
kerana itu perasaan juga berubah
dan sesekali jangan menilai manusia sebelum kita kenal dia
impressi pertama sangat penting
tapi ia bukanlah segala-galanya
aku hanya nak kongsikan beberapa figura yang aku rasa merubah pemikiran aku dari semasa ke semasa dan seterusnya memberi inspirasi untuk aku
ye, aku bukan buat roket sains atau jadi tokoh berjaya pun
tetapi sekurang-kurangnya pandangan cetek aku berubah dan melucutkan sesuatu stigma negatif dalam masyarakat
1. Hanis Zalikha
Aku kenal dia selepas dia jadi cerita muka depan satu surat khabar mingguan (dulu aku peminat tegar surat khabar tetapi selepas pemerintahan negara yang terbaru ini, aku jadi jengkel dengan media tersebut). Pada masa itu dia hanya seorang pelajar tajaan JPA untuk peringkat asasi kalau aku tak salah (sebab entah kenapa dulu aku salah sangka pelajar tajaan JPA adalah pelajar luar negara padahal si gadis ini hanyalah belajar UiTM Segamat).
Well, cantik (sangat), bijak, banyak bakat (menulis, modelling), kaya (rumah dia nampak cantik) dan baik (dia kongsikan kisah tentang keluarganya yang aku rasa sangat menarik)..tentu sesiapa saja cemburu. Aku masih tidak puas hati dengan gadis ini, kenapalah dia sempurna sangat. Kenapa blogger macam dia boleh popular & jadi cerita muka depan surat khabar? Sebab dia cantik je ke?
Aku mula ikut blog dia.
Okey, aku mula suka dia.
Maksud aku, ye aku tahu dia macam gadis yang lahir di dunia lain daripada aku. Tapi perbezaan itu tidak semestinya jadi asas untuk aku benci dia. Aku tak kenal dia dan dia tak kenal aku, jadi kenapa nak jadi pembenci (baca:haters). Semua entri dalam blog dia sangat menarik. Kisah hidup dia sebagai fashionista, pencinta kucing, usahawan, pe-makan tegar, traveller tegar, sebagai pelajar, pengacara dan kemudian pelakon. Aku takkan pernah merasakan semua itu jadi aku jadi sangat berminat dengan hidup sepertinya.
Kemudian dia mula popular di kaca tv dan semestinya tidak lari dari gosip. Isu tentang pakaian ketat, lamaran atas pentas dan mungkin banyak lagi. Aku tak kenal dia dan bukanlah peminat tegarnya tetapi aku hanya endah tidak endah. Well banyak lagi manusia teruk kat luar sana.
Kemudian, dia mula berhijrah dengan memakai hijab, kemudian berkahwin dan mempunyai anak lelaki paling comel. Life do her better and sincerely i think she deserve it.
2. Vivy Yusof
Aku sangat kosong tentang Fashion Valet sehinggalah tahun 2015 kalau aku tak silap aku lihat dokumentari tentang wanita berjaya. Sebenarnya aku tertarik dengan cerita dia sebab aku ingat dia adalah pelakon satu drama yang ada Erra Fazira juga tetapi bukan. Dia hanyalah anak orang kaya yang berjaya dalam perniagaan.
Impressi pertama yang teruk dan klise. Ye, kau banyak duit dan kau boleh jadi apa yang kau nak. Tipikal.
Tapi saat aku berfikir tentang kenyataan diatas kebetulan Vivy sedang menceritakan bagaiman stigma sesetengah pihak tentang dirinya.
"..ohh you punya daddy kaya bolehlah you berjaya. This and that but actually no. I tak kacau pun my dad punya business. Actually banyak sebenarnya peluang yang terbuka untuk mulakan perniagaan, you just have to search itu. Rugilah kalau awak sentiasa fikir negatif macam tu.."
Sentap. Okey aku ke orang yang dia cakap tu?
Lepas tu dia tunjuk beberapa babak Vivy sedang membelek satu folio yang ada gambar-gambarnya dan serius aku rasa ia sangat cantik dan kreatif. Bapanya juga ada ditemuramah;
"when she studying in london, i see she spend a lot of money on shoes, bag and clothes. i ask her, why you use my money to buy things? and she said, it actually her money from business card that she been doing in her university"
dia berdiri atas kaki sendiri, yo! cool gila.
"when there is my parents anniversary or birthday, me and my sister always buy cards for them. then my dad cakap why you spend money to buy card kalau you boleh buat sendiri? then it give me idea to make it myself. i decorate my own card and give it to them...saya rasa itu lebih bermakna"
dan dia tunjukkan kad yang dia buat untuk ibu bapanya. okey, cantik gila.
perempuan ini kan (hehe jeles tambah kagum).
paling penting, dan menarik sekali adalah dia hanya tua lima tahun dari aku. how cool is that to have your own company at such young age.
dan aku mula ikut blog dia. aku admire not only her talent in doing everything she love (writing, business, styling herself, blogging) but also her attitude towards her family. she used to have a granny that she is close to that inspire her to study hard and work hard ... its love and blessing from her family that brings her the success in life.
well blow off the bad story about her 'eating in diapers' issue. people make mistakes. and yes, you, me, are people too. she grew up in a businesslike family and her positive strong attitude that support her in her way to success.
at least she is far from the stereotype spoilt rich kid who leech on their family wealth.
perasan tak entri ni mula-mula berbahasa melayu kemudian berubah pula kepada omputih. ahah, aku masih gagal memelayukan penulisan aku. ia hanya, aku rasa aku sangat skema berbahasa melayu dan tak, aku tak rasa cool berbahasa inggeris (people who know me in real life know this). ia hanya aku rasa aku lebih selesa luahkan pendapat aku dalam bahasa inggeris.
hmm
ngomong saja sih apa yang kalian mahu. gue enggak mahu defend lagi kenyataan gue. udah basi lorh tau.
oh, ya. beberapa dialog dan fakta yang aku kemukakan tentang figura-figura diatas mungkin ada silap sikit. as long as you get the meaning of what i want to say (aku adalah orang yang paling stress untuk buat literature review dalam setiap kertas research. tak boleh ke kita just interpret fakta berdasarkan pandangan dan kefahaman kita?)
konklusinya, tak payah la jadi haters.
benci perlakuan kesalahan atau dosa.
tapi bukan insan yang berbuat dosa itu.
sebab kita bukan Tuhan untuk menghukum.
tapi hanya manusia yang boleh menilai dengan akal fikiran.
haters gonna love love love
shake it off
shake it off
bye!
Saturday, 19 August 2017
Puisi tak ada air dan ...
Jika semua itu hilang
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Jika benda yang kau selalu lupa itu hilang
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Jika hidup kau seteruk itu
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Manusia sering mengelak dengan persoalan 'kalau'
Katanya usah menyangka selain dari apa yang ditakdirkan untuk kau
Tapi tatkala kau jatuh dalam lubang hitam itu
Kau fikir alangkah baiknya aku jadi manusia prejudis
Daripada menjadi manusia sok redha
Sok alim memuat naik status islamik
Yang entah pada siapa ditujukan
Pada Tuhan yang setia menunggu solat dan doamu
Pada diri yang cuba melarikan diri dari masalah
Atau pada teman teman yang mempunyai hidup sok 'indah' di alam maya
Hai diri....aku tidak tahu apa lagi yang harus ku katakan
Pujuklah hatimu, kuatkan iman mu
Pandulah akalmu
Pada makna hidup sebenar di jalan Allah
Ingatlah bait indah dari Dia dalam mukjizat Al-Quran
Yang engkau selalu lupakan
Yang selalu engkau endahkan
Ya menangislah
Bukan kerana engkau lemah
Tapi sekadar melepaskan lelah hati dan fikiran
Berdoalah
Moga rahmat Tuhan sentiasa ada padamu
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Jika benda yang kau selalu lupa itu hilang
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Jika hidup kau seteruk itu
Apa yang kau akan buat?
Manusia sering mengelak dengan persoalan 'kalau'
Katanya usah menyangka selain dari apa yang ditakdirkan untuk kau
Tapi tatkala kau jatuh dalam lubang hitam itu
Kau fikir alangkah baiknya aku jadi manusia prejudis
Daripada menjadi manusia sok redha
Sok alim memuat naik status islamik
Yang entah pada siapa ditujukan
Pada Tuhan yang setia menunggu solat dan doamu
Pada diri yang cuba melarikan diri dari masalah
Atau pada teman teman yang mempunyai hidup sok 'indah' di alam maya
Hai diri....aku tidak tahu apa lagi yang harus ku katakan
Pujuklah hatimu, kuatkan iman mu
Pandulah akalmu
Pada makna hidup sebenar di jalan Allah
Ingatlah bait indah dari Dia dalam mukjizat Al-Quran
Yang engkau selalu lupakan
Yang selalu engkau endahkan
Ya menangislah
Bukan kerana engkau lemah
Tapi sekadar melepaskan lelah hati dan fikiran
Berdoalah
Moga rahmat Tuhan sentiasa ada padamu
Monday, 14 August 2017
Random
Random
Farah menekupkan mukanya ke paha sambil duduk memeluk lutut. Cuaca petang itu mendung dan sebenarnya rintik hujan sudah mula turun perlahan. Makanya kawasan parking atas bumbung kompleks membeli belah itu lengang. Farah saja yang sanggup duduk dalam hujan di tangga yang membawa ke tangki air itu.
"Hoi!", satu suara menyergah. Farah angkat muka perlahan, sudah kenal benar dengan kejengkelan perangai si pemilik suara itu yang suka mengejutkannya.
Cis, muka aku sembab pula.
"Ya? "
"Kau kenapa? "
"Kau buat apa kat sini?"
"Cari kau"
"Macam mana kau tahu aku kat sini?"
"Sixth sense?"
Farah senyum plastik mengiakan saja jawapan Taufiq.
"Dah hujan ni, kau pergilah. Nanti pape hal kau nk ckp dgn aku, kau sms je"
"Nah...nanti kau demam" ucap Taufiq lalu menghulurkn sweater yg dipakainya.
Kebiasaannya Farah pasti akan buka langkah silat jika Taufiq duduk dekat dengannya. Namun kali ini dia biarkan saja.
"Kenapa eh...manusia tak boleh lihat manusia lain simply as a human too? Kenapa ada label? Kenapa ada price tag? Kenapa eh?"
"Sebab susah kot. I mean aku pun jenis yg suka judge org dgn benda material yg dorg ada. I admit that. Mungkin somehow aku yg insecure dgn diri aku sendiri sampai xnk pcaya kan org lain as a human being too. That my case"
"So kau rasa...semua judgement tu wujud sbb human x trust each other?"
