Binge watch : Adellea sofea episod 12- 16

Akhirnya seminggu sudah berlalu makanya kita khatamkan semua episod sekali jalan.
Supaya rasa sakit hati boleh dikurangkan.

Iya, saya ada banyak aduan nak buat tentang awak, Fir. Yes, you really getting on my nerves more than i hate Gu Junpyo in Boys Over Flower.

1. I hate the fact that you lie and you tend to make fun of it.
"Ohh, suzie we just tell sofea a lie so that she can stop interrupting our business. she is so fussy, so busy body and can't let me have my own space. she is just a wife and i bet she will forgive me when i start making stupid jokes with her"(this is the conclusion of fir thought about sofea)

then you making face and say stupid thing just to change the topic.

HUHHHHHH! I AM SO DONE WITH YOU!

my pet peeves is someone not getting serious in a thing that i think veryyyy seriously. okay, ungku ismail, you got me this time. you really make me hate fir.

2. You lie you lie you lieeeeeeee! and the fact that you have the guts to raise guilt in sofea for accusing you and shout at her when she making mistakes (being together with zaim) is really unacceptable.

Omaigod, you are the most despicable creature on earth, more than joe golberg (a character from You). At least Joe manipulates his prey with his decent puppy eye and brilliant mischievous tactics but youu omaigooddd you are so annoying, arrogant and bloody thrash.

okay come down.huh. *take a deep breath

i dont want to review suzie character. of course, everyone would pity her for being desperate.

okay,  i did agree with sofea action at the end of episode 16. she seeks advice from the right authority just to understand your struggle. yes, maybe like me, she confronts this problem with her emotion without really thinking of you as her husband.
me as well as other audience would try to understand what is so hard to be fir that has to take the drug just so he can live on and neglecting the perfect wife beside her.

watching these episodes makes me realise that every family has their own flaws. one would be so afraid when their family member involves with problems like a drug addict. but they never realise the thing that they afraid of is not because they could lose that troubled family member. but they are more afraid of society interpretation, their reputation.

i guess whatever happens or will happen to me or my family, i  should exclude the society opinion just so me and my family can fix it in our way. it might take time, it might be so hard. but the journey to becoming a better person through a tragedy is priceless. it just Allah want me to learn it in a hard way.

okay, done mengamuk kat fir.
i told you i can watch it every day as it will make me feel down. so the option is binge watch it every week. till now, bye.

Binge drama watching : you season 2

So these past two days i binge-watching you season 2.

Well, i prefer this drama series over adellea sofea. Well what you prefer, a drama about a married man and woman who have a secret with each other and stupid people around them or a drama about a psychopath yet 'decent' guy who very strategic in winning woman's love.

Of course, i choose penn badgley over ungku ismail aziz.

So after killing Beck in the first season & surprise us with the appearance of Candace at the final episode, Joe changes his name into Will. Or to be exact he stole the identity of Will Bettleheim, a sort of dealer,fixer. Joe meets Will to get a new identity but it takes a long time. So as he desperate to run away from Candace he just punches him and steals his identity instead.

So guest what happen to the real Will? Make a way for The Cage. The same cage that Joe has back in NY. He put the real Will there just so he can use his identity to win over Love, his new love crush.

Well, things get to quick with Love. Joe try to restrain himself from falling in love as he knows Candace might catch him in action. And the fact that he dont want to hurt Love.But it takes two to the tango, eventually, we will found that Love is as broken as Joe so they kinda match made in heaven.

So the issue that i want to highlight here is:

1. of course, for Muslim people, we must avoid zina. so i don't know why joe is so hot stuff that he have sex with a various woman (ever since season 1). even with his neighbour Delilah. I mean, joe personality alone is interesting enough so why not be a normal virgin guy who would married a normal virgin girl.
pfft what do you expect, he is a psychopath.
well, i am annoyed with the fact that at most of the time, it is the woman who gave in their body to this guy. 

so the lesson we get here is, avoid zina. yes, in a movie or drama it is sound thrilling but reality can be harsh. either you end up sleeping with a psychopath who leeches on you like a crazy person or having an unexpected baby when you are broke (which lead to family issue), being killed (like what happened to Delilah) or dumped when he is not into you anymore or many more. i seem like taking on woman side but believe me, the damage is on us.

2. the minority issue really getting on my nerves. can people see how stupid it is for a human to have LGBTQ lifestyle. like what happen to two of Love's best friends Lucy and Sunrise. They are lesbian couple who have an adopted daughter. their wedding scene at the end of episodes are so...weird for me. can you understand the feeling of their daughter and how miserable she can be. she might grow up thinking of she should find a good girlfriend and wife to be married.

somehow i miss emma stone's school society in Easy A.

they are talking about their first encounter and how beautiful their life become after meeting with each other. seriously, these people are sick. i should watch back ustaz wadi video

3.
as i am watching the drama,actually i don't know if this only happen to me but at first, i see candace as a distraction. somehow i am rooting for joe when he is planning to avoid her or expose her evil plan. but actually from the beginning till the end, candace is the true hero of the drama. he just a woman who wants to protect other women from having the same fate as her, and Beck. which is the character we need in society. not some bitch who underestimate or bully or just don't care about other woman issues.

at first, when she exposes joe true identity to Love, i just confused on why everyone around joe seems to relax. yes, they don't know yet that he is a killer but seriously don't they have a bit suspicious about his background? i guess that is the fact in our society. the media have reported sexual harassment against woman cases but the woman herself being blame. candace have a hard time to tell the truth to the policewoman, Love, Delilah and Forty. And when Delilah and Forty finally believe her, it is too late. I won't tell the spoiler about what happened to Candace.

4. as someone on the net said, bad people, is actually a good people that been hurt. you know how bad things can be stop? it is when we stop doing the same bad thing to others. even if we had a rough childhood, that does not mean we can harm other people. Love is a good sister who very protective with his twin brother. She the one who murder their nanny but she put the blame on his brother and let him live in confusion .it only end up damaging his life. he can never be happy living in a lie.

i cant sympathize anymore with Love's struggle to bring back her family together as all she did is throwing blame on anyone else, act like she is a free person but always use money as a solution to every problem that she had. and to be honest, i never like her character since the first episode when she throwing herself at joe. yes, she did defend a muslim girl in the second episode but like i said, that does not mean she can do crime and escape from the punishment.

she is as broken as joe. she is the second joe. and i am glad they end up together with joe feeling caged with their relationship. i guess he realised that all these while, he never love anyone. he just obsesses with them. like his new obsession, the neighbour.

the first season, at most time joe are too dependent with the social media and that is an insult towards human generation right now. the social media can be a medium for bad people like joe to enter our life and make damage.
the second season of You portray more on joe's struggle about his past, about how he want to repent from all the crime he did. but like the poster said, 'He meets his match'. He cant change or repents when the people around him is as toxic as he is.
and yes, again. just because he is good in one particular thing does not mean we can let go of the crime that he made. even if it is for justice, but he is not God to decide who deserve to live or die.
He has the same concern towards Ellie as he did with Paco from the first season. But that does not mean he is not guilty of the crime that he did towards their guardian.

so as a conclusion, i like the storyline but tbh i kinda despise everyone in that drama excluding candace, forty and ellie. basically it tell us how toxic person can be worse in toxic society.

Aku jadi stress lepas tengok Adelia Sofea episod 7 & 8

Mitos Cinta (dan apa-apa sajalah)

1. Dalam filem atau drama, orang yang paling tak percayakan cinta atau ikatan perkahwinan akan sentiasa end up dengan perhubungan yang bahagia dan hampir sempurna.
Sisi baiknya, ia mengajar kita untuk sentiasa berjaga-jaga.
Sisi buruknya adalah dalam realiti, orang yang tak percayakan cinta ni akan membujang dan hidup sendiri sampai ke hari kematiannya.

2. Lelaki seorang makhluk yang bermulut manis. Salah. Realitinya lelaki hanya akan bermulut manis dengan perempuan yang cantik. Atau mungkin masa tu dia sangat bosan.

3. Lelaki mempunyai 'visual attraction' manakala perempuan lebih memandang perkara sentimental. Seorang perempuan boleh jatuh cinta pada lelaki yang dengan gentleman nya membantu mereka mengangkat barang yang berat atau membantu mereka menukar tayar kereta.
Seorang lelaki pula boleh angau dan jatuh cinta pada seorang wanita cantik walaupun wanita itu sendawa dengan gaya paling tak senonoh.

4. Lelaki yang memuat naik status kecewa dan marah dengan teman wanita yang tidak jujur...saya ada satu soalan untuk awak.
Mesti teman wanita awak tu cantik kan? Seseorang takkan bodoh-bodoh bercinta dengan perempuan tak cantik hanya untuk dicurangi. Jadi jika awak nak bercinta buat kali kedua awak tahu kan dengan siapa awak patut bercinta. Again, salahkan visual attraction.

5. Dalam drama atau filem selalu ditunjukkan watak lady boss, perempuan jahat, cerewet, panas baran, perfectionist seorang yang cantik. Bagaimana jika seorang perempuan yang tak cantik memiliki semua ciri diatas? Adakah kaum lelaki akan melakukan demonstrasi tunjuk perasaan secara besar besaran?

6. Untuk perempuan yang mempunyai banyak skandal, tidakkah kalian kasihan dengan rakan kalian yang masih membujang?

7. Kepada penduduk negara media sosial Instagram, Facebook dan lain-lain lagi....sila senyap dan berambuslah kalian ke dunia realiti.

drama review: i wanna be suptar

yes, i spell it correctly. thats the title of the drama.

sebenarnya aku nak post benda ni dulu sebelum meteor garden. tapi aku tak seexcited mcm lepas tengok meteor garden.

one word after watching this drama..Gay.
-_-

aku memang annoying dengan tema gay dalam cerita ni. semua lelaki nak jadi gay aku macam .... bangang punya kaum lelaki.

ha kan dah termencarut.

pastu watak second heroin tu memang tak cukup kain gamaknya. aku tahulah thailand tu panasnya sama dengan malaysia tapi tak payahlah pakai skirt pendek tengah hari buta. kau tak takut sunburn ke? pakaian macam minta dirogol je.

*dah tu kalau kau tak suka kenapa kau tengok?

sebab aku suuuuuuuuuuuuuuukaaaaaaaaaaaaaa watak heroin dia. nama pelakon tu gypsy kalau tak silap. aku tengok dia dalam filem Lovesick. which is aku tak tahu kenapa dalam biodata wikipedia dia takde filem tu padahal best kot.

as usual, karakter dia sangat gila-gila dan selamba tapi dia masih nampak stunning. dia macam jung jihyun thailand.

bila kau tengok drama ni, kau takkan dapat halang diri kau dari kaitkannya dengan cerita full house. plotnya hampir sama, two stranger forced to live together in a house cuma yang ni dorang tak kahwin. yang ada hanya perjanjian teman serumah dan hanya beberapa orang saja yang tahu mereka tinggal serumah.

karakter heroin iaitu wan neung sangat bersungguh nak jadi pelakon atau dorg panggi Dara (like primadona title). so dia gigih try setiap audition, menyanyi, berlakon, MV, iklan...semua dia try. tapi dengan bakat yang sikit dan connection yang hampir tiada, susah untuk wan neung berjaya. dan ofkos dia nak jadi pelakon dengan hasil usahanya sendiri, bukan sebab keluarga dia yang kaya atau sebab dia tinggal serumah dengan pelakon popular,Win.