"Sebab dia x kenal or tak nak kenal, then mcm mana nk trust org tu kan. Makanya dia just assume this and that cth org pakai tudung is nice and org x pakai tudung is not. Ia jd habit dan tanpa sedar dia lukakan hati org. Other case.......it just they are bloody psychopath"
Farah tergelak.
"I will take the second reason.itu lagi meyakinkan"
"Yela2, anggap je aku paychopath. Bkn someone yg ada issue dgn diri sendiri"
"Well thanks. But i think i need more time with myself. Here your sweater"
Taufiq pandang farah lama.
"Hr ni je aku bnrkan kau jd dramatik layan perasaan dlm hujan. Tp no, you need to take the sweater. Karang demam aku susah.bye then"
Farah menekupkan mukanya ke paha sambil duduk memeluk lutut. Cuaca petang itu mendung dan sebenarnya rintik hujan sudah mula turun perlahan. Makanya kawasan parking atas bumbung kompleks membeli belah itu lengang. Farah saja yang sanggup duduk dalam hujan di tangga yang membawa ke tangki air itu.
"Hoi!", satu suara menyergah. Farah angkat muka perlahan, sudah kenal benar dengan kejengkelan perangai si pemilik suara itu yang suka mengejutkannya.
Cis, muka aku sembab pula.
"Ya? "
"Kau kenapa? "
"Kau buat apa kat sini?"
"Cari kau"
"Macam mana kau tahu aku kat sini?"
"Sixth sense?"
Farah senyum plastik mengiakan saja jawapan Taufiq.
"Dah hujan ni, kau pergilah. Nanti pape hal kau nk ckp dgn aku, kau sms je"
"Nah...nanti kau demam" ucap Taufiq lalu menghulurkn sweater yg dipakainya.
Kebiasaannya Farah pasti akan buka langkah silat jika Taufiq duduk dekat dengannya. Namun kali ini dia biarkan saja.
"Kenapa eh...manusia tak boleh lihat manusia lain simply as a human too? Kenapa ada label? Kenapa ada price tag? Kenapa eh?"
"Sebab susah kot. I mean aku pun jenis yg suka judge org dgn benda material yg dorg ada. I admit that. Mungkin somehow aku yg insecure dgn diri aku sendiri sampai xnk pcaya kan org lain as a human being too. That my case"
"So kau rasa...semua judgement tu wujud sbb human x trust each other?"
"Sebab dia x kenal or tak nak kenal, then mcm mana nk trust org tu kan. Makanya dia just assume this and that cth org pakai tudung is nice and org x pakai tudung is not. Ia jd habit dan tanpa sedar dia lukakan hati org. Other case.......it just they are bloody psychopath"
Farah tergelak.
"I will take the second reason.itu lagi meyakinkan"
"Yela2, anggap je aku paychopath. Bkn someone yg ada issue dgn diri sendiri"
"Well thanks. But i think i need more time with myself. Here your sweater"
Taufiq pandang farah lama.
"Hr ni je aku bnrkan kau jd dramatik layan perasaan dlm hujan. Tp no, you need to take the sweater. Karang demam aku susah.bye then"
Thursday, 3 August 2017
Review drama: Wedding
Assalamualaikum.
Greetings.
Another randomness from me is to watch old forgotten drama. Wedding is a korean drama starring jang nara &.... sorry i dont know the guy name.siwon sth i guess. This drama was aired back in 2005 when at the same time My Girl drama hit. I guess i remember this drama is aired in malaysia after my girl drama ended. And of course i didnt watch it because too fanatic with my girl. I found this drama interesting because of jang nara & the first episode where her character questioning everybody on 'what is important in a wedding'.
Here are the likes from me:
1. I am too bored with the 'arrogant-cold-heir' hero that i found seung woo character is so interesting. I mean, it really suit the actor who is soft spoken and has good look on him. Serious guy, you just have to be gentle like him and you can win a woman heart in no time. Plus, god why la his job is so interesting and charming..a secretary diplomat. But seriously he really had the dumb when it comes to love.
2. Jang nara. I told you i like her. Because she cute and dont fake it.
The dislikes from me
1. This story for me is simple yet frustrating. In the beginning i like how these two people from two world apart get along in a proper way (not the disgusting plot like one night stand or sth like that). it is a realistic plot when a woman and man has so many hesistation and issue in order to agree with a marriage. However the issue after married make me annoyed.
a) the jealous wife
Why is she being jealous with his husband past lover? Did she already know about that before they get married and vow to herself to always love the man no matter what. Seriously they are like running in a circle. In the beginning when she loose confident to get married, she run to him when she heard she can't live without him (as he is getting hospitalized for small accident).then towards the end when they are getting divorce, she run to him when she know he is going to US, saying the same thing 'i cant live without u'. So why you always pick fight with him, girl? Just be thankful he is not a scumbag who kiss another girl or taking advantage on your family wealth.
B) man and woman cant be friend
And so the wife got jealous for the husband friendship with Miss Friend. Yes, i got that you are jealous as he always go to this Miss Friend but seriously i cant understand why you make this small thing bigger . It is call reapecting other people relatuonship. You cant simply avoid the husband to see his woman friend and plus you know that she is like a family to him. Like a sibling. You get it? I dont see in any way that Miss Friend try to flirt with him. Forgive me if i am wrong or blindto see that. How many time he need to kiss and hug you just to assure you he love you,stupid woman!
C) past time
Why would you care about your partner past time? Why is the wife so afraid even in their honeymoon after she found out her last lover is his husband's senior? Past is past and beside Mr Ex Lover is so cool about it. He dont flirt with you to get you back or sth like that. So why bother that it is a secret that could ruin your marriage. Okay, maybe i dont know how it is feel being in a relationship, the jealousy and insecurity but dont make small thing complicated. And forgodsake why the hell are you keeping your past love picture Mr Ex Lover? It is so tacky
Yeah basically i just dont like the after marriage issue in this story. Maybe it is correct for couple to be honest with each other before getting married. It is important to know your partner friends and family so you can see the true personality of your partner. make a deep thought and whatever happen in the future, just remember what is point that make you choose him/her as your soulmate.
Waduh...kayak dukun cinta lagi. Emangnya gue bagi 6 dari 10 bintang kerana pasangannnya sgt cocok & kiut. Hehe.
Bye. I should sleep
Greetings.
Another randomness from me is to watch old forgotten drama. Wedding is a korean drama starring jang nara &.... sorry i dont know the guy name.siwon sth i guess. This drama was aired back in 2005 when at the same time My Girl drama hit. I guess i remember this drama is aired in malaysia after my girl drama ended. And of course i didnt watch it because too fanatic with my girl. I found this drama interesting because of jang nara & the first episode where her character questioning everybody on 'what is important in a wedding'.
Here are the likes from me:
1. I am too bored with the 'arrogant-cold-heir' hero that i found seung woo character is so interesting. I mean, it really suit the actor who is soft spoken and has good look on him. Serious guy, you just have to be gentle like him and you can win a woman heart in no time. Plus, god why la his job is so interesting and charming..a secretary diplomat. But seriously he really had the dumb when it comes to love.
2. Jang nara. I told you i like her. Because she cute and dont fake it.
The dislikes from me
1. This story for me is simple yet frustrating. In the beginning i like how these two people from two world apart get along in a proper way (not the disgusting plot like one night stand or sth like that). it is a realistic plot when a woman and man has so many hesistation and issue in order to agree with a marriage. However the issue after married make me annoyed.
a) the jealous wife
Why is she being jealous with his husband past lover? Did she already know about that before they get married and vow to herself to always love the man no matter what. Seriously they are like running in a circle. In the beginning when she loose confident to get married, she run to him when she heard she can't live without him (as he is getting hospitalized for small accident).then towards the end when they are getting divorce, she run to him when she know he is going to US, saying the same thing 'i cant live without u'. So why you always pick fight with him, girl? Just be thankful he is not a scumbag who kiss another girl or taking advantage on your family wealth.
B) man and woman cant be friend
And so the wife got jealous for the husband friendship with Miss Friend. Yes, i got that you are jealous as he always go to this Miss Friend but seriously i cant understand why you make this small thing bigger . It is call reapecting other people relatuonship. You cant simply avoid the husband to see his woman friend and plus you know that she is like a family to him. Like a sibling. You get it? I dont see in any way that Miss Friend try to flirt with him. Forgive me if i am wrong or blindto see that. How many time he need to kiss and hug you just to assure you he love you,stupid woman!
C) past time
Why would you care about your partner past time? Why is the wife so afraid even in their honeymoon after she found out her last lover is his husband's senior? Past is past and beside Mr Ex Lover is so cool about it. He dont flirt with you to get you back or sth like that. So why bother that it is a secret that could ruin your marriage. Okay, maybe i dont know how it is feel being in a relationship, the jealousy and insecurity but dont make small thing complicated. And forgodsake why the hell are you keeping your past love picture Mr Ex Lover? It is so tacky
Yeah basically i just dont like the after marriage issue in this story. Maybe it is correct for couple to be honest with each other before getting married. It is important to know your partner friends and family so you can see the true personality of your partner. make a deep thought and whatever happen in the future, just remember what is point that make you choose him/her as your soulmate.
Waduh...kayak dukun cinta lagi. Emangnya gue bagi 6 dari 10 bintang kerana pasangannnya sgt cocok & kiut. Hehe.
Bye. I should sleep
Friday, 21 July 2017
Talking serious stuff
Assalamualaikum.
Greeetings
Too many things i want to rant. randomly.
But i will start with this first
1. Two days before i went to the bank and while waiting for my number, i am secretly listening to a conversation between a man and a boy behind me. Apparently the boy decide to quit his study to work. Maybe he had some money issue that forced him to work at cinema to get income. The man adviced him to think about it again as he only got one year left to graduate.
I am not opposing the fact (that the man mention) of getting a certification is crucial in finding a good job. But I just pissed off with his opinion about the lower class worker (such as fast food restaurant, cinema) as a 'kerja budak-budak'. According to him, a matured human being should do a mature job such as lawyer, banker or other job that has a secure epf and working in office hour.
Well mister, i see many those 'mature' human being doing the most stupid action and speech that a human can do. All of us has many stories that such stigma should not be exist. A low class worker not necessary a stupid, indecent and unlucky so does the upper class worker not necessary has a happy life story.
Then, I come across to this video today. And suddenly it make me think about this issue even deeper.
The murder of Jalil Ibrahim: The guy who knew too much
To be short, this case happen in 1983 (if I am not mistaken) and create a massive issue in Asian financial and politics scandal. An innocent auditor is murdered by a high influence people, the plot that we usually see in drama but really happen in reality. How an educated and high integrity person risking his life and family for the sake of his job. Maybe this is what the man (in my story above mean). A true job is when we are risking important thing in our life to actually give something to the society. A job to make us be responsible and mature in life.
The company that been associated with this case, Carriane is said to involve in huge fraud and scandal that lead into its destruction few years later. I just wonder, if there is many high class worker is as sincere and responsible like Jalil Ibrahim, maybe a company like Carriane could never exist. We, the youth who said to be the think tanker of nation end up being a 'comfortable' employee and never dare to make change for a better.
It make me feel bad. I am waiting for a chance but never dare to step out of my tiny world. This world is under destruction and yet the youth still amused with those Fatah Amin story, gadjet spinner (is it the right spelling) and other unnecessary stuff. I just... I dont know. Things are not right but I dont know how to fix it.
Today I happen to encounter to few people with their kids. It just cross my mind that.... being a married woman and live in a low class world is not what i want. I know it sound absurd but I rather be alone and lead a small but meaningful life. I dont want to create another problem to this world if I am not responsible enough to handle it.
Yesterday, I dream to change the world.
Today, I am still in the same position. With some bad luck of life.
Tomorrow, ...I just can't think.
Tuesday, 11 July 2017
chance
assalamualaikum.
greetings.
jadi raya ni, cuba teka soalan apa paling femes ditanya oleh saudara mara tanpa mengira usia dan jantina bertanya pada orang muda?
"Bila nak kahwin?"
Salah!
Jadi jangan stereotype dengan orang tua ye. Mereka juga sudah matang untuk tidak bertanyakan soal itu kerana takut menjadi bahan umpatan dia Muka Buku mahupun Pencicit.
"Buat apa sekarang?"
"Kerja mana?"
Itu dia soalannya.
Dan ada dua reaksi saja pada soalan diatas.
Mereka yang dikatakan mempunyai kerjaya kukuh dan semat (baca: kerja ofis) akan bangga menjawab soalan tersebut.
Mereka yang masih terumbang-ambing dalam pemilihan kerjaya pula akan berpeluh untuk menjawab soalan tersebut.
Well, aku termasuk dalam kategori kedua. Kadang-kadang aku malas memanjangkan perbualan tersebut kerana tipikal orang tua akan 'cuba' membantu anda menyelesaikan masalah (walhal ia bukanlah satu masalah pun. kerja halal, dapat duit, bayar pt).
"Ohh kenapa tak cari kerja yang sama dengan course belajar?"
"Kawan mak cik ada kerja kat KL dia kata nak pakai orang kat butik dia"
"Buka je Jobstreet takkan takde"
Which kadang-kadang aku menjadikan aku hilang sabar dan pura-pura ambil air di dapur. I won't debate on this (again). They have the right to ask and I have the right to keep quiet.
Maka jangan tanya kenapa aku seperti berura-ura menjadi seorang anti-sosial.
Tapi semalam, aku tengok video baru kyopropaganda (bangga sebab antara yang pertama tengok dalam jarak upload lebih kurang 3 minit yang lalu). Ia adalah sebuah reaction video ( i am glad dia ada sentimen takkan jadi macam youtubers lain yang suka buat reaction video pada benda-benda bodoh). tapi dia still nak ikut trend itu sebab dia rasa ada satu video ni sangat best untuk dikongsi.
Ia video "the opportunity" dari thailand. basically ia sbnrnya iklan tentng insurans tp banyak yang kita boleh belajar daripada situ. Ia berkisar tentang seorang wanita yang bercerita tentang 'peluang' yang dia dapat. Dia bermula dari kosong, sebagai seorang ibu yang kehilangan anaknya yang sakit (kerana tiada duit dan kesempatan untuk merawat anaknya). Tapi dia bangkit dengan bekerja menjual insurans dan dia berharap orang lain takkan rasa penyesalan yang dia rasa. i mean yes kau boleh sembang bertapa pentingnya cinta dan kasih sayang tapi kau juga tak boleh nak gebang besar kalau kau tak ada duit pun nak beri makan, beri perlindungan pada orang yang kau sayang. duit bukan segalanya tapi segalanya perlukan duit. Mak cik ni belajar untuk kongsi peluang yang dia dapat (ada kerja, ada duit) pada orang susah yang lain (dia bagi roti pada pengemis).
Iklan tu tak sedih pun, tapi cukup untuk buat kau berfikir tentang peluang yang datang dalam hidup kau. Quote Kyo, kau boleh jadi apa sahaja yang kau nak tapi mestilah disertai dengan usaha. Dan kalau kau nampak peluang, ambil saja walaupun ia taklah memberi impak besar pun dalam hidup kau.
Ia buat aku fikir, apa sebenarnya yang aku nak dalam hidup. Kita selalu rasa orang lain rendahkan kita sebab kita bukan siapa-siapa (baca: merujuk soalan mak cik pak cik di hari raya), selalu rasa down bila orang lain bercerita kejayaan masing-masing. Kita jadi skeptikal dengan hidup sebab selalu dirundum malang sampai kadangkala kita terlepas banyak peluang. Many door had opens to us but we dont dare to step in because of many reasons. Aku tak sedia lagi, aku tak boleh buat ni, aku tak boleh buat macam tu, apa kata si polan,....too many reasons.
Hati kita tahu bila kita nampak peluang tu. Kita mungkin akan tersalah buat pilihan tapi sebenarnya jalan tulah yang akan jadikan kita lebih baik dari semalam.
If you want to be a writer, write something. Find your own writing style, find a good perspective of life, find a good story yang sebenarnya ada kat sekeliling kau. You will be rejected many times but don't give up.
Itu contoh yang aku rasa paling tepat untuk aku. Tapi kadang-kadang pun aku sendiri tak tahu apa yang aku nak. Sebab itu bila fikir-fikir balik, soalan mak cik pak cik di hari raya itu tak salah. Malah ia soalan yang paling bernas untuk ditanya pada semua orang.
Apa yang kau nak buat dengan hidup kau? Apa passion kau? Apa yang penting pada kau, kebahagiaan atau kemewahan (dan tidak salah memilih keduanya)? Orang yang pandai akan berfikir dan bertindak. Orang yang bodoh hanya akan meroyan di sosial media.
You yourself should know of yourself. Stop watching drama and hope someone will rescue you.
Itu je untuk kali ni. God, apa ajelah yang aku emosikan ni. Bye.
greetings.
jadi raya ni, cuba teka soalan apa paling femes ditanya oleh saudara mara tanpa mengira usia dan jantina bertanya pada orang muda?
"Bila nak kahwin?"
Salah!
Jadi jangan stereotype dengan orang tua ye. Mereka juga sudah matang untuk tidak bertanyakan soal itu kerana takut menjadi bahan umpatan dia Muka Buku mahupun Pencicit.
"Buat apa sekarang?"
"Kerja mana?"
Itu dia soalannya.
Dan ada dua reaksi saja pada soalan diatas.
Mereka yang dikatakan mempunyai kerjaya kukuh dan semat (baca: kerja ofis) akan bangga menjawab soalan tersebut.
Mereka yang masih terumbang-ambing dalam pemilihan kerjaya pula akan berpeluh untuk menjawab soalan tersebut.
Well, aku termasuk dalam kategori kedua. Kadang-kadang aku malas memanjangkan perbualan tersebut kerana tipikal orang tua akan 'cuba' membantu anda menyelesaikan masalah (walhal ia bukanlah satu masalah pun. kerja halal, dapat duit, bayar pt).
"Ohh kenapa tak cari kerja yang sama dengan course belajar?"
"Kawan mak cik ada kerja kat KL dia kata nak pakai orang kat butik dia"
"Buka je Jobstreet takkan takde"
Which kadang-kadang aku menjadikan aku hilang sabar dan pura-pura ambil air di dapur. I won't debate on this (again). They have the right to ask and I have the right to keep quiet.
Maka jangan tanya kenapa aku seperti berura-ura menjadi seorang anti-sosial.
Tapi semalam, aku tengok video baru kyopropaganda (bangga sebab antara yang pertama tengok dalam jarak upload lebih kurang 3 minit yang lalu). Ia adalah sebuah reaction video ( i am glad dia ada sentimen takkan jadi macam youtubers lain yang suka buat reaction video pada benda-benda bodoh). tapi dia still nak ikut trend itu sebab dia rasa ada satu video ni sangat best untuk dikongsi.
Ia video "the opportunity" dari thailand. basically ia sbnrnya iklan tentng insurans tp banyak yang kita boleh belajar daripada situ. Ia berkisar tentang seorang wanita yang bercerita tentang 'peluang' yang dia dapat. Dia bermula dari kosong, sebagai seorang ibu yang kehilangan anaknya yang sakit (kerana tiada duit dan kesempatan untuk merawat anaknya). Tapi dia bangkit dengan bekerja menjual insurans dan dia berharap orang lain takkan rasa penyesalan yang dia rasa. i mean yes kau boleh sembang bertapa pentingnya cinta dan kasih sayang tapi kau juga tak boleh nak gebang besar kalau kau tak ada duit pun nak beri makan, beri perlindungan pada orang yang kau sayang. duit bukan segalanya tapi segalanya perlukan duit. Mak cik ni belajar untuk kongsi peluang yang dia dapat (ada kerja, ada duit) pada orang susah yang lain (dia bagi roti pada pengemis).
Iklan tu tak sedih pun, tapi cukup untuk buat kau berfikir tentang peluang yang datang dalam hidup kau. Quote Kyo, kau boleh jadi apa sahaja yang kau nak tapi mestilah disertai dengan usaha. Dan kalau kau nampak peluang, ambil saja walaupun ia taklah memberi impak besar pun dalam hidup kau.
Ia buat aku fikir, apa sebenarnya yang aku nak dalam hidup. Kita selalu rasa orang lain rendahkan kita sebab kita bukan siapa-siapa (baca: merujuk soalan mak cik pak cik di hari raya), selalu rasa down bila orang lain bercerita kejayaan masing-masing. Kita jadi skeptikal dengan hidup sebab selalu dirundum malang sampai kadangkala kita terlepas banyak peluang. Many door had opens to us but we dont dare to step in because of many reasons. Aku tak sedia lagi, aku tak boleh buat ni, aku tak boleh buat macam tu, apa kata si polan,....too many reasons.
Hati kita tahu bila kita nampak peluang tu. Kita mungkin akan tersalah buat pilihan tapi sebenarnya jalan tulah yang akan jadikan kita lebih baik dari semalam.
If you want to be a writer, write something. Find your own writing style, find a good perspective of life, find a good story yang sebenarnya ada kat sekeliling kau. You will be rejected many times but don't give up.