Win seperti watak Young Jae dalam Full House pelakon popular yang sudah semakin kurang tawaran berlakon. Kalau populariti Young Jae merudum sebab dia dah berkahwin, Win pula sebab terpalit kontroversi dengan video gay nya. Sampai awek sendiri pun kahwin dengan orang lain.

Jadi Win ni macam dah penat dengan dunia hiburan, mereka hanya offer job kepada dia sbb dia popular dengan video gay dia tu. Tapi sebab dia tengok kesungguhan WanNeung nak jadi pelakon, dia mula jadi mentor kepada gadis tu. They do script reading together, transform WanNeung character and style, dan lindungi gadis tu dari orang-orang jahat dalam industri termasuklah bekas pengurus Win.

Win mula terbuka hati nak terima tawaran berlakon sebab dengan cara tu dia dapat lindungi WanNeung. Mula-mula dia suka mengusik Wan Neung yang hanya akan mengalah dengan dia kalau dia ugut nak kiss atau hug perempuan tu. Tapi lama-lama dia memang jatuh suka dengan Wan Neung sebab kepolosan perempuan tu despite karakter gila-gila dia. Wan Neung tak expect dia akan bercinta atau dicintai Win sbb dia betul-betul ingat Win lelaki gay. So dia jadi stress bila sedar dia suka lelaki gay dan cuba tolak lelaki tu jauh-jauh.

Plot paling bodoh dalam cerita ni adalah Win decide cium kawan baik lelaki dia, Tom (yang juga gay dan sukakan Win) depan wartawan hanya untuk alihkan perhatian media pada gosip negatif yang jadi kat WanNeung.

-_-" apabenda seh. kau ingat sweet?

pastu as we all expected, Win biar diri dia terpalit kontroversi, dan hilangkan diri sekali lagi dari media. Dan WanNeung jadi pelakon yang semakin popular dan dalam satu temuramah, akhirnya dia dapat bersihkan nama Win.

So Win comeback and they live happily ever after.

the only thing that make me stay to watch this is because WanNeung karakter. Yang lain boleh dibaling ke longkang. haha

*admit la kau sebenarnya ada selebriti crush dengan Push (pelakon watak Win) jugak kan kan kan? Walaupun dia nampak macam bapok tapi kau tetap suka dia kan kan

okey, aku tak nak debatkan hal tu. dia memang nampak macam bapok. tp abs dia...shush shush dirty mind. okay, kena buat chant menghalau rasa 'suka' macam WanNeung selalu buat

"he is gay gay gay gay gay..."

drama review: meteor garden

yup
drama tahun bila la tu.
rasanya drama taiwan ni keluar tahun 2001.
aku darjah 3 masa tu.
dan ia mula popular kat malaysia (at least dalam circle kwn2 aku) tahun 2002, 2003 camtu.

dan aku masih tak terjebak dengan drama taiwan atau korea masa tu. bila kawan aku tunjuk video f4 aku cam 'seriously ni yang korang minat?'.

sekarang sila gelakkan diri sendiri sebab dah terjebak dengan the original f4.

ohmaigod, this is the best version of boys over flower series. i mean meteor garden 2001, bukan yang 2018 tu. kalau dulu aku paling minat dengan hana yori dango (boys over flower japan) tapi sekarang aku surrender dengan watak daoming si & shancai.

MG season 1
Mula mula aku paling menyampah dengan gaya f4 kecuali watak Lei. I mean, rambut Jerry Yan dalam citer tu sangat hodoh dan bodoh. Like seriously anak orang kaya mana yang ada rambut macam tu? Dan dua lagi f4 mei zuo (dear god, idk my ex-crush vanness is actually in this series) & xi men punya gaya sangat....hmm budak cina nerd sekolah aku dulu lagi hensem kot.

aku suka the reason shancai masuk sekolah ni. ia direct tanpa belok2 iaitu sebab mak dia ketegaq sangat nak naikkan taraf hidup dorg dari rakyat marhaen ke elit. lagipun shancai satu2 nya anak dorg so benda ni boleh diterima akal. bukan pretencious macam jandi yang konon masuk sekolah kaya sebab dia dah jadi heroin yang selamatkan sorg pelajar dari bunuh diri (haha aku tak tahu kenapa aku memang tak boleh suka karakter Jandi ni).

but the storyline, the character....are the best thing that i get. i expect shancai character to be more drama & pitiful than Jandi (BOF korea) or less funny than Makino (BOF japan). but it turn that she is the most strong character from those two and more towards tomboyish character. she always wears trousers but look so beautiful in dress. she often shout and scream but not in annoying way. you know like kirsten dust character as mary jane in spiderman series.

season 1 ni lebih banyak tunjuk drama keegoaan shancai nak mengaku cinta dia pada daoming si. in reality i will support her. but in dramaland, tbh it is tiring to watch it. memang kalau tengok drama ni aku rasa lebih banyak tunjuk drama cinta dorang lebih banyak dari komitmen dorang sebagai seorang pelajar. memang nampak kenaifan budak-budak kolej ni yang menjadikan cinta sebagai agenda utama dalam hidup diorang.

i am quite surprise yang cerita karakter sampingan meizuo dan xiao you tak dikembangkan sebagaimana dalam BOF korea dan japan. Mungkin Korea dan Japan lebih mengikut versi manga.

Kerana kenaifan budak-budak kolej nilah ending cerita ni jadi sesuatu yang simple but nice. bukan berakhir dengan perkahwinan or such. and i am glad takde plot hero terpaksa ke NY untuk komitmen kepada syarikat keluarganya dan melupakan si heroin kerana tanggungjawab itu.

which is aku rasa plot yang sangat annoy. "kau kata kau cinta aku, nak kawin dengan aku bagai lepas tu tetiba bila kau rasa kau terikat dengan komitmen pada keluarga dan syarikat kau nak buang aku. fuck ah". 
gitulah reaksi aku pada gu jun pyo (BOF korea) & damyouji (BOF japan).

but wait. where is the 'hilang ingatan' plot? adakah ia berjaya dihapuskan? nope. plot tu bersambung ke season 2.

MG season 2
Ia dimulakan dengan graduasi F4 dari kolej Yeng Di. So the couple daoming si & shancai merancang bercuti ke barcelona (wuuuu rindu cerita filipina Barcelona). Dua episod pertama the couple enjoy their sweet vacation together and suddenly bamm! reality bites.

Daoming si accident (bodoh gila kereta rosak pastu beli kereta orang lain tepi jalan) ketika on the way nak propose shan cai. pastu macam siri BOF yang lain dia lupa ingatan.

ketahuilah bahawasanya plot lupa ingatan ni adalah benda paling annoying selain plot hero tak pedulikan heroin dalam siri BOF. the good thing about the korea and japan version, plot ni sekejap je tapi dalam MG 2, hampir 20 episod si daoming si ni lupa ingatan.

ni yang aku benci ni. "huh kau dah buat aku suka gila kat kau pastu kau lupa aku. fucking asshole". gitulah reaksi aku.

karakter daoming si bertemu dengan karakter yen sha, gadis yang sangat baik hati dan rambut pendek yang cool. mula-mula aku nak benci karakter dia tapi bila dia tahu yang shancai (they met in unexpectedly and become good friend) adalah girlfriend lama daoming si, dia rela lupakan perasaan dia pada daoming si. dia decide nak travel ke serata dunia dan lupakan cintanya pada daoming si.

tapi daoming si tak nak lepaskan dia. yen sha lah perempuan yg dah tolong dia masa dia sakit, sabar dengan karenah dia selama ni. nak dijadikan drama, alasan lain yen sha nak blah sebab dia sebenarnya sakit. tp mak daoming si rasa yen sha perempuan terbaik untuk daoming si. dia lebih rela kawinkan anaknya dengan perempuan yang dah nak mati dari shan cai yang miskin.

apa punya mak.

so dia cipta background yen sha di mata media sebagai princess dari luar negara. dan yen sha tetiba berubah karakter lepas dia bertunang dengan daoming si atas sebab sbnrnya dia tak rela nak tipu daoming si macam tu. dia expect daoming si akan putuskan pertunangan mereka & balik dengan shancai. so dia tak kisah pun bila shan cai keje kat company daoming si & rapat dengan daoming si.

tapi daoming si tetap tekad nak cinta dan jaga yen sha. dia tak nak imbau balik masa lampaunya walaupun makin lama ingatannya masih pulih. aku suka the fact yang daoming si jadi seorang yang bertanggungjawab compare to karakter gu junpyo & damyouji. dia cuba menolak shancai tapi bila ingatan dia pulih sepenuhnya, dia sedar yang hatinya masih cintakan shancai.

kalau dia ni islam dah lama aku suruh dia kahwin dua.

shancai rela berkorban demi kebahagiaan daoming si. dia cuba nak move on dan pergi ke lei, tapi semuanya tak jadi macam yang dia nak.

ya, aku sebagai penonton pun rasa benda yang sama. barbie hsu sangat pandai berlakon wehh.

bila daoming si dapat tahu yen sha sakit, lagilah susah dia nak pilih. dia akan jadi manusia tak berperikemanusiaan kalau dia pilih shancai, tapi dia akan jadi manusia hipokrit kalau dia pilih yen sha. so at last dia pilih yen sha. dia nak jadi manusia yang bertanggungjawab. kalau cerita dia dan shan cai berakhir, dia tak kisah sebab sekurang-kurangnya dia jadi manusia yang bertanggungjawab macam yang shancai nak dia jadi.

beberapa bulan lepas tu, yen sha meninggal lepas travel satu dunia dengan daoming si. seperti yang semua orang harapkan, we want shancai & daoming si back!!!!!

shancai jadi travel agent ke barcelona, dan daoming si ikut dia sampai ke sana. they met tapi mula-mula dua-dua tak expect apa-apa dengan perhubungan mereka. kemudian shancai turun dari bas pelancong dia dan lari ke arah daoming si. kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...i love you girl.

they decide to be together. the scene end dgn dorg bickering with each other at church (menunjukkan the old shancai & daoming si is back) and kiss.waaaaa so sweet.

aku suka season 2 punya plot dan ending. in the korea & japan version, gu junpyo dan damyouji masih seorang anak orang kaya yang mengharap harta mak bapak. ye, they take over the company tp macam tu jela. watak daoming si lain, dia sanggup tinggalkan keluarga dan syarikat dia sbb dorang hanya mempergunakan dia sbg heir. bila dia bekerja kat syarikat dia tak buat kerja apa-apa pun as if dorg tak percayakan kemampuan dia. dan dia tak boleh terima mak dia masih nak tentukan arah hidup dia tanpa pedulikan perasaan dia.

daoming si ended be a very responsible guy, yang down to earth, kenal erti susah payah hidup dan makna cinta sebenar. the things yg tak ditunjukkan pada gu junpyo dan damyouji.shancai ended be a tough girl yang jadi pencinta sejati, tak ragu-ragu dengan cintanya pada daoming si. dia bukan lagi perempuan yang hanya tunggu untuk diselamatkan tapi berusaha untuk dapatkan cintanya balik. dia tak kisah mereka jadi kawan asalkan daoming si bahagia. dia kena move on dengan hidup dia walaupun dia masih cintakan daoming si. the prize for her tough and kind heart is she ended together with daoming si.

so at this point aku paling suka BOF versi ni. BOF japan is more towards funny humour love story, BOF korea mengannoyingkan aku dengan kebongkakkan mereka pada kemewahan dan the pretencious of the characters.

meteor garden begins with a childish love story but turn to teach you about responsibility in love.

kenapa sweet dream? bahagian 2

so lets get started!

the white hat thinking. meaning the positive thought or opinion over one issue.

1. the restriction of kinship between man and woman
I like the function of 'halal bag', the fact that mira filzah herself said ben amir and sean lee at most time respect her by not having skinship nor touch her. Which i believe can be seen by all audience. As i mention in my Instagram post, i don't like how many dramas actually normalized the kinship between man and woman just because they are 'married' in that drama.

2. the drama is soo beautiful
even if you are a hater, you can't deny that the drama looks very beautiful. from the promotion or trailer video and photo, the usual KL popular spots until the style of the character, all of them are beautiful. so credit to the visual editor ,photographer and cameraman.

3. the interesting script and catchphrase
To be honest, i am hooked to this drama because of cempaka's catchphrase "Baguslah, kita dapat seorang bisu seorang buta. Haa tepukkk".
Talking about the script, i like how they show the family bond and love not in a typical way. I mean other drama would show a 'happy family' type as a kind soft heart parent who never get angry and always positive, and children that so obedient and never misbehaved.
but in reality, every family have a flaw. and the kind of family that we see as broken family sometimes have their own version of happiness. lola is a tough mother who always shouts at her children, belittle them but at most time she is the most protective mother i ever seen on television.

4. Sweet dreams is like an experimental religion genre drama from michael ang. I like how he throw the current issue of being a muslim not necessary being a malay, can a non muslim go to visit muslim cemmentary, the power of doa and such from the character of uncle wong. From character of tuan fadil, i am really affected by his advise to putri that whatever situation or decision she make, she must respect her mother and not neglecting her.

5. And of course the ending. For the first ending, it is more realistic and therefore it make me depress. Yes, mira filzah has a point that she said putri should be dead a long time ago, so that ending would prove that no human can defeat Allah swt fate. It is sad but realistic ending. And make me realise no use to dating before marriage if you dont want to be depress like all audience. Pftt.
And michael ang also said that if one is given an ill-fated, he or she mostly would think more about his or her life in a wise way. Admit it how many would be grateful with Allah's gift and how many would turn  onto Him when facing obstacle or sad situation. 

6. The ost is the best thing that happen in this drama. All of them is the best.

I raise my case. Lets have the black hat thinking

1. Still, i am quit unsatisfied with the ikhtilat between putri and qash. Yes,they not having skinship but zina can happen as easy as look into the eye, whispering to each other ear, showing a cute and manja face. Some scene i found quite distracting as if i am ben amir, i would fall in love easily with mira filzah for her cuteness. Being cute is not a crime but dont overdo it. You never know how a man thought when you acting cute like that. To be safe, just dont act cute in front of ajnabi,save if after marriage.

2. I read one of the comment on youtube,saying that he worried that the entertainment people would use religion figure like pu azman to make illegal things legal. You know what i mean. For example, the fact that tuan fadil character that turn head over heels with lola, seem not suitable for a person that we know must take care of his ikhtilat.maybe one would say "there, pu azman is doing dating scene. So it means dating is halal". I am afraid that some of his action might mislead viewer who have little knowledge about islam.

3. Putri hijab style, and her outfit seem cute but to be honest, it is not syariah compliance. Often, the outfit seem to show her body shape and the hijab itself cannot cover the 'important part' to be covered. Well, to all BBNU, that kind of hijab style is not new. Back in 2005,2006 Bienda had that style. And during that time, i remember how my ustazah said that the style is not syariah compliance because you are treating the hijab like hair. The hijab suppose to cover the hair and some part of body, not giving a view about how a woman hair look like. You can google hijab style that prohibited by islam.

5. Maybe this is only me but...ben amir..can you stop being shirtless? I really have problem seing his nightmare scene because of that.

6.second ending is more to fairytale ending. Happily ever after. But as the viewer had seen the sad ending first, we already feels depressed. So yes, i dont dont the second ending as it give me much pressure than the first one. Seriously if you want to counter back the pressure from the first ending, please wrap it properly. I dont know, showing they are having a wedding with a horse maybe.
Last,for god sake, if the second happy ending means you have to repeat 55 minutes scene again (from the first ending), it is really cruel. Yes, i am not saying it is wrong,but it do make me angry. Grr

Heyyyy i did write full in english. Although i did write malay word like manja because i forget the word in english.

And whoever did accuse me for being a maniac or fanatic, well do write a post like this to prove that. Watching drama especially malay drama does not mean you are less cool or you are wasting your time. For everything you do, you believe, you must analyse and not just jump to conclusion.

Thats the statistician in me talking

kenapa sweet dreams? bahagian 1

assalamualaikum

akhirnya drama ni dah habis.
dengan pengakhiran cerita yang membuatkan aku kemurungan walaupun selepas diberi pengakhiran bahagia selamanya.

jadi ada pelbagai reaksi yang aku dapat dari orang sekeliling aku tentang drama ni. atau mungkin lebih kepada reaksi aku yang kelihatan separuh mati meminati drama ini.

Ada yang komen "Drama ni tak realistik. Macam mana boleh pakai baju sama setiap hari?".
"Ohh drama si bisu tu. Tak nak tengoklah, tak suka Mira Filzah".
"Haha akhirnya semua tu mimpi kan? Buat penat je kau tengok".

Tarik nafas dan lepaskan perlahan-lahan.
Begini ye rakan-rakanku sekalian.

Aku tak meminati kebanyakan drama Melayu (boleh rujuk tajuk-tajuknya dalam entri aku yang lepas) bukan atas sebab kebencian semata-mata. Oleh sebab aku ni sangat meminati bidang penulisan novel terutamanya, aku lebih fokus pada karakter dan jalan cerita. Sebab bila kita membaca, semuanya bergantung pada imaginasi kita untuk membayangkannya. Aku percaya peminat Acik Lana yang sudah baca novel itu terlebih dahulu pasti tidak dapat membayangkan Ben Amir dan Mira Filzah sewaktu membacanya. Cerita itu sudah kuat dengan plot cerita dan karakter itu sendiri.

Dan apabila ditayangkan di kaca televisyen, ia dipersembahkan melalui skrip dan lakonan pemain watak disamping tuan direktor yang mengawal semua aspek teknikal dan apa-apa sajalah yang berkaitan.

Aku serius jatuh suka dengan skrip yang bersahaja dan penuh bermakna disamping lakonan para pelakon yang tidak kekok. Ya, Mira Filzah tidak sesempurna Siti Elizad, Fauziah Ahmad Daud dan Ben Amir masih tidak mencapai tahap Beto Khusyairi, Bront Palarae, Jalaluddin Hassan. Tapi mereka berjaya mencipta keserasian dengan perbezaan personaliti yang mereka miliki. Dan mereka seperti kata orang putih 'keep it low' apatah lagi dengan Mira Filzah yang menjaga batas dan Ben Amir yang memang pemalu sejak azali. Kekurangan lakonan mereka berjaya ditutup dengan kehadiran watak-watak lain seperti Sean Lje sebagai Karl, Datin Nina sebagai Lola, Yusuf Bahrain sebagai Dr Ammar dan Yuna Rahim sebagai Cempaka.

Bagi aku drama ini cantik dan tak bosan. Dan tahukah anda siapa panel penulis skrip yang terlibat? Salah satu daripada mereka adalah Nadia Khan. Ya, Nadia Khan yang tulis novel Gantung. Maka tak mustahillah skrip cerita ni sangat menarik. Jadi terbuktilah bahawasanya aku sukakan cerita ini kerana cerita ini sendiri. Bukan kerana Nadia Khan yang memang sudah jadi penulis kesukaan aku sejak sekian lama, bukan kerana Mira Filzah yang aku sukakan lakonannya dalam 'Lelaki Kiriman Tuhan' dan bukan kerana Ben Amir.

Maaf Ben, saya cuma suka anda sebagai Qash Adam.
Oh, dan juga sukakan rambut anda.

Apa yang aku nak cakap disini ialah jangan menilai sesuatu hanya dari luaran. Hanya sebab kau tak ikut drama ni yang tiba-tiba menjadi sangat hangat maka kau mahu drama ini gagal dan mengutuknya habis habisan atas sebab yang bodoh.

Aku ada tulis di instagram aku yang aku bukan memuja drama ini. Ia ada banyak kelemahan, sejujurnya. Kalau kau kenal aku, aku tak suka apabila lelaki dan perempuan tidak menjaga batas. Insyaallah aku berusaha untuk menjaga batas pergaulan aku sendiri sebagaimana aku berpegang pada kepercayaan tersebut. Aku boleh juga senaraikan beberapa keburukan dan kekurangan filem ini sebagaimana aku boleh senaraikan kebaikannya.

Itu di entri yang seterusnya. Sebab ia panjang.

Heiiiiiiiiiiiii saya berjaya bercakap Bahasa Melayu di sepanjang entri ini. Vivy Yusof! Saya dah berjaya #cabaranbercakapMelayu. atau dalam kes aku #cabaranmenulisdalambahasaMelayu

*baik sebenarnya aku lupa nama # tu jadi aku letak sajalah ye

of drama and such

salam.greetings.