Itu contoh yang aku rasa paling tepat untuk aku. Tapi kadang-kadang pun aku sendiri tak tahu apa yang aku nak. Sebab itu bila fikir-fikir balik, soalan mak cik pak cik di hari raya itu tak salah. Malah ia soalan yang paling bernas untuk ditanya pada semua orang.
Apa yang kau nak buat dengan hidup kau? Apa passion kau? Apa yang penting pada kau, kebahagiaan atau kemewahan (dan tidak salah memilih keduanya)? Orang yang pandai akan berfikir dan bertindak. Orang yang bodoh hanya akan meroyan di sosial media.
You yourself should know of yourself. Stop watching drama and hope someone will rescue you.
Itu je untuk kali ni. God, apa ajelah yang aku emosikan ni. Bye.
Monday, 3 July 2017
angry bird
assalamualaikum.
greetings.
aku pernah ditanya oleh seorang rakan lelaki di universiti (rakan as in working partner)
"macam mana nak tahu awak tengah marah?" (yeah, so skema 'saya-awak'. but we're in formal club meeting that's why it is 'skema')
"saya diam"
dia angguk tapi aku tahu dia masih konfius sebab personaliti aku memang pendiam (especially with man) jadi adakah itu bermakna aku sentiasa marah?
seorang lagi rakan lelaki sewaktu aku di seremban sempat mengutuk aku dihadapan junior kami
"tengok senior awak kak farhana tu. tunggu kami dua jam pun sabar je, tak reti nak marah langsung".
memang kurang asam.
aku teringin nak jadi watak perempuan yang boleh luahkan perasaan dengan jujur; marah sedih gembira. aku bukan nak kata aku tak pernah marah tapi sejujurnya diam ketika marah adalah lebih baik. at least untuk diri aku sebab once aku dah naikkan suara pada seseorang aku akan rasa tubuh aku menggigil dan menangis. i really can't do it.
dan bekerja dalam bidang khidmat pelanggan sangatlah mencabar untuk seorang introvert seperti aku. maksudnya dalam apa-apa situasi yang emosional seorang introvert memerlukan masa bersendirian untuk mengecas segala urat yang berselirat dalam otak dan hatinya. aku pilih untuk diam kalau aku tengah marah dan elakkan diri dari bercakap atau bertembung dengan orang lain.
tapi macam mana kalau kau terpaksa juga berinteraksi dengan orang yang membuatkan emosi kau tak stabil (marah)?
aku bukanlah orang yang terbaik dalam pengurusan emosi tapi mungkin tips2 di bawah aku boleh kongsikan kepada mereka yang rasa mereka sangat emosional dan cepat sentap.
1. dalam semua keadaan, cuba bercakap dengan suara yang rendah (tanpa tone) dan sedikit lambat-lambat. ia akan nampak kau macam malas nak layan orang tu tapi ia lebih baik daripada meninggikan suara. cuba cover dengan senyuman plastik. aku rasa gaya bercakap yang sedemikian boleh buat kau bertenang seketika dan berfikir dengan lebih rasional.
2. kalau perlu diam sebentar, pandang tempat lain. kau kena kawal diri kau dulu sebelum kau nak kawal orang yang sedang melancarkan perang emosi dengan kau. kalau perlu minta bantuan orang lain kalau kau rasa pelempang kau terasa sangat ringan untuk dilekapkan ke pipi manusia tersebut.
3. orang akan jadi emosional jika dia rasa tergugat, kerana itu dia akan cuba menggugat emosi kau juga. dalam customer service line, customer is not always right. but customer is always a customer. jika dia seakan tidak makan saman dengan penerangan berjela kau, jump into the solution of the problem. contoh;
customer: tapi poster promotion tu ada kat bawah buku tu, supposely la buku tu ada promotion
staff: minta maaf tapi puan perlu tengok gambar dan description kat poster tu. ia lain dengan barang yang puan amik ni. setiap promotion yang kami ada akan dilekatkan skali dengan sticker
customer: ah...mana boleh macam ni awak kelirukan customer
kau memang rasa nak cekik bunuh sula manusia jenis ini. percayalah ayat yang mereka lontarkan kadangkala lebih teruk dari ini ditambah carutan. sebab tu kau kena bertenang dulu. orang bodoh bertindak guna emosi, orang pandai guna otak. jadi tak guna berdebat dengan emosi tersebut, just jump to the solution
staff: baik, saya rasa ini semua salah faham. puan tersalah tengok gambar produk ni dan mungkin staff kami juga tak perasan poster ni dah beralih. jadi sekarang puan nak buku yang ada promotion atau yang tak ada?
dalam situasi yang sukar, mereka mungkin takkan mahu mengaku kalah. jadi penting untuk kau jadi tegas dalam lembut.
staff: minta maaf ye puan kami memang tak boleh bagi harga ni. puan boleh decide untuk ambil atau tak
dan semua aksi diatas haruslah dibuat dengan tampalan senyuman plastik saiz A4 dan bahasa tubuh yang polite. kau mungkin akan dianggap kalah jika diukur dengan panjang teks debat dan kelantangan suara namun ketahuilah jika momen itu dirakam dan diulang tayang semula pada masa depan, at least normal human will feel embrassed to see themselves fighting for a little thing.
trust me, itu apa yang aku rasa bila aku pernah marah & tinggikan suara dengan parents aku. masa tu aku rasa aku betul, aku menang tapi bila aku ingat balik serius aku malu dengan diri aku sendiri. what if anak aku pun akan buat macam tu kat aku. situasi yang sama jika kita buat pada orang lain hatta kucing sekalipun. bumi ni bulat bila-bila masa saja kita boleh bertukar kedudukan dengan orang lain.
jadi jangan main angry birds, tak best pun. apa barang tembak khinzir, lebih baik kau tembak askar AS yang ceroboh Iraq tu hah. Fighting like a man, like tentera Al-Qassam.
Dan itu juga buat aku berfikir, kalaulah Rasulullah s.a.w boleh pinjamkan sedikit sabar baginda pada manusia akhir zaman ni. This world would be in peace forever.
k,bye
greetings.
aku pernah ditanya oleh seorang rakan lelaki di universiti (rakan as in working partner)
"macam mana nak tahu awak tengah marah?" (yeah, so skema 'saya-awak'. but we're in formal club meeting that's why it is 'skema')
"saya diam"
dia angguk tapi aku tahu dia masih konfius sebab personaliti aku memang pendiam (especially with man) jadi adakah itu bermakna aku sentiasa marah?
seorang lagi rakan lelaki sewaktu aku di seremban sempat mengutuk aku dihadapan junior kami
"tengok senior awak kak farhana tu. tunggu kami dua jam pun sabar je, tak reti nak marah langsung".
memang kurang asam.
aku teringin nak jadi watak perempuan yang boleh luahkan perasaan dengan jujur; marah sedih gembira. aku bukan nak kata aku tak pernah marah tapi sejujurnya diam ketika marah adalah lebih baik. at least untuk diri aku sebab once aku dah naikkan suara pada seseorang aku akan rasa tubuh aku menggigil dan menangis. i really can't do it.
dan bekerja dalam bidang khidmat pelanggan sangatlah mencabar untuk seorang introvert seperti aku. maksudnya dalam apa-apa situasi yang emosional seorang introvert memerlukan masa bersendirian untuk mengecas segala urat yang berselirat dalam otak dan hatinya. aku pilih untuk diam kalau aku tengah marah dan elakkan diri dari bercakap atau bertembung dengan orang lain.
tapi macam mana kalau kau terpaksa juga berinteraksi dengan orang yang membuatkan emosi kau tak stabil (marah)?
aku bukanlah orang yang terbaik dalam pengurusan emosi tapi mungkin tips2 di bawah aku boleh kongsikan kepada mereka yang rasa mereka sangat emosional dan cepat sentap.
1. dalam semua keadaan, cuba bercakap dengan suara yang rendah (tanpa tone) dan sedikit lambat-lambat. ia akan nampak kau macam malas nak layan orang tu tapi ia lebih baik daripada meninggikan suara. cuba cover dengan senyuman plastik. aku rasa gaya bercakap yang sedemikian boleh buat kau bertenang seketika dan berfikir dengan lebih rasional.
2. kalau perlu diam sebentar, pandang tempat lain. kau kena kawal diri kau dulu sebelum kau nak kawal orang yang sedang melancarkan perang emosi dengan kau. kalau perlu minta bantuan orang lain kalau kau rasa pelempang kau terasa sangat ringan untuk dilekapkan ke pipi manusia tersebut.
3. orang akan jadi emosional jika dia rasa tergugat, kerana itu dia akan cuba menggugat emosi kau juga. dalam customer service line, customer is not always right. but customer is always a customer. jika dia seakan tidak makan saman dengan penerangan berjela kau, jump into the solution of the problem. contoh;
customer: tapi poster promotion tu ada kat bawah buku tu, supposely la buku tu ada promotion
staff: minta maaf tapi puan perlu tengok gambar dan description kat poster tu. ia lain dengan barang yang puan amik ni. setiap promotion yang kami ada akan dilekatkan skali dengan sticker
customer: ah...mana boleh macam ni awak kelirukan customer
kau memang rasa nak cekik bunuh sula manusia jenis ini. percayalah ayat yang mereka lontarkan kadangkala lebih teruk dari ini ditambah carutan. sebab tu kau kena bertenang dulu. orang bodoh bertindak guna emosi, orang pandai guna otak. jadi tak guna berdebat dengan emosi tersebut, just jump to the solution
staff: baik, saya rasa ini semua salah faham. puan tersalah tengok gambar produk ni dan mungkin staff kami juga tak perasan poster ni dah beralih. jadi sekarang puan nak buku yang ada promotion atau yang tak ada?
dalam situasi yang sukar, mereka mungkin takkan mahu mengaku kalah. jadi penting untuk kau jadi tegas dalam lembut.
staff: minta maaf ye puan kami memang tak boleh bagi harga ni. puan boleh decide untuk ambil atau tak
dan semua aksi diatas haruslah dibuat dengan tampalan senyuman plastik saiz A4 dan bahasa tubuh yang polite. kau mungkin akan dianggap kalah jika diukur dengan panjang teks debat dan kelantangan suara namun ketahuilah jika momen itu dirakam dan diulang tayang semula pada masa depan, at least normal human will feel embrassed to see themselves fighting for a little thing.
trust me, itu apa yang aku rasa bila aku pernah marah & tinggikan suara dengan parents aku. masa tu aku rasa aku betul, aku menang tapi bila aku ingat balik serius aku malu dengan diri aku sendiri. what if anak aku pun akan buat macam tu kat aku. situasi yang sama jika kita buat pada orang lain hatta kucing sekalipun. bumi ni bulat bila-bila masa saja kita boleh bertukar kedudukan dengan orang lain.
jadi jangan main angry birds, tak best pun. apa barang tembak khinzir, lebih baik kau tembak askar AS yang ceroboh Iraq tu hah. Fighting like a man, like tentera Al-Qassam.