I never know I will hook up with other drama not so long after 'aku yang kau tinggalkan'. For months I have been rewatching 'teman lelaki upahan' and 'aku yang kau tinggalkan' like a crazy person. and been stalking ungku ismail like a die hard fan.

then booyah one day i come across a drama poster. sweet dreams. a novel adaptation.
by acik lana who also write playboy itu suami aku. you know i have an allergy over everything that related to fatah amin, so kinda want to pass this drama.

but...

shit.

ben amir happen. his hair happen. i was like a bit starstruck.

ok so i never watch his movie,drama or what so ever. i dont know him. and i accidentally watch 'hajah bakhiliah' because there is ungku ismail there. he is just a minor character so i skip most of his part. cruel, yes i know. but ungku ismail character in that telemovie is not one of his best character so fair enough to say i dont really like the telemovie itself. then at the credit, i saw ben amir name. so i was like 'hei...this is the handsome cool guy from the sweet dreams poster'.

so i stalk him. haha. psycho isn't? i just getting curious of him and excited after watching the drama trailer. i mean, mira filzah character is a cute girl type, ben amir's character is a cool guy and there is one cute oppa which later i knew him as seanlje.

i am not a die-hard fan of mira filzah, but her performance in some drama and telemovie is quite interesting. i remember write a post about telemovie 'abang beduk' here and so adore with her soft and adorable character. i like her in 'lelaki kiriman tuhan' and also 'duit kahwin'. to conclude, she not only an eye candy but at least all her performance is not awkward. and no, i don't really into her 'love story' with zizan like anyone else do.

watching episode 1 and yes, i know i am going to like this drama. i know some of the dialogue a bit pretentious but i like the attempt of not being a cliche story. like in the first episode, i know the lead is not as spontaneous as ungku ismail, but i like how he controls the vibe of being a cool guy. he doesn't seem too pretentious nor too confident. and of course full mark on his appearance. especially the hair @.@

oh i wont post his pic here. just go to my ig page.

the storyline is a bit different from the novel, which i can't really tell which one better because i did not read it yet. it is full of the surprise element, from the identical character of Kamal and the rapist to (till today) the make up of Love Actually scene. I dont know if it is actually written in the book or not. i love some of the sarcasm dialogue about the typical malay drama and social issue, i think the screenwriter really did a great job.

although at first, i have some issue over mira filzah outfit but i am glad she is taking the initiatives to improve it by only wearing skinny tight with a long huge skirt. and like always, i seriously not really favor that kind of tudung, but again, i can see mira taking effort to cover her aurat as perfect as she can.

i mean, this is the entertainment industry. that's why the older generation does not really like if their daughter to enter the industry. being an actress is fine, moreover, she always takes a role that not effecting her aurat or ikhtilat between man and woman. as long as i know la, correct me if i am wrong.

the thing is, as i grow up, i learn to be tolerant not because i am agreeing with the wrong action. but i am being tolerant because i dont want to create a mess because this aurat issue have their own argument based on different situation. you dont expect a celebrity or anyone in the entertainment industry to wear like a student from UIA or Al Azhar. Yes, there is celebrity wear full syariah like fynn jamal, mizz nina and natasha hudson but usually they are in the late 30 or early 40. they have their own ups and down, good and bad moment already. it is normal for someone who at the peaks of their 20 to make mistake or still in a not-so-good character.

i am not going to judge mira's changes from a girl who wear long hijab to someone who wear turban is a bad action. yes, wearing turban expose some of the body part that can create fitnah, although many people come up with their own argument to defend it. that action is unacceptable, not the person who did it. i am okay with mira or anyone who choose to wear non-syariah attire, but to be honest i will not becoming their fan or whatsoever. i unfollow vivy yusof for the same reason, but it does not mean i dont like her.i still peek at her post sometimes because she is funny and aspiring. i just want to take initiatives to show her, even if she not realising it, that i dont agree with her attire preference. at least for someone who wears hijab. and yes, i dont like a person neglecting hijab after they wore it because of some personal issue.

it is not the same case with woman celebrity who don't wear hijab. i do find some celebrity who don't wear hijab but have some kindness and a few good characters that make me curious about why she not choosing to wear syarie attire. for example siti elizad. like anyone else, i am quite disliking her at first because she is free hair and such. but when i read about her sacrifices to take care of her sick mother for years, i found she has a very good daughter character.

at least when you see someone doing the wrong thing, see her/him with a good impression. i am not defending anyone here, not mira nor siti elizad or anyone that seem to be my favourite in this entry.

i like sweet dreams drama over any religious drama because i like it. that does not mean i dont like religious drama (read my post on how i spend days and weeks watching para pencari tuhan and kiamat sudah dekat). i am not glorify the entertainment industry because i know how shit it can be but i am happy to see even one person in the industry try to bring a good vibe, contribution to the society. i am much happier of one change her/himself for a better, regardless he/she is a celebrity or not, because i am doing the same thing.

so what is your point actually?

my point is, for everything that you like or dislike, you have to think on both good and bad side. i know i seem too obsessed with the drama, but it does not mean i agreed with everything bad and good in that drama.

i like ben amir hair and qash adam character, but i really cant stand if he is shirtless or whispering too close with mira filzah. halal gap bro!

i like mira filzah and putri character but does not mean i agree with all the exaggerated cute reaction in that drama. serious, man can take it on the wrong side, you have to be careful.

i like how michael ang attempt to spread dakwah by few scene with karl character but i dislike how he mention he did curse at the actors yusof bahrain and nadsally. dont easily hurting other person is my point (yes, i know he will arguing this but whatever).


somehow, all this craziness will end. trust me. so right now, just endure it.

sincerely, me (the drama queen but in introvert version)

of writing and copy paste (kes plagiarisme novel anna lee)

stephen king pernah berkata, asas untuk menulis adalah banyakkan membaca.
bukan banyak tengok drama atau filem

sebab bagi aku buku tu ada ruh dia yang tersendiri. penyampaiannya selalu terus dari hati dan fikiran si penulis. walaupun kadang-kadang ada editor yang mengedit tapi ia takkan lari jauh dengan gaya penulisan seorang penulis.

untuk menulis juga kita perlukan aspirasi. aspirasi yang biasanya kita dapat dalam kehidupan seharian. kalau orang lain lebih senang menterjemahkannya melalui video, post, lagu dan sebagainya, seorang penulis pula menterjemahkannya melalui aksara. idea itu dikumpul, diolah,disusun dan dianalisis sebelum ia menjadi satu cerita atau buku yang lengkap.

aku pernah cuba berhenti menulis. sebab aku tahu ia tak bawa ke mana. habiskan bil elektrik, dakwat pen aku je. tapi klise seorang introvert, terlalu banyak yang bermain dalam fikiran aku yang aku tak dapat terjemahkan melalui kata-kata. jadi aku perlu menulis. walau ia hanya sekadar di blog usang ini atau media sosial. menulis itu senang. tapi untuk berkongsi tentangnya, menjadikan ia sesuatu yang bermanfaat apatah lagi mengkomersialkannya sangat susah. sebab itu sampai sekarang aku masih si penulis amatur. sebab penulisan komersial adalah satu tanggungjawab berat.

sebab itu bila aku tahu mengenai bagaimana seorang penulis meniru karya seorang penulis senior, aku rasa agak marah. sesiapa pun akan marah kalau hasil kerjanya ditiru bulat-bulat.

aku bukan nak merendahkan kebolehan penulis junior itu tapi serius aku kata, tak susah untuk menulis jika idea itu sudah ada dalam kepala kau. tulislah apa yang kamu tahu, bukan apa yang kamu mahu.

jadi kau tak tahu untuk buat scene di lapangan terbang. maka kajilah, bacalah, tanyalah. kau bukan hidup di zaman batu. kalau kau dari ceruk kampung sekalipun, kau masih boleh menulis mengenai apa yang ada di sekeliling kau. jadi diri kau sendiri. kalau kau mahukan lebih dari apa yang kau tahu, belajar, kaji.

kau boleh menulis surat permohonan maaf dengan penggunaan bahasa melayu yang betul dan boleh difahami, jadi kau bukanlah seorang yang buta huruf. sehingga harus meniru ayat demi ayat penulis lain.

hmm mungkin begini jugalah perasaan penkarya seni bila lanun cetak rompak berleluasa di negara ini. mereka penat-penat cari idea, susun melodi dan lirik, senang-senang orang jual karya mereka tanpa minta izin.

untuk penulis junior itu, pembaca dan mungkin juga si penulis senior itu boleh maafkan kau. tapi kau dah kehilangan kepercayaan dari kami pembaca dan orang dalam industri penulisan tempatan. kepercayaan itu adalah benda paling mahal orang boleh beri pada kita, lebih dari emas dan permata. dan nampaknya sekarang yang tinggal pada kau hanyalah batu kerikil dan kau perlu masa yang bertahun untuk membina kepercayaan orang semula.

to comfort you, i just want to say, you are very lucky to have a publisher want to publish your book and giving you the rezeki out of it. i know sometimes when we faced dead end road, we tend to do foolish thing just to get out of it. aku tak ada hak nak marah atau hakimi kau sebab aku tak kenal kau, tak pernah baca buku kau. dan tak semua orang, terutama orang yang kau curi karyanya itu, boleh faham atau maafkan kau. jadi kau kena jadikan benda ni pengajaran terbesar dalam hidup kau.

Mizz Nina was once a sexy singer, who seem to have no single thought of practicing true Islam lesson. But now she is one of the most respectful celebrity in Malaysia who always help in charity and such. It is because she learn her mistake and never in tend to look back to who she was.

banyak lagi contoh kan orang yang berubah dari jahat ke baik, itu yang patut kau contohi bulat-bulat dalam kamus hidup kau.

oh ya, just a footnote. kalau ada orang yang cuba nak buat benda yang sama kat penulis nurul syahida, percayalah anda takkan mahu tengok bagaimana kelab peminatnya akan menghukum anda.

the chronicle of uia 4 : tihany

i found this drama late from others walaupun hakikatnya drama ini ditayangkan dahulu daripada TLU. iyelah, dalam drama ni mereka masih menggunakan blackberry dan lagu kurnia-noh miss nina masih popular.

tihany

aku tak pernah sangka uia pernah bawa watak ala-ala gangster dengan kepala botak dan personaliti serius sampailah aku terjumpa video klip cerita ni di ig. the partner is nabila huda dan pada mulanya aku macam skeptikal skit sebab aku bukanlah peminat dia. last aku minat lakonan dia adalah blok 404.

surprisingly, nabila huda did a really good job with her chaaracter. boleh nampak la, dia sangat loving-loving dgn pakwe dia yang lama (peluk-peluk pegang tangan) tp bila babak romantik dengan uia, mereka tak bersentuhan sangat. nak pegang tangan pun payah walaupun dalam cerita tu mereka suami isteri.

tihany, tipikal drama tv9 terutamanya berkisar mengenai kehidupan seorang gadis kaya yang suka hidup sederhana tapi terpaksa galas tanggungjawab mengetuai syarikat selepas kematian bapanya. dia terpaksa berkahwin dengan bodyguardnya untuk menutup malu apabila tunangnya tidak memunculkan diri pada hari pernikahan mereka.

klise kan. macam tak masuk akal pun ada kan. takpa, tunggu dulu.

macam yang aku syak, plan perkahwinan itu sememangnya sudah dirancang oleh ibu tirinya. kematian bapanya, kehilangan tunangnya dan bodyguard yang menjadi galang ganti, semuanya sudah dirancang. sofea, ibu tirinya faham sangat dengan psikologi dan permainan emosi tihany sehingga dia memungkinkan perancangannya terjadi secara neutral.

aku suka drama ini seperti memaparkan satu plot yang lurus, tetapi sebenarnya dalam setiap episod, ada imbasan dan kupasan tentang perkara sebenar yang terjadi dalam kehidupan karakter-karakter dalam drama. identiti sofea, imran dan mereka yang berada di sekeliling tihany dikupas sedikit demi sedikit sehingga penonton benar-benar merasakan satu-satunya karakter yang boleh dipercayai adalah tihany.

hubungan kekok tihany dan imran berubah menjadi selesa dan boleh mempercayai antara satu sama lain. tihany yang memulakan langkah untuk menamakan hubungan mereka dan imran yang menghulurkan sebuah kejujuran untuk menjaga hubungan yang sudah terjalin itu. inilah yang perlu dilakukan oleh pasangan dalam drama melayu; berterus terang dahulu jika mahu mengelak salah faham.

tak banyak yang aku mahu katakan tentang drama ini. tapi aku suka kelainan pada watak uia. kalau anda nak tengok dia jadi drag queen, gangster ganas, suami yang loving in awkward way, bolehlah cuba tgk drama ni.

*drumroll

for the very special appearance, i present you....

bila aidil ada fitri

bak kata uia, this piece is a very easygoing, straight forward and interesting.bagi aku cerita ni perfect. aku suka komedi bersahaja uia dan siti saleha, ikhtilat yang mereka jaga sepanjang drama (walaupun aku tak setuju babak berpiknik buka puasa waktu maghrib di taman). the main charcters is perfect. cuma watak antagonis saja yang mcm cringe skit (aku terganggu dengan gaya tudung yang dikenakan). moms yg sporting gila, adik lelaki yang blh jd bff, kwn baik yg sempoi & sepupu yg ala-ala tom & jerry.

untuk versi novel, apa yang aku baca di goodreads, ramai yang tak prefer cerita bila aidil ada fitri sebab ia terlalu ringan. tiada drama.

tak penat ke baca/ tengok cerita yang penuh drama?

other credit films yang aku nak mention adlh :

duit kahwin (4/5 sebab dialog dia nmpk bersahaja & comel je wtk uia yg sygkn wtk mira filzah sejak zmn sek)
kad raya dalam kolong (5/5 sebab aku suka kerumitan watak uia)
antara garisan (4/5 great plot twist.aku cuma tak suka sbb uia jd jahat)
setan dalam poket (4/5 out of brain punya cerita)
cik shopholic (3/5 love the sarcasm humour of uia)
sutun 2 (3/5 aku suka jln ceritanya tp aku benci wtk uia yg pengecut)
isteriku bukan tukang masak (4/5 aku suka chemistry wan sharmila dan uia walaupun mereka wtk tmbhn. ayang...now! haha)
selingar (4/5 cerita ni buat aku teringat salah satu cerita yg aku tulis ala-ala beauty & beast gitu)
kashaf imani (5/5 sebab beto dan sharifah amani. hehe sorry uia, beto is my first love. sapa suruh bawa wtk jht yg menjadi gila. btw, again wan sharmila and uia)
tragedi duit raya (3/5 aku agak turn off skit dgn wtk janna nick. with no reason)

aku tahu byk je lagi projek uia, plg terkenal adlh syurgamu ramadhan. tp aku tak sempat tgk lagi drama tu.filem2/drama2 dia yg aku tak mention aku rs biasa2 je jln ceritanya. dan aku juga berhajat utk habiskan jgk menonton filem/drama arahannya.

ya tuhan betul die hard fan ni. boleh la buat tesis tntg dia.

the chronicle of uia 3: pembancuh kopi mr vampire

aku memang dah simpan niat untuk mengutuk cerita seterusnya ni sejak bulan puasa lagi.
tapi ia sering tertangguh sebab aku sangat malas untuk membuka laptop.

pembancuh kopi mr vampire

to be honest, my first impression pada babak pertama drama ni adalah....aku tak suka. aku tak suka perempuan yang terlalu lembik macam nuzul dan aku tak suka lelaki yang hidung tinggi macam alif irsyad. dia fikir dia mark zukerberg? prince william? great gatsby?

poyo betul untuk aku tahu watak dia adalah jenis lelaki yang hanya pandang orang dari golongan atasan. tolonglah, berapa kerat je melayu malaysia yang kaya dan tak pernah jumpa golongan marhaen, miskin. episod pertama juga menyaksikan melati, sepupu slash girlfriend wannabe irsyad menyumpah seranah dan mengugut nuzul diberhentikan hanya kerana tertumpahkan air ke bajunya.

tolonglah, kyra lydia yang ego tu pun tak ada kecoh-kecoh nak pecat pekerja bagai.

aku rasa babak tu sangat hiperbola, diperbesarkan dan poyo. watak nuzul aku rasakan terlalu tipikal, perempuan biasa yang menggalas tanggungjawab besar. secara realitinya, golongan atasan hanya akan memandang golongan bawahan untuk mengambil kesempatan. kemungkinan untuk anak orang kaya jatuh cinta pada perempuan yang tiada apa-apa adalah bersamaan kosong.

Itulah juga yang difikirkan oleh alif irsyad. tapi dia telah membuat satu kesalahan besar yang memungkinkan semua itu terjadi iaitu menghina, membenci dan menyakiti hati seorang wanita yang tidak bersalah. ia dipanggil karma. benda yang paling kau benci akan jadi benda yang paling kau sayang.

aku percaya pada karma. dan sebab itu aku boleh teruskan menonton cerita ni.

dan lama kelamaan seperti alif irsyad aku juga rasa watak nuzul ni menarik. cantik dan bersahaja. walaupun tahap lemah lembut dia boleh buatkan aku annoying, tapi dialog yang dia lontarkan agak kelakar dan menarik.

basically apa yang aku belajar dalam hidup adalah jangan percayakan, cintakan sesuatu sepenuh hati kau tanpa membenarkan sebarang ruang kesilapan atau kesalahan berlaku dalam sesuatu perhubungan. Ya, kau boleh cintakan seseorang bagai nak rak, tapi kau juga kena bersedia kalau suatu hari nanti cinta tu akan hilang. kau kena persiapkan diri kau dengan sebarang kemungkinan yang akan berlaku dalam sesuatu perhubungan. sebab perhubungan melibatkan manusia, dan manusia takkan pernah sempurna.

aku faham alif irsyad sedang melalui fasa jatuh cinta kuasa 18 pada nuzul dan perasaan itu juga yang melemahkan seluruh sistem saraf dan kehidupannya. cinta seharusnya menguatkan, bukan melemahkan. aku tahu, mungkin ramai lelaki akan menempelak pandangan aku.

"perempuan macam tulah. suka mainkan perasaan lelaki kononnya nak berkorban atau nak tegakkan benda-benda bodoh. itu hanya alasan utk tutup ke-bitch-an dorang"

okay satu je aku nak cakap. jadi 'lelaki' boleh tak?

perempuan dikurniakan dengan kemahiran manipulasi yang sangat tinggi, jadi lelaki being a man, boleh tak berpandangan jauh skit. kalau kau cuba masuk dalam otak dan emosi wanita yang berselirat ni, nescaya kau akan terjerut. tapi kalau kau berpandangan jauh, lakukan observasi, kau tentu jumpa hujung dan pangkal dawai-dawai yang berselirat itu dan bolehlah kau leraikan segala benda yang berselirat itu.

see, you cant even understand my words right? itulah perempuan.

aku tak suruh kau jadi positif 24 jam sebab mungkin sebenarnya perempuan itu nak main-mainkan kau. okey, benarkan semua kemungkinan yang positif dan negatif, tapi jangan biarkan ia menghantui kau dalam tempoh yang lama. cuba cari penyelesaian. tanya diri kau, apa yang kau rasa, kau mahu dan perlu. fokus pada itu, ambil tindakan, tolak tepi dendam ke hapa sebab semua tu takkan selesaikan masalah. be a man, dude. jangan sebab seorang perempuan kau jatuh terkulai umpama teratai layu di tasik madu.

memang susah kalau dalam perhubungan, kau harapkan pasangan kau jadi seorang mind reader. kenyataan itu pahit tapi nak makan ubat tanpa perlu rasa kepahitan tu pun ada caranya, bukan. kalau nuzul bincang elok-elok tentang kebenaran yang berlaku empat tahun lalu, mungkin semuanya takkan jadi makin rumit. nuzul harus kenal personaliti alif irsyad yang mmg jenis spoil brat, semua nak kena ikut cakap dia, semuanya kena jelas ikut pemahaman dia. jadi berterus terang adalah jalan terbaik untuk jernihkan keadaan.

hah, kan aku dah bukak kelas kaunseling kat sini.

anyway aku suka beberapa watak tambahan dalam cerita tu. pasangan megat benjamin dan irina yang kelakar dan comel, laila dan saiful yang loving dan bersahaja, dan parents irsyad yang cool and calm. walaupun ada satu masa ibu irsyad membuat tanggapan seperti orang yang tidak ada iman kerana takut cucu nya menghidap autisme kerana nazira ada pertalian darah dengan nuzul (rupanya tidak). bodoh betul.

dalam cerita ni aku cuma nak komen beberapa babak yang buat aku rasa ..."oi oi, jaga ikhtilat oi" terutama part yang membabitkan nuzul dan irsyad. haha. mungkin sbb aku rasa uia ni sgt charming dan akan membuatkan pelakon yang bawa watak nuzul ni akan benar-benar jatuh cinta padanya.

motif kan.

aku hanya baca sikit novelnya, dan nampaknya memang tak jauh beza dengan drama. jadi aku tak dapat nak komen lebih untuk bahagian novel.

the chronicle of uia 2 : aku yang kau tinggalkan

masih masih masih masih....
*itu kamu-estranged

haha. masih dengan topik uia. jadi drama kedua beliau yang aku tengok adalah ....

aku yang kau tinggalkan

aku dapat tahu tentang cerita ni lepas baca komen di youtube (semasa menonton drama TLU). aku check out the trailer and teaser pastu....pergh jatuh cinta plus curious.

seorang perempuan cantik manis berkahwin dengan lelaki cacat. macam beauty and the beast. tapi kemudian lelaki tu berubah jadi hensem dan normal tapi dah tak cintakan perempuan tu sebab perempuan tu tinggalkan dia.

macam tulah gambaran teaser yang diberikan.bapak menarik kan.

maka tercongoklah aku depan phone aku, siap download app rtm supaya boleh tgk drama tu tanpa gangguan. dari ramadhan pertama hingga ke hari 30, rutin aku adalah sebelum buka tengok skit (pukul 7), makan 10 minit lepas tu sambung tengok. bila iklan cepat-cepat ambil sembahyang dan sembahyang dengan tenang. bila dah pukul 8, bersiap ke masjid utk terawih atau bersiap utk ke tusyen. pukul 9.30 lepas terawih atau lps habis kelas, ulang balik tgk kat youtube. lepas tu sepanjang nak tunggu pukul 7 keesokan hari, aku dok refresh ig rtm hanya utk tgk teaser harian.

gila kan.

aku pun tak tahulah dengan prestasi ramadhan aku tahun ni. tapi memang aku pastikan aku akan isi diari ramadhan aku dengan solat terawih atau solat sunat.

mula-mula ceritanya agak perlahan, cerita tipikal perempuan kampung yang berkelulusan universiti, jadi tonggak utama keluarganya. nia athirah terpaksa berkorban demi ibu dan adik-adiknya. tapi Tuhan permudahkan dia sebab dia jatuh cinta pada suaminya sendiri walaupun lelaki itu sakit. dia perempuan yang penuh kasih sayang dan kesabaran, siapa je yang tak jatuh cinta.

tapi bila ada yang membuat onar tentang perkahwinannya, nia rasa goyah. dia tahu cintanya pada suaminya belum cukup kuat untuk dia terus bertahan disisi zaril. dia rela mengalah demi melindungi zuriatnya yang mungkin akan jadi mangsa mereka yang busuk hati padanya. tapi bila takdir menemukan mereka semula, semuanya jadi kucar kacir.

masing-masing memendam perasaan marah dan cinta, masing-masing salahkan antara satu sama lain. penipuan demi penipuan dilakukan hanya untuk menutup kebenaran. hmm bangkai gajah masakan boleh disembunyikan. si ayah perlu tahu kewujudan si anak walau bertapa tebalnya tembok pertahanan atau kemarahan si ibu.