Dan itu juga buat aku berfikir, kalaulah Rasulullah s.a.w boleh pinjamkan sedikit sabar baginda pada manusia akhir zaman ni. This world would be in peace forever.
k,bye
Saturday, 1 July 2017
sawatdee
assalamualaikum. greetings.
there are few things that i learned these day.
in thailand 'khun' (means you) is used for a respectful person (formal language), while 'p' is for informal language (usually among friends).
and thai people also make their greetings short as sawatdee (sawadikap is the long version).
useless thing that i learn, right?
well i did learn from thai drama that suddenly caught my interest. to tell you the truth some of them seriously much better than our lame malay drama and also korean drama (i stop watching suspicious partner just to finish a thai drama. marathon style).
so this entry is like a review of two drama that i watch. i am not promoting them, i just want to highlight some interesting point out of the drama.
1. fai lang fai (fire versus fire)
ohh i really love woman revenge drama (i did mention about 'temptation of wife' Philippine in my last entry did i?). dramanice just updated about new drama they sub and i just click randomly this drama (which actually aired in 2015).
first, i just mesmerised the beauty if the heroine. seriously how can a woman seem so flawless. i like her expression, her style which i feel like too good to be true (seriously she had tons of bold dress that i don't think people in hot country like thailand would wear. well except if you got umbrella and air condition with you all the time).
the first episode is like watching a tamil plus indonesia drama. they got stunt that seriously i feel cheesy (rolling on the road to save a woman, staring at her beauty when the truck is fucking near them). but i give it a chance, at least i finish the first episode. and the revenge story is just... make my mouth open. a man who want to take revenge of his former company partner slash best friend. he mention to his daughter (the heroine named leela) she should get him back a land cost 100 millions.
just to mention to you guys that the women drive a bmw sport car and for god sake she can just sold her car plus maybe a share of her own designer company to buy that land. but as always, drama dont use easy method. so she plan to approach the enemy's family by seducing his son and his son in law. plus messing with his arrogant daughter and the wife. but the hero (named narut) who initially have good relationship with leela turn into her enemy as to protect his family. and yes, you can guess when a fierce woman fight with a cool guy, they usually fall in love.
what i like about this drama is the strong character of leela. she is beautiful with fierce character. and i am glad that the character still preserve the asian woman culture that never give up to a man easily. i mean she never let narut kiss her (except at the head) like a lowly korean, american drama. a few scene that i think if it was a korean drama they probably had been kissed wildly or sleep together. there is actually a sex scene in this drama (about a secretary that sleep with few man and seducing his boss, and also actually leela is sleeping with narut) but they dont show it. which i do thank god a lot because nowadays korean drama has a lot of it (i miss the innocent old korean drama like full house and my girl).
this is a cliche revenge drama but some of the character is really interesting and the lines also amusing. for example a wicked secretary that seem want to be a femme fatale. she sleep with many men and seducing her boss which nobody could expect that with her innocent-specky appearance. she make evil plan with various man, pick a fight with the upper class ladies as she want to enter the high class society.
the lines that caught my attention is in the middle of luk yee (the daughter of the enemy) marriage crisis, both of her parents suddenly show up to plead her to eat and start to discuss about some nutricious food (yeah, weird). she look at them with a naive look and said she adore how her parents still being lovely to each other. she take them as example and figure out how to manage her marriage crisis.
another line would be 'i hope for 'dissapointment' today, but dont make me hate you'. yes when you want to broke up with someone, just said it directly. no need to be a bitch that say hurtful words.
lastly, i love the twist story about the revenge. it actually make sense for a man to plan a huge revenge not merely because of a land. overall, i like the storyline, i like the main character...although seriously some part really really dramatic and cliche.
2. full house (2014) thailand version
first of all, why thailand man character seem so 'jambu'? i mean nickhun 2PM can be manly and still popular, why the other thai guys had to be such a 'gay'? and worst of all, why they even have fans?
i warning you guys, this drama also had a really 'ladylike' looking guy which will make you annoying. it can't even be compared with the manly bi rain (full house korea version). it only can be forgiven as the heroine is super cute and sassy.
i would say this woman has lead the story to different aura than the korean version. she is not trying to become song hye kyo but make her own version of han ji eun. she had the same cute and sassy look (frizzy long hair) from the beginning till the end (han ji eun character change into feminine at the end of story). i would say oum-am character is much positive, smarter and calmer than han ji eun. the best part is how she struggle to become novelist and scriptwriter. compared to han ji eun who always type random thing on her laptop, oum-am always discussing about what she actually write with p'guy (the producer). she always read books and write random stuff on note book which is actually the habit of a real writer. like p'guy said he admire he her passion to write although she is far from be a good writer.
i love how they change the sequence of storyline, and some character but still preserving the original story. i would say this is the lighter version than the korean version and successfully highlight the thailand culture. but like i said earlier, this version have different aura than the korean version and no one is better than another. i still like han ji eun character at certain part and can't forget some of my favorite scene from full house korea.
the annoying side of full house thailand is just there are too many brands they are promoting like alicafe (why the hell malaysia brand is here?), febreeze and many more not to include korea tourism campaign. why you make such lovely story into an ad? urgh!
last but not least i just want to say....boku unmei no hito is finished!
my oh my i really love the story, so simple yet sweet.
as always i prefer japan drama than the other because of their simple yet brilliant ideas.
and most of them are still preserving asian culture (no wild kiss, sex scene). although i know the reality is they show that kind of stuff everywhere in the country (sex mags, and sex tools are easily available in japan).
but lets take the bright side. almost all my forever favorite drama come from japan (nodame cantabile, one litre of tears, rich man poor woman).
back to the drama, seriously it like watching a step by step tutorial in dating in a simple yet sooo romantic way. plus, destiny is playing its miracle in the main couple's life which make the story much much much more intersting.
i bet you will smile a lot as if you are the one who dating the guy.
at least much better than suspicious partner. yeah, you hear me writer-nim. i am so dissapointed that you make the two character sleep together. why ji wook has to sleep with his partner at almost all drama he starring in. don't make him a jerk actor.
well then, i should stop bickering now. bye.
there are few things that i learned these day.
in thailand 'khun' (means you) is used for a respectful person (formal language), while 'p' is for informal language (usually among friends).
and thai people also make their greetings short as sawatdee (sawadikap is the long version).
useless thing that i learn, right?
well i did learn from thai drama that suddenly caught my interest. to tell you the truth some of them seriously much better than our lame malay drama and also korean drama (i stop watching suspicious partner just to finish a thai drama. marathon style).
so this entry is like a review of two drama that i watch. i am not promoting them, i just want to highlight some interesting point out of the drama.
1. fai lang fai (fire versus fire)
ohh i really love woman revenge drama (i did mention about 'temptation of wife' Philippine in my last entry did i?). dramanice just updated about new drama they sub and i just click randomly this drama (which actually aired in 2015).
first, i just mesmerised the beauty if the heroine. seriously how can a woman seem so flawless. i like her expression, her style which i feel like too good to be true (seriously she had tons of bold dress that i don't think people in hot country like thailand would wear. well except if you got umbrella and air condition with you all the time).
the first episode is like watching a tamil plus indonesia drama. they got stunt that seriously i feel cheesy (rolling on the road to save a woman, staring at her beauty when the truck is fucking near them). but i give it a chance, at least i finish the first episode. and the revenge story is just... make my mouth open. a man who want to take revenge of his former company partner slash best friend. he mention to his daughter (the heroine named leela) she should get him back a land cost 100 millions.
just to mention to you guys that the women drive a bmw sport car and for god sake she can just sold her car plus maybe a share of her own designer company to buy that land. but as always, drama dont use easy method. so she plan to approach the enemy's family by seducing his son and his son in law. plus messing with his arrogant daughter and the wife. but the hero (named narut) who initially have good relationship with leela turn into her enemy as to protect his family. and yes, you can guess when a fierce woman fight with a cool guy, they usually fall in love.
what i like about this drama is the strong character of leela. she is beautiful with fierce character. and i am glad that the character still preserve the asian woman culture that never give up to a man easily. i mean she never let narut kiss her (except at the head) like a lowly korean, american drama. a few scene that i think if it was a korean drama they probably had been kissed wildly or sleep together. there is actually a sex scene in this drama (about a secretary that sleep with few man and seducing his boss, and also actually leela is sleeping with narut) but they dont show it. which i do thank god a lot because nowadays korean drama has a lot of it (i miss the innocent old korean drama like full house and my girl).
this is a cliche revenge drama but some of the character is really interesting and the lines also amusing. for example a wicked secretary that seem want to be a femme fatale. she sleep with many men and seducing her boss which nobody could expect that with her innocent-specky appearance. she make evil plan with various man, pick a fight with the upper class ladies as she want to enter the high class society.
the lines that caught my attention is in the middle of luk yee (the daughter of the enemy) marriage crisis, both of her parents suddenly show up to plead her to eat and start to discuss about some nutricious food (yeah, weird). she look at them with a naive look and said she adore how her parents still being lovely to each other. she take them as example and figure out how to manage her marriage crisis.
another line would be 'i hope for 'dissapointment' today, but dont make me hate you'. yes when you want to broke up with someone, just said it directly. no need to be a bitch that say hurtful words.
lastly, i love the twist story about the revenge. it actually make sense for a man to plan a huge revenge not merely because of a land. overall, i like the storyline, i like the main character...although seriously some part really really dramatic and cliche.
2. full house (2014) thailand version
first of all, why thailand man character seem so 'jambu'? i mean nickhun 2PM can be manly and still popular, why the other thai guys had to be such a 'gay'? and worst of all, why they even have fans?
i warning you guys, this drama also had a really 'ladylike' looking guy which will make you annoying. it can't even be compared with the manly bi rain (full house korea version). it only can be forgiven as the heroine is super cute and sassy.
i would say this woman has lead the story to different aura than the korean version. she is not trying to become song hye kyo but make her own version of han ji eun. she had the same cute and sassy look (frizzy long hair) from the beginning till the end (han ji eun character change into feminine at the end of story). i would say oum-am character is much positive, smarter and calmer than han ji eun. the best part is how she struggle to become novelist and scriptwriter. compared to han ji eun who always type random thing on her laptop, oum-am always discussing about what she actually write with p'guy (the producer). she always read books and write random stuff on note book which is actually the habit of a real writer. like p'guy said he admire he her passion to write although she is far from be a good writer.
i love how they change the sequence of storyline, and some character but still preserving the original story. i would say this is the lighter version than the korean version and successfully highlight the thailand culture. but like i said earlier, this version have different aura than the korean version and no one is better than another. i still like han ji eun character at certain part and can't forget some of my favorite scene from full house korea.
the annoying side of full house thailand is just there are too many brands they are promoting like alicafe (why the hell malaysia brand is here?), febreeze and many more not to include korea tourism campaign. why you make such lovely story into an ad? urgh!
last but not least i just want to say....boku unmei no hito is finished!
my oh my i really love the story, so simple yet sweet.
as always i prefer japan drama than the other because of their simple yet brilliant ideas.
and most of them are still preserving asian culture (no wild kiss, sex scene). although i know the reality is they show that kind of stuff everywhere in the country (sex mags, and sex tools are easily available in japan).
but lets take the bright side. almost all my forever favorite drama come from japan (nodame cantabile, one litre of tears, rich man poor woman).
back to the drama, seriously it like watching a step by step tutorial in dating in a simple yet sooo romantic way. plus, destiny is playing its miracle in the main couple's life which make the story much much much more intersting.
i bet you will smile a lot as if you are the one who dating the guy.
at least much better than suspicious partner. yeah, you hear me writer-nim. i am so dissapointed that you make the two character sleep together. why ji wook has to sleep with his partner at almost all drama he starring in. don't make him a jerk actor.
well then, i should stop bickering now. bye.
Sunday, 4 June 2017
Skru tercabut
Assalamualaikum. Greetings
Aku dan 300 calon interview gomen td berkongsi satu perasaan yg sama iaitu kecut perut bak hang.
Well who does not feel nervous when they are being judged by a higher power person.
Hmmm...maybe human do care about people judgemental especially to gt what they want. Ex when a girl love a boy she want to look good and kind infront of him, and maybe do some move to attract him in order to gain his love.
The question is, is that really important?
No i mean not the effort that she did but the thing that she want. A man. Something temporary and one day will break your heart or die.
The same cases with the thing that what us want today. A merely one job, a stable and fixed job in the government.
Does everyone found this job as something that they longed and passionate to do?
Or it is just as an escapnism of the hard life that they are having now?
Or is it because of money and fame?
Whatever it is i am not the one who judge them.because everybody has their own story. Stop mocking people just because you are not the same page with them.
Take note that.
So this is actually about survival? Maybe. Because the i think for me it is the way to know yourself.
Whatever you want in life you must make effort to get it. You, not the connection that your father has. Because for that case you are not really knew yourself and your potential. You would not know what are your capability. And you wont know if the failure might lead you to something that suit you more.
God is busy. But He never ever stop care.
I am sleepy. I dont know how to end this entry. Ttyl.
Aku dan 300 calon interview gomen td berkongsi satu perasaan yg sama iaitu kecut perut bak hang.
Well who does not feel nervous when they are being judged by a higher power person.
Hmmm...maybe human do care about people judgemental especially to gt what they want. Ex when a girl love a boy she want to look good and kind infront of him, and maybe do some move to attract him in order to gain his love.
The question is, is that really important?
No i mean not the effort that she did but the thing that she want. A man. Something temporary and one day will break your heart or die.
The same cases with the thing that what us want today. A merely one job, a stable and fixed job in the government.
Does everyone found this job as something that they longed and passionate to do?
Or it is just as an escapnism of the hard life that they are having now?
Or is it because of money and fame?
Whatever it is i am not the one who judge them.because everybody has their own story. Stop mocking people just because you are not the same page with them.
Take note that.
So this is actually about survival? Maybe. Because the i think for me it is the way to know yourself.
Whatever you want in life you must make effort to get it. You, not the connection that your father has. Because for that case you are not really knew yourself and your potential. You would not know what are your capability. And you wont know if the failure might lead you to something that suit you more.
God is busy. But He never ever stop care.
I am sleepy. I dont know how to end this entry. Ttyl.
Tuesday, 30 May 2017
bcb
as in bukan cinta biasa
*seriously aku tak suka guna tajuk lagu (sebab lame) tp aku nk jgk ltk tajuk ni
Sinopsis
Dalila bukan gadis yang perlukan teman lelaki dalam hidupnya. Dia baik, sederhana dari semua aspek dan... baik.
Dia pengikut fahaman 'no couple before marriage' yang tegar.
Tetapi apabila seorang lelaki mengubah status di Muka Buku 'In relationship with Dalila Othman', ia merubah segalanya.
Ia merubah dirinya yang tidak pernah pedulikan orang, anti sosial, kepada seorang yang sentiasa mahukan perhatian orang.
Merubah dirinya daripada penakut kepada berani.
Merubah dirinya daripada buruk kepada cantik.
Persoalannya, adakah cinta itu yang dia mahukan dari lelaki yang 'bukan lelaki biasa' ?
Adakah cinta mereka begitu luar biasa sehingga boleh menyelamatkan nyawa seseorang dan mengadili masa lampau seseorang?
Well sebenarnya idea ni dah lama tapi seriously aku rasa lame sgt. a woman change a man. idea lama mmg sgt lame dan tak membuktikan apa2 yang berguna.
tapi aku tengok video motif viral semalam tntg satu aktivis R. Age.
dan aku rasa mungkin aku boleh sambung cerita ni.
*seriously kalau korang tengok doc aku banyak gile cerita yg tergantung, cerita yg acah2 best padahal yang siap hanya brapa ketul je.
* itupun x berani nk tunjuk orang
*seriously aku tak suka guna tajuk lagu (sebab lame) tp aku nk jgk ltk tajuk ni
Sinopsis
Dalila bukan gadis yang perlukan teman lelaki dalam hidupnya. Dia baik, sederhana dari semua aspek dan... baik.
Dia pengikut fahaman 'no couple before marriage' yang tegar.
Tetapi apabila seorang lelaki mengubah status di Muka Buku 'In relationship with Dalila Othman', ia merubah segalanya.
Ia merubah dirinya yang tidak pernah pedulikan orang, anti sosial, kepada seorang yang sentiasa mahukan perhatian orang.
Merubah dirinya daripada penakut kepada berani.
Merubah dirinya daripada buruk kepada cantik.
Persoalannya, adakah cinta itu yang dia mahukan dari lelaki yang 'bukan lelaki biasa' ?
Adakah cinta mereka begitu luar biasa sehingga boleh menyelamatkan nyawa seseorang dan mengadili masa lampau seseorang?
Well sebenarnya idea ni dah lama tapi seriously aku rasa lame sgt. a woman change a man. idea lama mmg sgt lame dan tak membuktikan apa2 yang berguna.
tapi aku tengok video motif viral semalam tntg satu aktivis R. Age.
dan aku rasa mungkin aku boleh sambung cerita ni.
*seriously kalau korang tengok doc aku banyak gile cerita yg tergantung, cerita yg acah2 best padahal yang siap hanya brapa ketul je.
* itupun x berani nk tunjuk orang
Thursday, 11 May 2017
assalamualaikum.
i never believe i watch a bit of Temptation of Wife (philiphine) drama today. yes, i watch some of them on tv and also knew the storyline very well but still marian rivera (is the spelling right?) make me awe.
well lets talk about that later.
today is about ship.
drama fan would know what this term means.
1.nodame x shinichi
hehe. my first couple ship (that really goes extraordinary). a laughable, poor girl strive herself with her talent just to be with mr perfect. nodame is not an extraordinary girl. she just weird but unique. all her traits are really opposite with chiaki shinichi, the genius in music field.
a guy like him is too easy to adore. but a girl like her, who just rip off the closet that she been hiding in, step by step achieving something that she never knew. she just playing piano to be a kindergarten teacher but shinichi found her talent adorable. that's when the two of them get hooked with each other.
yes, many story like these la. but seriously you will never find a story that you had laugh so hard but at the same time knock your head and heart.
ayat -_-
2. makoto x hyuga
ofkos, my second love after nodame and shinichi. hehe.
i really think their relationship is simple (maybe you can use the term systematic also) yet interesting. a serious man really need some easy going girl to balance his craziness. and yes, who said makoto is a laughable easy girl. she had her own ambition and never being a crybaby. she solve her own problem and never make her family nor hyuga worry about her. she like to stand on her feet.
these couple really represent the difference between employee and employer role very well. of course japan is full of workaholic people. and this story just suitable for people (especially youth) to understand the reality of working world.
kyaa and i like makoto cuteness plus hyuga childish.
3. asou kun x aya ikeuchi
still..a japan drama. i prefer japan couple because they seem more realistic than korean drama couple. at least they don't come with balloon in the car proposal, or decorating the flower garden for proposal.
so asou and aya can be categorised as an innocent first love couple. they are classmates that happen to be click with each other because of their opposite character and fate. asou is a cold guy and always been sarcastic with the sweet aya kun. somehow aya can accept it as she believe asou is a good guy and friend.
asou is the one who treat her the same after the sickness got tough. he enjoys talks with her, like the normal guy attracting to a girl. i think everyone would agree that they suit each other no matter how bad the situation. but seriously it is really hard to make their love realistic.
if you love someone then you have to be responsible with it. and asou know, no matter how hard he try, he still not capable to be a responsible guy towards aya. he has no power to do so. aya is the one who realised that fact and although she feels the same to asou, she know it is a tough love. she had to let go of her hand.
true love does not need a proposal, a declaration. you just know it is there. i really love their beautiful love story.