nia dan sikap overprotectivenya, zaril dan kemarahan tak terbendungnya, semuanya hilang bila masing-masing tahu kebenaran dan beri peluang kepada pasangan masing-masing. semudah itu, zaril dan nia jadi pasangan yang penuh dengan kasih sayang dan saling melindungi antara satu sama lain.

to be honest, aku suka AYKT versi drama sebab perkembangan ceritanya pada akhir-akhir episod. dalam novel, ia hanyalah satu naratif yang panjang tentang apa yang jadi pada mereka semua. tapi versi drama, macam biasa bila mak mertua kau tak suka kau banyaklah drama yang timbul.

aku suka zaril versi drama yang melindungi isterinya sepenuh hati walau peluang untuk salah faham itu sangat terbuka luas. sebaik saja dia berbaik dengan nia athirah dia seperti mahu melindungi cinta mereka dalam pada masa yang sama cuba menyenangi hati ibunya. paling penting he did it in the most charming and funny at the same time. itulah uia yang dikenali peminatnya sbg seorang yg sempoi.

back to the story, apa yang menjadikan AYKT menarik adalah ia dipenuhi dengan drama- mak mertua ipar duai jahat, anak sisihkan bapa, bapa sisihkan anak, isteri tinggalkan suami, tapi semuanya diimbangi dengan karakter suami yang percaya dan melindungi, isteri yang menjaga aib keluarga, dan anak kecil yang jujur melindungi ibunya. Sifat percaya dan melindungi inilah yang aku jarang jumpa dalam drama lain, yang selalunya si isteri harus berusaha 200% untuk mengelakkan dirinya dari menjadi mangsa fitnah orang lain kerana si suami akan senang-senang saja mempercayai fitnah tersebut. Hubungan rapat yang zaril bina dengan zara juga sangat penting kerana ibu atau isterinya atau orang lain mungkin boleh membohonginya, tapi tidak budak kecil sesuci zara. rasanya ini salah satu alternatif yang boleh digunakan oleh pasangan iaitu mengambil kira pandangan dan perasaan anak mereka dalam menyelesaikan konflik rumah tangga.

cuma mungkin apa yang aku kurang puas hati adalah dipertengahan cerita. main tarik tali sungguh si nia dan zaril sampai rasa mahu saja dilagakan dua kepala batu ini. terutama watak zaril, sekejap nak berdamai, sekejap cakap benci, sekejap nak beri peluang, sekejap ungkit kesalahan....kau nak apa sebenarnya setan? memang dialog yg nia cakap dalam berderet episod mereka di turin adalah 'abang nak apa sebenarnya'. haha. aku pun naik menyirap.

dan nia sebagai seorang ibu yang terlalu melindungi juga melakukan kesalahan dengan menyembunyikan kewujudan zara. mungkin waktu sekarang, dia hanya nampak jika zaril tahu tentang zara, dia akan berpisah dengan zara. tapi pada waktu yang mendatang, dia harus fikir masa depan zara. bagaimana jika anak itu membesar tanpa mengetahui dia masih ada wali. waktu itu, situasi mungkin akan bertambah rumit.

ini juga kali pertama aku mengikuti media sosial para pendukung utama drama ini iaitu siti elizad and uia. uia juga ada memperjelaskan beberapa isu yg dipaparkan dlm drama ini seperti bolehkah seorang lelaki 'gila' berkahwin? dan beberapa isu seperti batas pergaulan. aku suka penegasannya mengenai isu ikhtilat. dia selesa dengan siti elizad sebagai seorang kawan dan sebarang sentuhan itu tidak membawa makna apa-apa bagi dirinya.tp dia juga sedar itu bukan alasan yg kukuh untuk membenarkan sebarang sentuhan antara mereka dan dia seboleh boleh mengelak dari melakukannya.

walaupun produksi drama di malaysia masih kurang menitik beratkan isu tersebut dalam siaran drama (kecuali utk saluran astro oasis atau al hijrah), sekurang-kurangnya uia berani utk meluahkan pandangan peribadinya dalam isu tersebut. dan sebenarnya aku sebagai penonton boleh nampak dia lebih menitikberatkan scene romantik yang hanya bersandarkan kata-kata dan reaksi wajah berbanding scene yang memerlukan sentuhan antara lelaki dan perempuan. ini pandangan aku lah.

untuk versi novelnya, aku suka sebab lebih banyak menerangkan apa yang berlaku pada hidup nia di turin dan tempat-tempat menarik yang dia kunjungi bersama delegasi syarikat zaril. kalaulah versi drama ditunjukkan kemahiran bahasa nia dan jika mereka ada buat research lagi tentang kaedah pembelajaran yang nia aplikasikan pada golongan kurang upaya, pasti lebih sempurna.

hoi panjangnya aku membebel. ok, next drama on the way. hehe

the chronicle of uia

uia tu nama org
bukan universiti islam antabangsa
tapi ungku ismail aziz

hahaha

macam biasa, kalau aku dah crush dengan seseorang selebriti aku akan selidik semua hasil kerja dia dan kehidupan dia sampai ke lubang cacing paling rajin menggali.
hiperbola sangat ni

well ini adalah sebahagian dari drama,filem lakonannya yang aku tengok, dan aku analisis ikut pemahaman dan selera aku. jadi ia mungkin betul dan mungkin salah. no offense to anyone.

teman lelaki upahan

drama ni bersiaran dalam tahun 2015. masa tu aku rasa aku tengah jalani praktikal di fama selangor. maka paham-paham sajalah zaman universiti aku mmg malas kalau nak follow drama melayu, apatah lagi dengan kelajuan internet di rumah sewa aku. drama korea pun aku stop follow waktu tu sebab hari-hari aku terlalu letih untuk layan drama. oh ya, rasanya waktu tu aku follow drama rich man poor woman (japan) kat youtube. sedihnya ia tak full so aku macam terangau tak tahu nak cari kat mana full episode.

anyway, ya ramai orang beritahu aku drama ni best termasuk kawan baik aku si farah. tapi macam biasalah, aku mana pernah dengar cakap dia. drama rich man poor woman (japan) tu dia suruh follow tahun 2013 tapi dua tahun kemudian baru aku tengok. dan ini, TLU dia dah beritahu aku sejak tahun 2015 tapi empat tahun kemudian baru aku tengok. dasar degil dan lambat.

ya allah bila kau nak mula analisis ni, cik kak oi.

first of all, aku hanya kenal uia dari telefilem sutun 2, antara garisan, isteriku bukan tukang masak dan khasyaf imani. syurgamu ramadhan plak aku tengok last episode je but seriously aku terkesan dengan plot dia minta maaf dengan isteri dia yang jahat tu. siti elizad plak, seriously aku paling ingat filem debut dia iaitu kalau tak silap 'kl gangster'. kemunculan dia dalam sitkom sepahtu dan pertandingan realiti kat astro dulu buat aku sedar yang dia sangat berbakat. dan cantik.

aku tak nak tengok TLU atau baca novel dia sbb pertama, aku sangat tak percaya dengan istilah teman lelaki atau teman wanita. mungkin aku akan tertarik kalau tajuk dia suami upahan, sebab bila dah halal barulah senang hati sikit kalau nak tengok or baca babak-babak romantik.

tett! aku salah.

aku suka karakter siti elizad sebagai kyra. dia cantik, dia bitch yang cool, dia seksi and allurring...ciri-ciri yang selalunya kau akan benci tapi she make us love her for her bitchness. dan dia sangat sesuai dengan karakter uia yang sempoi, lawak, selamba tapi masih charming. seriously they are like match made in heaven in dramaland. macam shah rukh khan dan kajol. tambahan, dorang jadi best friend off screen which make them comfortable with each other.

bagi aku TLU versi drama adalah sesuatu yang tak bosan ditonton. part back story of mama kyra yang dikembangkan dari awal cerita memang nampak membosankan tapi aku rasa itu sangat penting untuk mengisi kekosongan yang ada dalam versi novel. tengok la pelakon dia siapa. hehe. babak tambahan dalam komplot tuduhan berzina abang EL pun dilakukan dengan sangat baik, simple tapi berkesan. Ini menunjukkan watak EL sedikit demi sedikit boleh move on dengan cintanya pada Zara. Kalau dia masih mahu dapatkan wanita itu, senang-senang je dia boleh gunakan peluang tu untuk rebut hati Zara. Tapi EL takkan khianati keluarga dia sendiri demi cinta dia yang bertepuk sebelah tangan tu. It means EL sangatlah baik. Heheh. Dah la comel je manja-manja dengan umi dia.

The romantic part is acceptable, tak adalah melibatkan cubaan mencium memeluk atau sewaktu dengannya yang boleh membuatkan aku turn off untuk tengok drama tu. Babak EL sentiasa call Kyra, sentiasa nak spend time dengan dia dan how they look at each other sudah cukup untuk nampak the love spark between them. dan membuatkan penonton senyum seorang-seorang macam orang gila. haha.

aku suka kedegilan dan keegoan kyra mendapatkan apa yang dia nak. she is a bitch, tapi dia bukan slut. dia tak berminat nak rampas haidar dari najwa walau kalau ikut skrip drama lain, perempuan macam dialah yang selalunya jadi perosak rumah tangga orang.bila kyra berubah dari imej seksi dan bermekap tebal kepada sopan dan lebih natural look, seriously aku rasa siti elizad adalah orang yang paling cantik sebagai watak kyra. apatah lagi bila dia pakai tudung. the style is quit weird tapi still she can look so beautiful.

i would say uia sebagai EL tak adalah hensem pecah ovari sangat, tapi kita lebih terpikat dengan watak dia yang boleh masuk dengan semua orang. Siapa je yang tak suka EL. Dan aku sangat terkesan dengan babak dia balas dendam pada kyra. dan aku sangat suka dengan reaksi kyra yang cool and calm bila dilayan sedemikian rupa. dia boleh je melawan macam dulu tapi dia prefer untuk terima saja sebab dia tak nak keruhkan lagi dendam EL.

aku cuma kurang puas hati dengan pengakhirannya yang seperti tergesa-gesa. bukan apa, we want more of sweetness from them. kalau ikutkan novel, memang ada babak sampai dorang pergi bulan madu. which is the reason why aku sanggup beli e-book novel ni semata-mata nak baca the ending. muahaha.

Uia dan siti elizad really nailed their character dengan cara dorang sendiri. dan surprisingly aku pun berpuas hati dengan karakter diorang dalam novel. momen-momen EL dilamun cinta dengan Kyra, momen-momen mereka sakit hati dengan satu sama lain, memang rasa sampai ke lubuk jantung gitu.

dan fun fact, penulisnya, azura rassidin pada awalnya menulis naskhah ini dengan tajuk gadis ego dan lelaki misteri. ada cerita penuhnya di blog penulisan beliau. ia ditulis pada tahun 2010 dan to be honest, mungkin atas faktor umur yang masih muda, naskhah itu aku kira kurang matang dan lebih kepada fantasi.