4. eun jung x ki hoon
the stubborn couple. really.
moon geun young really make me awe her seriousness. she is damn cool with her frown. haha. and the guy is a soft and gentle but when tough time come, he really the king of seriousness.
this is one of korea love story that not necessary emphasises on how a cute the main leads can become. it seems like another cinderella adaptation but you will forget about the cinderella once you meet the cold gaze girl, eun jung. lol.
actually many other drama couples that i adore but lets stop here.
back to the temptation of wife. hokeh... *sigh
i know the story is about a woman revenge towards her husband, her husband family and the bitch that take away his husband. basically this woman life had been destroyed by all those shiznit people. okay.
but somehow...i get the feeling of angeline when she felt really hate of herself for being slutty in front of her ex husband, marcell. she is the one boring wife his husband once claimed and now he want her badly (of course because of sex appeal. dont worry i dont watch that part as our country cable tv had cut it for everyone safety).she feels like 'nooo i dont want to do this. i hate him so much that i cant stand his face and all of himm'. she really had to follow his willing in order to proceed with her next plan.
after the unwanted encounter, she crying herself under shower...feeling dirty with herself.
it makes me just want to ask her a question.
when are these miserable thing started? how can you ever fall in love with that man that stole your dignity and ruin your life (also willing to kill you)? is this revenge really worth?
he is just a stupid guy so just let him die in hell with his fellow family and wife-to-be. don't ruin your life anymore with that bastard, he does not deserve to even touch you after all he done (which he seem never regret). for godsake why two incredible beauty and intelligent woman ever fall in love with the same stupid guy and goes all sorts of drama because of him?
dia bukan sultan brunei pun, setan. jauh sekali raja arab saudi.
he just a brat spoil rich guy who are sweet talker. he do nothing but being a mommy boy and flirting with all the beautiful woman. he disgust me.
so yes, you just need to find someone you worth to fight for. not because he/ she is rich (he/she can get broke),nor handsome (everyone gonna had wrinkler) nor a sweet talker and not even because you dont want to lose him to someone else.
just find a guy/girl you are comfort with to talk, to tell stories and problem. who knews and accept your weakness plus supporting where you weak at. just like how the couple above do compliment each other.
actually i just giving you an example of good couple that knew from drama. in real life many couple can also be your guidance towards a better love relationship. learn from them.
okay, mengantuk. ntah apa apa je yang aku tulis ni.
i never believe i watch a bit of Temptation of Wife (philiphine) drama today. yes, i watch some of them on tv and also knew the storyline very well but still marian rivera (is the spelling right?) make me awe.
well lets talk about that later.
today is about ship.
drama fan would know what this term means.
1.nodame x shinichi
hehe. my first couple ship (that really goes extraordinary). a laughable, poor girl strive herself with her talent just to be with mr perfect. nodame is not an extraordinary girl. she just weird but unique. all her traits are really opposite with chiaki shinichi, the genius in music field.
a guy like him is too easy to adore. but a girl like her, who just rip off the closet that she been hiding in, step by step achieving something that she never knew. she just playing piano to be a kindergarten teacher but shinichi found her talent adorable. that's when the two of them get hooked with each other.
yes, many story like these la. but seriously you will never find a story that you had laugh so hard but at the same time knock your head and heart.
ayat -_-
2. makoto x hyuga
ofkos, my second love after nodame and shinichi. hehe.
i really think their relationship is simple (maybe you can use the term systematic also) yet interesting. a serious man really need some easy going girl to balance his craziness. and yes, who said makoto is a laughable easy girl. she had her own ambition and never being a crybaby. she solve her own problem and never make her family nor hyuga worry about her. she like to stand on her feet.
these couple really represent the difference between employee and employer role very well. of course japan is full of workaholic people. and this story just suitable for people (especially youth) to understand the reality of working world.
kyaa and i like makoto cuteness plus hyuga childish.
3. asou kun x aya ikeuchi
still..a japan drama. i prefer japan couple because they seem more realistic than korean drama couple. at least they don't come with balloon in the car proposal, or decorating the flower garden for proposal.
so asou and aya can be categorised as an innocent first love couple. they are classmates that happen to be click with each other because of their opposite character and fate. asou is a cold guy and always been sarcastic with the sweet aya kun. somehow aya can accept it as she believe asou is a good guy and friend.
asou is the one who treat her the same after the sickness got tough. he enjoys talks with her, like the normal guy attracting to a girl. i think everyone would agree that they suit each other no matter how bad the situation. but seriously it is really hard to make their love realistic.
if you love someone then you have to be responsible with it. and asou know, no matter how hard he try, he still not capable to be a responsible guy towards aya. he has no power to do so. aya is the one who realised that fact and although she feels the same to asou, she know it is a tough love. she had to let go of her hand.
true love does not need a proposal, a declaration. you just know it is there. i really love their beautiful love story.
4. eun jung x ki hoon
the stubborn couple. really.
moon geun young really make me awe her seriousness. she is damn cool with her frown. haha. and the guy is a soft and gentle but when tough time come, he really the king of seriousness.
this is one of korea love story that not necessary emphasises on how a cute the main leads can become. it seems like another cinderella adaptation but you will forget about the cinderella once you meet the cold gaze girl, eun jung. lol.
actually many other drama couples that i adore but lets stop here.
back to the temptation of wife. hokeh... *sigh
i know the story is about a woman revenge towards her husband, her husband family and the bitch that take away his husband. basically this woman life had been destroyed by all those shiznit people. okay.
but somehow...i get the feeling of angeline when she felt really hate of herself for being slutty in front of her ex husband, marcell. she is the one boring wife his husband once claimed and now he want her badly (of course because of sex appeal. dont worry i dont watch that part as our country cable tv had cut it for everyone safety).she feels like 'nooo i dont want to do this. i hate him so much that i cant stand his face and all of himm'. she really had to follow his willing in order to proceed with her next plan.
after the unwanted encounter, she crying herself under shower...feeling dirty with herself.
it makes me just want to ask her a question.
when are these miserable thing started? how can you ever fall in love with that man that stole your dignity and ruin your life (also willing to kill you)? is this revenge really worth?
he is just a stupid guy so just let him die in hell with his fellow family and wife-to-be. don't ruin your life anymore with that bastard, he does not deserve to even touch you after all he done (which he seem never regret). for godsake why two incredible beauty and intelligent woman ever fall in love with the same stupid guy and goes all sorts of drama because of him?
dia bukan sultan brunei pun, setan. jauh sekali raja arab saudi.
he just a brat spoil rich guy who are sweet talker. he do nothing but being a mommy boy and flirting with all the beautiful woman. he disgust me.
so yes, you just need to find someone you worth to fight for. not because he/ she is rich (he/she can get broke),nor handsome (everyone gonna had wrinkler) nor a sweet talker and not even because you dont want to lose him to someone else.
just find a guy/girl you are comfort with to talk, to tell stories and problem. who knews and accept your weakness plus supporting where you weak at. just like how the couple above do compliment each other.
actually i just giving you an example of good couple that knew from drama. in real life many couple can also be your guidance towards a better love relationship. learn from them.
okay, mengantuk. ntah apa apa je yang aku tulis ni.
Sunday, 7 May 2017
mat and his friends
Assalamualaikum.
Greetings.
Well to be honest, i am quit a youtube maniac. I watch various video at any time just for fun.
And yeah i got certain favorite channel that i must never miss every week.
Well i dont want to reveal what they are as this entry is not to promote them. I dont get paid if i write about them. Lol
Ok, i seldom know stupid viral thing as i dont open my facebook that much to know what the lala is going on in this world. So yes today i watch some of them (which surprisingly few of them actually taken a year ago and i only watch today) and hokeehhh...
i miss (especially) these people.
i know sarcasm and mean jokes these days are going to the top just to prove human being are bloody fool and desperate. they want to be recognised for stupid little thing. and Malaysian young youtubers used to be as cool as matluthfi, aiman azlan and anwar hadi (and later the ming thing. i am sorry i dont know your name) that speak for their generation, our generation in a chill and layback style.
Greetings.
Well to be honest, i am quit a youtube maniac. I watch various video at any time just for fun.
And yeah i got certain favorite channel that i must never miss every week.
Well i dont want to reveal what they are as this entry is not to promote them. I dont get paid if i write about them. Lol
Ok, i seldom know stupid viral thing as i dont open my facebook that much to know what the lala is going on in this world. So yes today i watch some of them (which surprisingly few of them actually taken a year ago and i only watch today) and hokeehhh...
i miss (especially) these people.
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| all married (except the last one) |
it dont have to be a serious issue, but at least like anwar hadi said 'it makes common sense'. they do their research before said something and that makes we think a lot. even the ming thing can talk about our mix culture country in a very touching video.
making video also can generate income as they established their own brand and follower, like how wangfu production do. yes, if you being serious in the thing that you actually love to do it will bring fortune to you.
"that relevant for international youtuber. malaysian cannot do it"
well go research 'mr theallshared' and just stalk what they actually do.
not like some stupid bollocks saying stuff about products (that i never ever heard) in her broken english and call that a brilliant marketing. pftt.
and yes, some of the youtuber that make parody said social media is a medium of free speech and thought. we can say whatever we want and nobody is wrong to defend their thought.
well..yes, you know the person you been bashing is a stupid one, why bother her/him? you dont have a life? is there any better person you can actually talk about and make them as inspiration to the viewer?
just get some common sense.
it is free of charge.
unless you dont have a brain and a heart.
*thank god mat and his fellow youtuber friends were hit few years ago. if not they surely gonna be featured in motif viral. which will make them so lame
#nooffensereally
Friday, 5 May 2017
twenty plus five
assalamualaikum.
greetings.
yesterday was my birthday
*put bogum voice singing birthday song here
=p
well..truthfully, i kinda don't like to be the centre of attention. my friends used to announce my birthday loudly in our class and i was like embarrassed to death. birthday is not a big deal for a matured lady like me (pfttt), it only reminds me that i getting old.
anyway i am not gonna talk about me. the day had passed by the way. it just this thought crossed my mind a couple hours ago.
my dad and my mom.
the one that bring me to this world on that very day of five may nineteen ninety two.
i admit that... i am really not close to them. well it just i am raised to be like that. so does my siblings.i think it is not a negative thing but yes, sometimes it makes us awkward as we never ever talk from heart to heart.
few incidents in my life happen couple of years ago that make me distance myself from them. again, it is just i am more comfortable that way. i really dont want them to know what the things that i worry the most, the thing that i actually dream to do and achieve, the kind of life that i long for. i am comfortable with myself, with my books, with my laptop and drama...the totally anti sociable plus introvert person.
and i know it is a selfish thing to do because at the end of the day i always blame them without giving them a chance or understand them.i am the one who dont want to talk about the reality. i am the one who run away from my own reality. i am the one that never understand what life means.
well...dear me (talking to myself) just remember how lucky you are.
i am dedicating this entry to my father especially
*although he never knew the existence of this blog
*mom can wait okay?
remember when you always has a weak body that cannot stand the heat after playing so hard at KLCC park? you almost faint that your father carry you in his shoulder all the way from the park to car parking lot. and for godsake it happen when you're 9 & 12 years old!!
*yes, he did complain about it but does ever you feel how hard it is to do that? in the future, do you able to carry him if he getting weak and sick?
remember when your father always give the best thing to you
*world theory: elder children always get the best thing
do you remember he buy you the study lamp that he never give to other siblings just because you always like to burn the midnight oil? *alert nerd student
do you remember he buy you some weird thing that maybe seem has less value but it just special because he thinking about you . and you are so excited about it
*my father used to buy me this thing without no reason
remember when you buy him a shirt with your first salary and he wears it a really lots of time like showing to the world this is his best shirt
remember when you buy him another shirts (because actually there's a sale) and he told you to buy for your mom too
remember when you are homesick after raya break (during diploma time), you can't reach your mom cellphone and call him instead. remember you are crying to him just because it is too hard to be alone and to be miss them a lot
*and then the next day got teased by roomate for crying in sleep
remember when he is so reluctant to allow you to go anywhere (friend wedding, camp, uni ceremony) and you throw tantrum at him because your younger brother had his freedom easier than you
remember when he gave you a mineral water after you had a diarrhoea, lost a lot of water and been admitted to a specialist hospital. remember how you can see in his eye that he care about you
remember when you throw tantrum not going to school (primary school) and he scold you hard enough plus ignoring you for days that make you really guilty
remember when you crying for being a part from him and your mom (when you mother is going to deliver your brother in KL) and he follow your will to absent from school and come to KL waiting for the baby.
most of the time, i know you kinda dislike him. he and his ego. he and his illogical thought. he and his ....whatever that piss you a lot like hell. just... whenever you had amnesia or lost your memory. just remember these things.
and also, you might not remember, his smile when the doctor told him about your mom pregnancy. the smile when he hear your voice for the first time. you never knew or remember what his thought for all these time carrying the responsibility to be your father. your guardian. your own angel and knight in shining armour.
you can get angry with him, but never stop pray for him.
you can bickered him, but never hate him.
you can stay away from him, but never leave him.
that's your father. one of the reason why Allah s.w.t still allow you to be alive no matter how screw you are. because beside your mom, he the one who always pray for you. who never forget you. who love you... *tears
just be good to him, will you?
happy birthday to me.
greetings.
yesterday was my birthday
*put bogum voice singing birthday song here
=p
well..truthfully, i kinda don't like to be the centre of attention. my friends used to announce my birthday loudly in our class and i was like embarrassed to death. birthday is not a big deal for a matured lady like me (pfttt), it only reminds me that i getting old.
anyway i am not gonna talk about me. the day had passed by the way. it just this thought crossed my mind a couple hours ago.
my dad and my mom.
the one that bring me to this world on that very day of five may nineteen ninety two.
i admit that... i am really not close to them. well it just i am raised to be like that. so does my siblings.i think it is not a negative thing but yes, sometimes it makes us awkward as we never ever talk from heart to heart.
few incidents in my life happen couple of years ago that make me distance myself from them. again, it is just i am more comfortable that way. i really dont want them to know what the things that i worry the most, the thing that i actually dream to do and achieve, the kind of life that i long for. i am comfortable with myself, with my books, with my laptop and drama...the totally anti sociable plus introvert person.
and i know it is a selfish thing to do because at the end of the day i always blame them without giving them a chance or understand them.i am the one who dont want to talk about the reality. i am the one who run away from my own reality. i am the one that never understand what life means.
well...dear me (talking to myself) just remember how lucky you are.
i am dedicating this entry to my father especially
*although he never knew the existence of this blog
*mom can wait okay?
remember when you always has a weak body that cannot stand the heat after playing so hard at KLCC park? you almost faint that your father carry you in his shoulder all the way from the park to car parking lot. and for godsake it happen when you're 9 & 12 years old!!
*yes, he did complain about it but does ever you feel how hard it is to do that? in the future, do you able to carry him if he getting weak and sick?
remember when your father always give the best thing to you
*world theory: elder children always get the best thing
do you remember he buy you the study lamp that he never give to other siblings just because you always like to burn the midnight oil? *alert nerd student
do you remember he buy you some weird thing that maybe seem has less value but it just special because he thinking about you . and you are so excited about it
*my father used to buy me this thing without no reason
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| i really don't even know what this thing called |
remember when you buy him a shirt with your first salary and he wears it a really lots of time like showing to the world this is his best shirt
remember when you buy him another shirts (because actually there's a sale) and he told you to buy for your mom too
remember when you are homesick after raya break (during diploma time), you can't reach your mom cellphone and call him instead. remember you are crying to him just because it is too hard to be alone and to be miss them a lot
*and then the next day got teased by roomate for crying in sleep
remember when he is so reluctant to allow you to go anywhere (friend wedding, camp, uni ceremony) and you throw tantrum at him because your younger brother had his freedom easier than you
remember when he gave you a mineral water after you had a diarrhoea, lost a lot of water and been admitted to a specialist hospital. remember how you can see in his eye that he care about you
remember when you throw tantrum not going to school (primary school) and he scold you hard enough plus ignoring you for days that make you really guilty
remember when you crying for being a part from him and your mom (when you mother is going to deliver your brother in KL) and he follow your will to absent from school and come to KL waiting for the baby.
most of the time, i know you kinda dislike him. he and his ego. he and his illogical thought. he and his ....whatever that piss you a lot like hell. just... whenever you had amnesia or lost your memory. just remember these things.
and also, you might not remember, his smile when the doctor told him about your mom pregnancy. the smile when he hear your voice for the first time. you never knew or remember what his thought for all these time carrying the responsibility to be your father. your guardian. your own angel and knight in shining armour.
you can get angry with him, but never stop pray for him.
you can bickered him, but never hate him.
you can stay away from him, but never leave him.
that's your father. one of the reason why Allah s.w.t still allow you to be alive no matter how screw you are. because beside your mom, he the one who always pray for you. who never forget you. who love you... *tears
just be good to him, will you?
happy birthday to me.
Sunday, 30 April 2017
you are the fighter and perfectionist 2
Assalamualaikum.
I wonder why the coolest person that i admire before can turn like this.
yes, she being successful and everything but part of me screaming for her old self.
like seriously.
I wonder why the coolest person that i admire before can turn like this.
yes, she being successful and everything but part of me screaming for her old self.
like seriously.
i really not in a position to say anything about her. forgive me. i do have my own flaw. i just pray that we all strive to be a good muslim, a good person. chaiyok girls.
continue with the list. yeah like anyone bother to know. like how anyone bother neelofa get the top awards in AME. ok, please stop talking about other people.
4. Miss H, the strict teacher.
banyaknya masalah hang ni asenya tntg keluarga
its ok
stabilkan diri dulu
expectation family yang buat kamu penin ni..am i right?
pasal ckp2 orang luar jgn layan
Allah tak pernah salah atur, kamu kena yakin tu
Allah Maha Hebat, Allah takkan pernah salah or tak pernah letak sesuatu benda yang hang tak mampu
U know that right
Istighfar dear, selawat byk2
setiap apa yang berlaku ada hikmahnya, ada org dpt ujian lagi hebat
cari tempat yg buat kamu rasa tenang
bukan lari dr masalah tp bg kamu blh berfikir waras semula
segala masalah hang ni Allah yang boleh selesaikan semuanya
Al-Baqarah:186 Dan apabila hamba2-Ku bertanya kepadamu mengenai Aku maka (beritahu kepada mereka): sesungguhnya Aku (Allah) sentiasa hampir (kepada mereka); Aku perkenankanpermohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia berdoa kepada Ku. Maka hendaklah mereka menyahut seruanKu (dgn mematuhi perintah Ku) dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada Ku supaya mereka menjadi baik serta betul.
banyakkan baca Quran
baca sampai kamu cinta kepadanya
ingat semula kekuatan kamu masa kamu mula2 berubah
Garang tak cikgu H? Haha
5. Miss Alang the sister that you adore.
You have to clarify your target.Nak dapat kerja bidang you atau bidang lain yg you lebih enjoy
Masa muda ni terlalu berharga jgn biar berlalu tanpa you rasa puas dgn apa yang you dah isi utk masa muda you
Fardhu ain kena settle cecepat. Jangan tunggu ada masa lapang baru nk isi dengan daurah/kls agama. Kena ada peruntukkan masa utk settlekan urusan agama especially urusan fardhu ain.
Kena ada target yg you nk capai tahun ni, 5 tahun akan dtg & seterusnya.Bila ada target baru nmpk nk ikut jalan mana. Sebelum ada target kenalpasti dulu you nk dpt apa dlm hidup
nasihat dari kakak yang dah tua
All the things she said so true, and you already know. Yet you can read it in Solusi, or al-Ustaz. the different thing is she know you and care about you. that tarbiah sentap means to me.
6. Miss NS, the good writer.
mcm akak dulu, akak just quit. because I like to think of
the consequences later.
but 'berenti terus tak berfikir' ni kena ada pencetus. kalau
takde pencetus, nanti bahaya. what i mean is, for me, masalah akak ialah
"Oh my God, I am sick of all these actors and their stupid
I-am-so-important statements. I have a degree in Political Science, what the
hell am I doing???" dan kehidupan yg terlalu busy dan tak setimpal dgn
kerja
but then bila bos kata yang "I need a writer that can
also be a salesperson", itu pencetusnya
pencetus meaning that as you quit, you have this mindset
that "I will prove you wrong". The survival mode kicks in
tapi kalau takde pencetus yg boleh buat survival mode kick
in, tapi still rasa nak berhenti, just carilah kerja lain sementara awak still
kerja kat tempat skrg
kalau tak, perasaan nak mengalah dan rasa you have make
stupid decision tu akan jadi lebih kuat
tapi akak mmg salu berpegang pada kata2 ini.
your salary - in a way - is what your boss think you're
worth
so are you worth that much pay? are you worth less? or worth
more? What is your worth, to yourself?
Like me, I worth every hard work and laziness that I am. So
that's why I do freelance. That way, I determine my worth.
harap membantu
I always feels guilty to have disturbing her withe my problem. but sometimes..stranger do have the kick to move your brain to its right position.
7. Miss L, the good boss
i never want to stop you from doing what you want to do. even if i would be in the lost position.
but first you have to clarify and confident with the decision that you make
if you want to quit, what you gonna do? you gonna spend the whole time seeking job or continue with this job but at the same time seek job outside
if you want to do the second options you must arrange your time. let say every early month you had save the date to find job and go to interview. take one or two day rest. i don't mind so long as your annual leave is not finished yet.
the important thing is if you feel pressure with people, either you family or your co-worker, communicate with them. tell them how you feel, what you actually do to at least to fill up a bit of their expectation. show them and explain to them.
otherwise you will be in the same position and the problem never settled.
woah. i save Miss L for the last because she is really a good leader. thank you. well fyi she dont speak english to me actually.
thats all for todaay. hapa kau ingat kau punya entri kira motivate gila mcm Aiman Azlan or Budak Tomato?
well of course not. aku cuma nak bgtau diri aku akan datang yang apa2 pun situasi yg kau hadap, remeber these precious people including your parents. eventhough you have no guts to actually have a heart to heart chat with your mom or dad (seriously cringe) just know that they love you. and you have to actually find the chance, give the chance so people and fate can give you the same chance to your life.
read Quran. Solat!
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