But i really dont mind sebab tahun 2010, aku berusia 18 tahun dan tergila-gilakan jang keun suk. you know how unmatured you are bila kau minat pada lelaki yang kelihatan spt perempuan.

dalam GEDLM watak EL jadi EZO dan kyra masih kyra. watak haidar jadi alfie, nama bapa kyra jadi dato haidar dan dia tak sakit. Dia hanya mahu kyra kahwin kalau nak harta. EZO yang digambarkan mempunyai mata berwarna biru merupakan anak hartawan kedai emas yang berpusat di Paris (kemain kau eh) dan tidak mempunyai pekerjaan tetap di Malaysia (penganggur terhormat). mereka berkenalan hanya dengan terserempak dia kedai makan (EZO sedang bantu kawannya jd pelayan restoran), kyra hulurkan kad dan minta nombor telefon lelaki itu, kemudian tiba-tiba menawarkan EZO jadi suami upahannya.

weird enough kan.

tapi betullah dari idea yang tak matang itulah lahirnya plot cerita yang lebih realistik seiring dengan perkembangan umur penulisnya. aku akui ia satu nashkah yang klise tapi aku suka plot ceritanya yang kemas, menarik dan penuh drama. bak kata seorang reviewer di goodreads, novel ini adalah lebih tentang mereka yang nak berubah dan mulakan hidup baru seperti yang digambarkan watak kyra.

Tak tahu tajuk

Distancing myself from the people..it is like my life routine since puberty. I have friends, insyaallah many good friends. But at times i like to keep my distance away from them, from the crowd just so i can be alone. Not because i hate their company, but it is a necessary routine to maintain a good relationship. To be honest, human are not nice and good 24 /7 including myself. I have angry moment, dissapointment moment, sad, happy, thrilling. Most if the time i want to keep my bad vibe to myself (which is i assume the percentage is higher than my positive vibe). Other than that, maybe it just an introvert thing. I feel recklessly tired when dealing with people, although i really enjoyed it. Maybe as i am not a good person trying to be good, it exhausted me. You can say i am pretending, hypocrite but i rather be that than hurting other people. Nevertheless, our Prophet Muhammad saw always taught his people to be good to each other and he is a great example of good human being. Seriously. So i want to be like him. My naqibah once told me to be good, sometimes it come in forceful way. Just believe it is the right thing to do, then like Nike tagline just do it.

I am not writing this for the people around me aware of the reason i am behaving like this. I am writing this because i am bored waiting the library to open. Yes, i am 27 years old and still goes to the library, what a geek. Also, it is the way i observe and evaluate (haha you think this is research analysis ?)my life. And most importantly, i dont want to bother my best friends with this thought. I am the friend who always have random thought and suddenly barge into DM of my best friends to share the thought with them.

Can i add something here? (Duhh it is your blog).

I dont know but i dont like a person who pestering other people with their life problem. Constantly (Omaigod am i talking about myself?)
No honestly, i feel like disliking a person these day because she is the type of person who like dragging people with her problem. Like if she hungry, she will drag a friend to eat with her (not treating her. The friend had to pay for herself). If she late, she want people to be late too.

No, she is not acting like a boss. She acting like a princess who had to be entertain 24/7. Which is my pet peeves of having someone leeching on you 24/7.

She is a nice girl, i just never understand of person who cant live on her own. Yes, if my fellow friends read this, please give me your thought on how to deal with this kind of people.

Till then bye
Btw the library is still not open. Duhh

the mad hatter

salam alaikum.

today, as early as 7 am, i am checking my instagram feed. typical millenial. and i come across to a post by intotaqwa.

a post of awareness about a girl who write a book title 'unveil me' (if i am not mistaken. i am too lazy to check it). basically the book is about a muslim, hijab girl who decide to take off her hijab and 'be herself'. something like that.

i am too piss off with this kind of people that i choose to let their story aside. the girl (the writer) will officially take off her hijab (although she already show her hair in the poster) at her book launching event.

i dont know if this is some kind of joke or what. maybe she just kidding just to see how much social media 's ustazah ustaz that will triggered and decide to come to her event & buy her book. maybe she not really mean to take off her hijab.

husnuzon. if that is true, then i am fine. but if she mean to do it...astagfirullah lets pray for her.

this make me cry
really

how a muslim decide to throw dirt at their own religion.
they really dont know how to read between the line of Allah's fate and rule with their own self need.

I need woman to be free from hijab, from polygamy, from Islam discrimination of covering aurah.
But never they ask guidance from Allah swt who have all the answer to their question and need.

I am practical modern woman who wears turban because I dont want to be the typical conservative Muslim woman. I am supporting an entrepreneurs, singer who wear sell turban, wear turban because they seem to have a rigid reason to wear it.

Stop it la.
I know I am the most conservative girl you might have encounter but just cut the crap. You are stepping back into the years of 1970 or 1980 (maybe) where woman in Malaysia are slowly adapting Islamic way of life that is wearing hijab. Remember, in those year, only few wearing turban (or at my point of vie they are just wearing scarf (anak tudung)), and they are wearing it because they want to learn. Not because they feel it is a good fashion sense.

In 1990s and 2000, i remember how my siblings and I laugh at some pictures of my mother and her collegue friends (back in 1980) because of their fashion style. Me at that time wonder why the woman are allowed to wear just 'scarf' but the at school, the students need to wear full hijab.

And guess what, almost 30 years after that we are back into that trend. This is not old school guys.

Hijab is too protect. Allah swt want to protect the woman. You can google Miss Nina or other good video that explain why it is necessary for a woman to cover their aurat and take care of the ikhtilat.

'Hey, read the Quran la. There are many dalil on woman aurah. Not googled it. Because Google is Yahudi company'

I am suggesting that way because you need something easy,light speech to triggered you first. Then, do research on your own. Talk to ustaz and ustazah. Read the Quran. Pray for His guideliness Life is a journey of learning, dont be lazy and make an early conclusion.

But if you dont even have faith in Him at the first place, then you should try other way of finding other God besides Allah swt. If and only if you are not a Muslim. If you are a Muslim, i beg you to think billions time before you decide to turn away from Him.

And there is other case post by PU Syed. A woman named Aisah make a status that she dont want a husband like Rasulullah saw. She decline the way of tabligh people's life which is if you dont know, they tend to leave their family to do dakwah for months.

When i was little, my mother always tell me same kind of hoax. Tabligh man is irresponsible, conservative and so on. And at university i learn that actually Tabligh people are very good in their tarbiah, so we should learn it from them. Moreover i had a friend back in primary school. Her father is tabligh people, a doctor (specialised in eye) who have his own clinic and when i peek at her father salary slip (yes, i am such a busybody) it says RM 8K. *eye wide open

'So what? Money can help their wife to take care of the children?'

Err..yes? Because they can hire maid?
And do you know they have a very good support system that not only come from family but from their sahabat (from tabligh and none tabligh circle). Let say Amin is an ustaz who also have a grocery shop. So each time Aminah, Ahmad's wife go shopping, Amin give her price discount and the shop helper help Aminah to bring the stuff she bought right in front of her house if she need anything in urgent. Ahmad neighbour, Puan Siti is a housewife who look after Ahmad's children when Aminah go to work.

It looks like a fairytale but a senior really did share his story of PJJ marriage. He works as engineer at Petronas Terengganu, her wife at Shah Alam. They have been married for 10 years and still happily ever after. He say the key word to their marriage is support system.

*have you ever thought why sometime there is a home husband (read: jobless) is a burden than a bless?

Remember my friend in primary school just now? Despite all the nasty talk about her father and her conservative family, she excel in SPM (13 straight A), continue studies in Cairo and now a doctor who has been married to a good man.

What a sweet revenge.

So Kak Aisah (the one who dont want Rasulullah type of husband and insulting tabligh), life is own by Allah swt. And what you need right now is to learn about barakah. Not a husband.

I am showing you a real example because yes, most of these people are actually excel in their profession. Do you know most of Palestine people have a very good profession, doctor, architect, engineer. And do you know where they end up? Serving for their country. The doctors are serving the patients with all the scratch facilities that they have. The lecturers, architect and engineer are brainstorming together with their good leader to plan war strategy and their aim is just want to save their people's life and their religion.

Shame on us.

Our country not even been in tough war and yet someone who feel gender discrimination (read: LGBT) are so eager to reject Islam, to object Allah swt 's rules, to humiliate ulama and alim people, and to curse at our prophet Nabi Muhammad saw.

You just have all the traits of people form former prophets whom have been destroyed.
Tahniah.

Everyone make mistake,everyone have flaws. Just dont commercialise your dosa and feel proud of it. Thats all i want.

As-syu' ara ayat 84-111

I overcome to this page just now. Let together be a good muslim. And pray for Islam and the believer.

My chubby friends

Salam.

Aku sanggup guna data setoet aku ni semata2 nk tulis entri. 

Semuany demi kawan aku, farhanis. The late farhanis actually.

Baru2 ni aku tgk video hazeman huzir bg talk pasal buli kat uitm & kat vlog shalma aina. He always come across with the story of his friend,syafa nissa.

A chubby cute humourous selamba woman in her early 30. He said at the beginning of her involvement with motif viral, many netizen bashed her on youtube channel because of her appearance.

I witness every single of the comments that at one point i block fewmean comment about her because i cant stand to read it.

I mean seriously, it is 2016 ( at that time if iam not mistaken) and you guys still bashed people for their appearance? Sebab apa? Kau jealous dia dpt masuk tv, keje astro, been noticed by sepahtu padahal kau yg konon cantik slim tu have a terrible life? But seriously, ada antara komen jahat tu dtg dari perempuan in early 20 and also look like school girl.

Ok, dorg tak matang. Aku pun pernah tak matang. Back in 1999, ms tu aku drjah 1. Aku berkawan dgn sorg budak perempuan 'comel' yg kdg2 terkincit, berak dlm seluar dalam. Aku tak suka bila dia terberak or terkencing, aku jauhkan diri bila dia dah bau lain mcm.but thats it. The 7 year old me know that i should not say sth bad just because of her physical appearance or flaws.

Girl, whereever you are, i am sorry for telling this. Peace no war.

In 2003-2004, i had a chubby guy friend who like to be asshole to everyone. He never let me borrow his comic because he said i am ...not worth. Yes, asshole. Thats end there. Coincidently our family are related and we never fight or what, because it is not necessary.

To be honest, my circle of friends mostly come from a thin small girl. Because you know what, chubby girl are more likeable to be friend with. Most of chubby girl i met is funny and talkative, guy rather spend time with them rather than us thin girl.

In 2010, when i was 19 years old, i met a friend name farhanis. This is the first time i had a real close chubby friend. She was my classmate and even in our first class, everyone love her already.

She is cute, have sweet way of talk, a very friendly yet good listener, have interesting hobby which is watching korean japan malay drama ( she is the source of my craziness with drama) and most important she is very very kind and patient.

I am seriously an awkward person and thats the reasons i am not so close with her. But my best friend is very close with her so we always gather in group. I enjoy her company. She is the one who lend me her car when i need to fetch my father who visit me (at perak), drive me to ipoh just to repair my broken laptop, lend me her novels and listen to my bored story.

Seriously, i feel i do nothing to cheer or help her back. I really cant find any flawless in her, not because she is dead. But because she is she. Ask all her friend and i can cut my hand if there is even one person tell you the opposite of what write here.

So people, please dont judge someone by their appearance and appreciate the kindness that they have before it is too late.

Al fatihah for my friend, farhanis. And to my late bff in high school, nani.

Woi, aku rindu kau. Siapa aku nk buli selain kau,woi. Takda org yg blur blur naif cam kau lg.hehe. dan aku minta maaf aku tak pernah dtg melawat kau. Mungkin sbb aku selfish. Sibuk sgt kejar dunia.

Dan fanis,sory hana tak dpt jenguk fanis utk kali terakhir. I guess i am not a good friend to you too.

Aku tak boleh tidur.
Jadi dengar jela aku membebel.

1. Selebriti dakwah yang butthurt
Aku ada komen pd ig seorg selebriti dakwah. Aku tak tahu pula aku punya sarcasm dah tahap sherlock (as in benedict fumberbatch) atau sheldon cooper tp dia memberi reaksi negatif apabila aku mengaitkan beliau dgn program maharaja lawak.
Hal tu dah settle, aku dah mohon maaf pada dia, terangkan kat sesetengah netizen yg juga salah faham tentang komen tersebut (seriously lawak guys. Aku terhibur baca komen korang) dan selamat juga unfollow selebriti berkenaan.
Tak penting pun kan. Tak beri kesan pun pd selebriti tu.

Cuma sekarang aku teringat pada satu selebriti lain yg juga menggunakan unsur lawak dalam dakwahnya.

Jadi tak kisahlah kan dari program realiti mana pun kau datang, kalau kau ikhlas dan positif, it does not matter. Aku dh lama x tgk MLM sbnrnya sejak sepahtu dah tak bertanding. Dan hanya tgk kembali bila dzawin ada menyertai. So kiranya, at least dakwah dzawin sampai juga kpd golongan marhaen mcm aku ni yg jahil agama. So stop being butthurt.

2. On the wings of love
Aku dh khatam cerita ni. Basically aku tertarik dgn jln cerita dia yg revolve around imigrant filipina di america. It is realistic. Yg idealistic nya sbb james reid blh nmpk cute 24/7 dan suka shirtless (no iam not happy with that. Wear you shirt,dude).

Cerita ni as typical filipina and asian drama, banyak sgt gula sampai aku kencing manis dan sakit gigi. So aku byk skip that part. Aku bahagia cerita ni tak ada watak orang kaya (apart from simon character which i think not important)

3. Office politic
Aku tak sangka aku akan mghadapi this thing again. Dimana2 ada saja manusia talam dua muka yg suka mengata dan menjatuhkan orang lain.

Ok dh ngantuk. Bye

Of introvert and writing

Assalamualaikum

Sebenarnya nak cakap, aku dah ada kegilaan baru. Watak Clark Medina dr On The Wings of Love #jadineloveteam

Tapi aku tak nak cakap pasal dia tp drama tu yg mempengaruhi otak, mimpi dan fikiran aku.

Jadi sebelum tidur semalam aku tengok beberapa episod drama tu & sementara tunggu download aku karang cerita yang dah bersarang kat kepala aku.

Ceritanya tentang seorang perempuan dalam lewat 20 an yg tipikalnya sedang membina kerjaya & cinta. Dia ada keje elok, di sebuah syarikat event management yg diurus oleh seorang bos lelaki (tua,dlm 38 thn) yang sgt self centered. Watak bos ni sbnrnya aku dpt dari cerita kwn aku nurul fauzani. Ex bosnya di sebuah syarikat event & jualan (i guess,sorry kalau salah) jnis yg hmmm self centered. He want to do many things but never focused to do it properly.

And at one point really menyusahkan pekerja2 nya. So dlm cerita aku, watak perempuan ni at early sgt sabar melayan kerenah si bos ni. Bukan sbb dia hensem atau kaya atau bongkak, tapi sbb itu saja pekerjaan yg perempuan ni boleh buat.

When almost all her friend left the company, dia terpaksa stay sbb dia tak sampai hati biar si bos tu uruskan sorg2. Tak, aku takkan terpengaruh dgn mana2 kisah cinta bos & pekerja yg berlambak kat tv dan novel. Aku cuba nk sampaikan kisah struggle kaum perempuan utk menaiki tangga kerjaya. Ramai kwn2 aku dan aku sndiri yg rasakan. Yelah at least bukan tahap2 mcm vivy yusof, but just a marhaen people who salary not reach rm 2k.

The only thing that keep this woman rational is her boyfriend, aidan. Aidan tipikal lelaki melayu yg sanggup buat byk kerja semata2 utk capai cita2nya jd rockstar. Aidan seorg yg energetic, kelakar dan semua sifat extrovert yg tiada pd wtk perempuan tu,farehah.

But then they broke up and farehah life screw up. Dia x expect utk berkahwin dlm waktu trdekat tp nmpknya dlm impian dan cita2 melangit aidan, dia tiada.

Kemudian barulah masuk cerita one of my best friend about her experience with tinder. She eventually hooked up with an older man with great career. But bodoh punya laki,still want his ex wife.

The bos, btw his name is hidayat, also is in the same situation. His wife left him after 10 years of marriage because of his workholic. He just dont know how to move on sbb dia pun bukan stok2 lelaki tua yg gatal tgk anak dara.

He found that farehah is the realistic wife he can have. Farehah is loyal, excellent in work and down to earth. He is not interested with her lame personality or characteristic, but he knows they can be great partner.

Farehah know hidayat only want to take advantages of her kindness ,of course dia tak layan. Hidayat wont do sth that dont benefit him. He can go to the extend of neglecting her right as worker just because they are marriage couple.

She want to back off and quit but it is not easy. Hidayat meet her father and eventually people around her pushed her to get married because hidayat seem like a fine good man.

Nobody knows that farehah actually had a depression after her break up. She can hardly smile and somehow become negative in life. She need someone like aidan, not hidayat. But she already give up with aidan so she accept hidayat proposal.

She just give up with her life and no longer care about the bad consequence she might have for choosing hidayat as her husband.

Pastu aku dh tak ada idea sbb aku cuba nk elakkan the cliche of benci2 syg. I am thinking of to make their rship as realistic and practical as they can be. Which is i think most of the couple in the world had. Not many couple survive because they still love each other. But because it is realistic and practical to stick with it rather than complicated your life with divorce issue.

I still dont find the ending. Jadi sebagaimana aku dpt idea dr cerita dua kwn aku ni, aku hrp aku dpt cerita dr org lain utk akhiri cerita ni.

Which is impossible i guess.

Which bring me to the urge of watching more drama and buy more books

Pftt...it is really hard to be introvert when you have so much thing in your head. Yang seterusnya buat aku mimpi benda pelik mcm bertunang dgn stranger.

Pergh menghayati watak seh. Apa2 jela
Till then,bye

Aku dan kegilaanku pada john llyod

Haha tajuk apabenda jela.

It is not an entry totally about john llyod, si aktor filipina tu. Tapi aku lebih nak cakap tentang drama cinta filipina atau dipanggil 'soap opera'.

I dont watch all his drama because seriously it is so hard to get them because most of his drama is in 2000's. Zaman tu youtube baru nak lahir dan peminat drama filipina hanyalah mak cik2 yg duduk rumah.

But i watch few on youtube ,but it only airs less than 15 episodes (out of 100+ guys). So i would like to give my thought on filipina love drama through john llyod dramas

How philiphines perception on love (in 2000s era)

1. The hero or heroine must be rich. Super rich like the mayor son or very successful businessman.

'More than love' drama show the heroine come from a family who had a successful shipping company and the hero is the long lost son of their rival company.

'It might be you',the hero is the son of town mayor while the heroine is an orphan (i i think she got backstory also but i told you u only watch 10 episode & i not yet googled about it).

'ikaw ang lahat sa akin', the hero once again the heir of a successful business company (they do many business which i dont care).

John llyod mmg takkan jadi org miskin yg mmg miskin. So does bea alonzo. Oh yeah if you notice, i only watch the drama he did with bea alonzo. Memula dorg suka cerita psl perbezaan darjat but at the end it always rupanya dua2 sama darjat.

Kau rasa? Haha. So aku mcm skeptikal skit dgn usaha dorg utk memberi mesej 'cinta tak mengenal darjat'. Pftt.

2. John llyod always...always...be the guy who madly deeply in love with the girl. Yeah i know bea is pretty, even a woman could adore (and envy) her.

It is the extend of entering her room just to say he miss her (ikaw ang lahat sa akin), pretend to be her husband and make a lot of skinship in (more than love) & clinging to her from childhood period to adult (it might be you).

Sometimes it feels romantic and sometimes it is soo annoying. Like freaking annoying.
Must he ask her to date him in office hours (IALSA) & only the antagonist feel it is inappropriate while everyone let them be?

I am bothered by the skinship they had in MTL (yeah, they got two season and half of them are just showing how they glued with each other).

It seem like, they try to show if you love someone, touch her, comfort her with you hands, your body...i mean what the hell. You are intruding someone personal space too much and you call that love. Call me conservative, i dont care if you are englishman or americans. But it bothered me because asian people should have limitation of it.

Which bring us to number 3,

3. They seem to transform into their colonial culture

We all know that all the soap opera story is sooo not relevant. They only talk about
jealousysy and hatred because of wealth, exaggerate love between man and woman more than with their own parents.

They seem want to be like their colony; rich and dont care about anything else like poverty and social issue. Yes, they did show scene where the rich donate food and money to the poor but that is so pretencious. Like a 12 year old girl can write the scene.

4. How they allowing LGBT community in their society

Maybe in 2000s it is not so obvious. But in drama 'IMBY', there is an important character in the heroine life which become drag queen. I mean, the real actor i believe is a straight guy, and i dont see the importance to potray such character.

In become more obvious these day, the drag queen Vice Ganda even had his own show, and his films get into box offices.

Oh, just to tell you john lloyd did a gay character in one of his movie. Then starting from that, he is well known in hollywood.
Omaigod, why is he doing that? You want tough character? Just go to Tondo and live there for a month.

5. Last but not least, ok i just want to comment how they always potray bea alonzo in most of drama & movies. Can you stop potray her as a slut with all the unnessary romantic scene? She can be a good tomboy girl in IMBY and innocent girl next door in IALSA. so stop stripping her clothes and make her look like a slut.

 i conclude the 'love' that been potrayed in soap drama is more to illusion rather than reality. I told you philiphines people are very creative and have much affection in their love story. You watch 100 episode of indonesian sinetron is different from the feel that you get watching 100 episode of philiphines drama. So it would be great if they just stick with their own culture, with their real society issue and make a meaningful love story.

This is a few credit i want to give with each john llyod drama that i watch;

1. In IALSA, i like how the second heroine love and life issue. She is the typical hardworking poor girl but she been raped (when she in drunk situation) by  the man she adore (as a gentleman, not that she want to marry him). She still fight for her right (after know the truth) eventhough the rapist had become her business partner and best friend.

2. In IMBY i like the simple childhood both of the main character had. Especially with the child actor kathryn bernado. She is cute but matured, rough but soft heart. Her adorable gesture and the way she talk really make me satisfied with the first five episode.

More Than Love is just too complicated. I bet everyone just watch it because they want to see kilig moments between bea and john.

With this, i end my crush with you john. Kita putus.